Originally posted by dinky1409:
I read all the posts here and I thought about it.. And I'm truly stumped.. My first question, what exactly is the difference between brotherly(family) love and normal bgr love? In the essence of it, I would think that it is actually quite similar. It's just that, the only difference I can think about is the sexual aspect of the matter. All of us have been brought up (culture and religion) to recognise absolute WRONG when mixing family relationships with sexuality. Incest is absolutely forbidden and morally wrong in our society.
Now back to the TS.There is not much difference in your "love" for your siblings and your bf/future husband. In fact I would think they are the same. You care for both your brother and bf. You want them to be safe. You want them to care for you. You want them to shower you with love. You want to be with them always and forever. But this next question to ask yourself would bring out the difference in the 2 "loves". With all due respect and not to humiliate or cause any embrassment to you, but do you feel sexually attracted to your brother? You don't have to answer. Just think about it yourself. You seem to like his touches. There is a difference in what you actually feel when you say you "like". If he touches you and you feel warm and fuzzy and comfort but not the extent of becoming sexually aroused, then I would think it is perfectly fine. But you have to be certain that deep inside your heart, you feel 100% sure that there is no way you want his touches to go further than just an inncoent non-sexual sibling contact. If there is a slightest bit of sexual attraction you felt from his touches, then you are looking at your brother in a different angle. You are not looking at him as a brother. You are looking at him as a man of your own. The man you want to love and at the same time desire to have a sexual relationship with, at which the thing that is stopping you from pursuing that desire is the very FORBIDDEN MENTALITY the society has embedded in all of us. I don't exactly know how you feel. Only you yourself know. But you mentioned something about your heart beating very fast. From my knowledge and understanding, these are signs of danger. You are probably doing the right thing to avoid him. It will take time for yourself to habitualise with the fact that your brother is after all your brother and he can go no further than that. You have to "scare" and remind yourself everytime your mind and thoughts wander off to that incestuous zone. Self-therapy you might call it but it might do you all right.
Disclaimer: No intention to cause any form of embarassment or disrespect to anyone. I'm open to views on my perception of brotherly love and bgr love. Please enlightened me where I possibly went wrong. Thanks!
TS: Gd luck! Be safe.
i agree that thre is no much diff btw the way i feel for my bro n bf... i wan them to shower me wif love.. i tink i m hafing a crash/admire my bro qualities. just like hafing a crash on a classmate or idol ba... coz i tink i m NOT sexually attracted to him at the moment.. maybe reali due to FORBIDDEN MENTALITY that is embedded in us since young, i feel abit er xin n funny tinking my bro in a sexual way... however this mentality does not stop me fr 'liking' my bro..
so nw i m constantly convincing/forcing myself to tink that i juz admire him as an idol or someting like dat n nothing more... in case these admiring turns into sexual thoughts.. that would spell disaster... i dun care whether is the past experiences of heartbeat gona relate wif the word 'love'... wad past is past... i m gona to stop all thes stupid thinking n wake up le...