living without live...
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Today is a most unusual day, because we have never lived it before; we will never live it again; it is the only day we have. -William Arthur Ward
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Go back to your pokeball. 
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maybe i didnt write this sentence clear... i mean that the game in used to be addict alot once, in the past, i now not interested in them... and whats more, i dont have the time for them...Originally posted by popikachu:sainz...
i really dunno what the aim in my life...
there is really nth thats interest me to keep my life going...
really...
nth...
yup, nth...
even if i play all those online game which interest me alot and will make me addict like drug addict one, i got no mood to play it anymore...
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i try to make myself play some game but after a few min, at most 30, i wouldnt want to play it anymore...
and udontknowme, i think i am not depress... i nv had this feeling called depress ever...
and stress, i dont really feel stress until last year... stress... first time in my life i feel this thing call stress... in the past i used to think that stress or nth but just bullshit but now... ... ...
and yup, this is the first ever time i told someone... none my teacher, friend, parent know about this... i dont even think they know what i feel as i am always looking very cheerful one... but is not that i am really cheerful, i force myself to do it...
i try to make everything i do as happy as possible, but i just can't... people always think i am cheerful, never knew what i feel... and i can also cheer other up easily, but not myself...
is like, i really wish to end my life asap... if there is no tml, i wont be sad... cus i am tired of life, bored of it... if it were that tml would be the world last day, lots of you people will be sad as you got still alot of thing you wanna do... but, for me, i cant find anything that i really wanna do...
playing game, studies, work, going out with friend, socialise...
nothing... just nothing that i really wish to do... there is just like something, deep inside me, i wanna burst out.... i really feel like bursting out, but still cant find anything...
i thought telling you guys will be a good way to burst out, but its not totally good... i still have that stupid tiredness of life... dont call me to go scream, used all my strenght or other thing... i wont work... ya, i sure it wont work...
My mind, keep telling me to go on with life...
My heart, say give up...
My body, unable to control it...
My soul, i cant seem to find it...
yup, i really think i am lost...
cheerful outside, lost inside...
i really dont know what is the next step in life...
hope i know what to do before i end my life... -
how i wish, it was so easy...Originally posted by Darkness_hacker99: Go back to your pokeball. -
Suffering from depression.
I got it too and manage to get out from there with the help of my current gf ^^
Get some love =) -
i dont think i should play with this thingy called love...Originally posted by lihuanlo1988:Suffering from depression.
I got it too and manage to get out from there with the help of my current gf ^^
Get some love =)
i am just sec 4...
i just want to concentrate on my studies...
and once again, i dont think i got a depression... -
By doubting we come at truth. -CiceroOriginally posted by popikachu:i dont think i should play with this thingy called love...
i am just sec 4...
i just want to concentrate on my studies...
and once again, i dont think i got a depression...
Your inner self is asking you for truth?
What is your purpose of life? You are starting to question the fundamental of live. Congratulations this is the beginning of a new journey. -
i really hope it was a new journey...Originally posted by (human):By doubting we come at truth. -Cicero
Your inner self is asking you for truth?
What is your purpose of life? You are starting to question the fundamental of live. Congratulations this is the beginning of a new journey.
but it just that, i dont even wanted that new journey...
and i also dont think this is a new journey...
if can, i really wanted to start a new journey...
but i am just 16
without cert, without skill, and only halfway through the stage...
i haven even reach a checkpoint where i change a new job with my cert...
i have nothing to my name now...
how to start a new journey?
but still thanks for giving me the idea of a new journey...
maybe i will make things out differently...
thought i may not success, i will make it one day... hopefully...
my sch, can't change
My work, time to find another one...
My cca, finally i am passing out soon...
will things change in me? i hope so...
btw, i am much much better... and i went to work today...
but something happen there make me dont wanna go back again...
and, i am stuck again... maybe it is really time for me to find a new job...
but,with the age of 15++ not til 16, what can i do?
will i survive next years sec 5 Os?
finally i hope for something...
to pass through my Os, and that will be my first more then 1 way path, and, my first checkpoint...
hopefully... -
sainz...
Aim in your life is what you really want to do and everyone have a aim ,perharps,you have not realise what you really want and what you wish to be,example:wanting to be a doctor to save lives
i really dunno what the aim in my life...
there is really nth thats interest me to keep my life going...
really...
nth...
yup, nth...
even if i play all those online game which interest me alot and will make me addict like drug addict one, i got no mood to play it anymore...
why? why? i really got no one to talk to... no one whom i can trust to talk to... no one to share my problem... really no one...
i really wish to end my life asap, dont worry, i am not commiting suicide, but i am just damn tired with life...
a little about me...
i am a person who will go for my best...
i will try my best to give everything for just the best...
and to tell the truth, this is the first time i am telling other i am giving my best...
if you will to know me in real life, you wouldnt find that i am giving me best but i am really giving me best...
