Argh. Yesterday there was a test which determined student's ability to take A Maths in sec 3. I walked in with confidence until...
No calculator. My teacher [let's not blame him, sigh , me and my carelessness] didn't help me find a calculator so I rushed around looking for one... Couldn't find one. So how? I sat for that test without that stupid calculator. Had to give up quite a few questions because let's face it, if I was a math genius, I wouldn't be sitting for this test. Because of my anxiety of those blank questions, I think I screwed up my test royally. I'm now waiting for those results to appear... I don't want flying colours, just a darn pass so I can take A Maths... Really feel like living on borrowed time

, I don't want to disappoint my parents YET again when it comes to mathematics.
However, if I do fail this time and I cannot take A Maths next year, will I be handicapped when I do go Poly or JC? I'm trying to prepare for the worst in case I really do fail and by not taking A Maths, I'm like stabbing myself in the foot or sth. Maybe by preparing [in chinese, 'xing li jun bei'], I will not do anything stupid if it looks bleak.
Haha. People scolded me, saying, 'it's only a test, why got suicidal thoughts?'
I mean, look. Quite a percentage of people do take A Maths throughout many, many schools.
But you know parents and 'face'.
;_;