suicide is the stupiest thing man ever committed. You can punish regardless of whether u die or not...really..police spank you even after u die as a form of punishment...
If u r religious, worse..u will get punished by whichever god u believe in..
buddhist or taoist, u go hell
christian, u meet god and he may forgive yr sin...or worse, u be welcome by satan...

anyway, take things in your stride..give whatever one deems fit.
if it really bothers u, tell your mum..she is afterall your mum...
you sounded as if, that you and your own family members are not close at all..whats happening? did u ask yourself that qn? you called your dad "her husband"???....hmn.....