ya... i really got no mood to do anything, everything... i really hope i can give up everything... all my studies, work, cca... yup eveything...
i am really tired with life... but what to do? i need a future...
i started to have this feeling for about a year... i endured really long liao...
after this year, i really cant endure anymore liao... i feel that no one know my pain, my suffering... in fact, there really isnt anyone who really know my pain...
thought there are alot of people who care about me but... they dont know what i feel...
this year... the year i couldnt endure anymore... i tried to get myself more time to rest... but i end up getting more stress... i did very very badly for my studies...
i was a student who get high marks in class... top in science in my lvl... i am also known for a guy who is really really good in maths...
but, i fail my maths, a maths, science this year...
but study isnt what i really care about...
it that nothing really keep me to go forward... i really wish that, i was dead...
yup i just said dead...
i dont what is the next step i should take... what will happen to me...
just 2 word in my mind now,
give up...
thanks for reading...
after telling this to you people,
i really feel alot better...
and if you dont know, tears were rolling down my eyes when i wrote this...
i am really, tired with life...
Come on,I am also a pc addict which hook onto online games but I think the main reason is because I want to escape from the stressful urban lifestyle
You may wish to consult a counsellor to solve your problems and tell you what you should really do and concentrate on your studies ,remind yourself that hardwork pays off and when I was a primary one student..I was in the last class and being the last boy in class with a score of like 10-15 for each subject(4 of them as we all know) and then my angel{mum} was there to help me and coach me and now I am soon a polytechnic student waiting to take a business course or business informatics(not confirm,either one as I went for appeal)...maybe you may wish to ask your friends if you have any doubts in your studies or maybe get a tution teacher..and one sentence for you...never give up as there will still be an outlet for you
what really motivate you to be...was a student who get high marks in class... top in science in my lvl... i am also known for a guy who is really really good in maths... is what I think will really keep you going forward -
i get my result for currently liao...Originally posted by crofty:Aim in your life is what you really want to do and everyone have a aim ,perharps,you have not realise what you really want and what you wish to be,example:wanting to be a doctor to save lives
Come on,I am also a pc addict which hook onto online games but I think the main reason is because I want to escape from the stressful urban lifestyle
You may wish to consult a counsellor to solve your problems and tell you what you should really do and concentrate on your studies ,remind yourself that hardwork pays off and when I was a primary one student..I was in the last class and being the last boy in class with a score of like 10-15 for each subject(4 of them as we all know) and then my angel{mum} was there to help me and coach me and now I am soon a polytechnic student waiting to take a business course or business informatics(not confirm,either one as I went for appeal)...maybe you may wish to ask your friends if you have any doubts in your studies or maybe get a tution teacher..and one sentence for you...never give up as there will still be an outlet for you
what really motivate you to be...was a student who get high marks in class... top in science in my lvl... i am also known for a guy who is really really good in maths... is what I think will really keep you going forward
A maths Fail...
E math 80 A1
science 74 A2
combine humanities 67 B3
english 53 C5
chinese FAIL...
i dunno what should i do... some other say in the above that having to work my hardest isnt really what may be happy...
i know my aim in life liao
to be happy
but to be happy, i need to study now, get a good future...
i also believe in the "hardwork pay off'...
thats why i have been working hard...
maybe too hard... til i can endure anymore...
but, i cant find anyways to relex abit more...
cant find any... -
You want to work hard that much and then die when you are old with none of those leaving with you?
Learn to enjoy your life, life isn't all about making lots of money, live in big house, fame, top student etc..
That might be a problem in Singapore, so make enough money and get outta here and stress free -
i get my result for currently liao...
Not bad.You are 16 years old ,right?I personally feel that you can make it to the polytechnic with your current results above,just find where your interest lies..be happy
A maths Fail...
E math 80 A1
science 74 A2
combine humanities 67 B3
english 53 C5
chinese FAIL...
i dunno what should i do... some other say in the above that having to work my hardest isnt really what may be happy...
i know my aim in life liao
to be happy
but to be happy, i need to study now, get a good future...
i also believe in the "hardwork pay off'...
thats why i have been working hard...
maybe too hard... til i can endure anymore...
but, i cant find anyways to relex abit more...
cant find any... Be confident, pika pika
Get a good future does not actually means being happy,what you actually want is happy -
but it is still not good enough...Originally posted by crofty:Not bad.You are 16 years old ,right?I personally feel that you can make it to the polytechnic with your current results above,just find where your interest lies..be happy Be confident, pika pika
Get a good future does not actually means being happy,what you actually want is happy
i always get A1 for combine humanities, A maths, E maths... and now... ...
and science, i used to get top in the whole lvl, but in sec 3, i flung... then i get B3, now get A2 which is still not good enough...
and my english, on the ave of failing still good meh?
and my chinese, i always get below 20 de consider good?
i just did real badly...