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whatever problem u may have....in the end it's all in the mind...u just need to divert ya focus on something else heavily...example if ur a student just study ya guts out....if ur working work like mad...and in the long run the sucidal idea will cease to come...
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Originally posted by Donavan:
Bi-polar disorder?
I hope I am not being a burden here.
I need to admit about certain things.
I am someone who has attempted suicide multiple times, due to various reasons. I feel that I seem to undergo [b]lots of mental stress and pain at random times of the day.[/b] The only thing that seems to really stop me from suicide now is in actual fact, the hope of chasing someone. (name cannot be disclosed as of press time) That's the only reason for now why I'm living on.
I do not deny I need urgent help. This cannot carry on. [b]I can suddenly switch to suicidal mood ANY TIME, for as long as there's something negative to harp on. Examples include scoring below average in a test, having a gift rejected (that happened many times), not being respected, or even thinking about my primary school life. (no one would want to have it)
Maybe I should type out parts of lyrics from a song that can tell in a way how I feel.
(section of song lyrics from Knife)
you cut away the heart of my life
When I pretend when I smile
to fool my dearest friends
I wonder if they know
it's just a show
I'm on a stage day or night
through my charades
but how can I disguise
what's in my eyes.
The fact is that, I never told anyone for I didn't want them to be worried about me. Externally, I look OK, internally, it's a whole world of mess. I don't know how to help myself. I need a helping hand.
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COlour of my reply corrospond to the colours of your post i quotedOriginally posted by Donavan:I hope I am not being a burden here.
I need to admit about certain things.
I am someone who has attempted suicide multiple times, due to various reasons. I feel that I seem to undergo lots of mental stress and pain at random times of the day. The only thing that seems to really stop me from suicide now is in actual fact, the hope of chasing someone. (name cannot be disclosed as of press time) That's the only reason for now why I'm living on.
I do not deny I need urgent help. This cannot carry on. I can suddenly switch to suicidal mood ANY TIME, for as long as there's something negative to harp on.
The fact is that, I never told anyone for I didn't want them to be worried about me. Externally, I look OK, internally, it's a whole world of mess. I don't know how to help myself. I need a helping hand.
Many times when you hear people say suicide does not end everything, it is becos ur problem has unknowingly transfered to someone u love, which if you do that, will hurt them more. When u feel like commiting suicide, always tell yourself that suicide=bring hurt to love ones, which many of us does not want.
I cannot define ur feeling of mental stress, but you can calm yourself by telling yourself
everyone encountors mental stress, because of work and other things, try to make yourself feel part of 'enjoying' the stress with others. Try telling your friends u are stress, they will tell you the same thing, that is where you might think that he/she is not telling the truth, so try not to tell everyone about stress, becos, he/she might not believe you.
Pain...Physically or Psychologically?
Physically i cannot do much, psychologically, you need to look on the bright side, maybe try telling yourself that if this happens, you can be better at certain things
Tip: Use that someone as a good form of motivation for you to do better in life
YOU CAN TELL US, Aunt Agony@sgForums
Hope you gain something from this,i also believe that other forumnites would be able to assist you better.
EDIT: I am not a veri good at giving advice, if you feel that these advice does not suit your need, please do not follow, Should you experience crisis that requires professional attention, please call any of the hotline available here. -
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
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Hmm...Donavan, I think you are feeling trapped internally within your own emotions is largely due to the environment that you spent most of your time in. It's not a really happy society around us isn't it?Originally posted by Donavan:The irony hits here. No matter what I do, psychological pain seems to seep in. I feel like I'm hurt by something that I don't know of in physical form, but I feel the pain in my heart.
To resolve your dilemma, I would recommend you to have a change of your environment even just for a while. You might want to consider going on a holiday to travel to another environment for a few days. Best is to join a tour group and at least you will meet new company for your holiday journey.
IF the money is a problem, then the cheapest way to get out of it all is to Sleep, sleep and SLEEP it all away. Reason for sleeping is because dreams does have a healing effect on our emotions...and that is also another form of changing your environment for the time being.
Good Luck and hope that you will at least feel better for your own sake.
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When i was reading this thread of us i am in factOriginally posted by Donavan:I hope I am not being a burden here.
I need to admit about certain things.
I am someone who has attempted suicide multiple times, due to various reasons. I feel that I seem to undergo lots of mental stress and pain at random times of the day. The only thing that seems to really stop me from suicide now is in actual fact, the hope of chasing someone. (name cannot be disclosed as of press time) That's the only reason for now why I'm living on.
I do not deny I need urgent help. This cannot carry on. [colour=blue]I can suddenly switch to suicidal mood ANY TIME, for as long as there's something negative to harp on. [/color]Examples include scoring below average in a test, having a gift rejected (that happened many times), not being respected, or even thinking about my primary school life. (no one would want to have it)
Maybe I should type out parts of lyrics from a song that can tell in a way how I feel.
(section of song lyrics from Knife)
you cut away the heart of my life
When I pretend when I smile
to fool my dearest friends
I wonder if they know
it's just a show
I'm on a stage day or night
through my charades
but how can I disguise
what's in my eyes.
The fact is that, I never told anyone for I didn't want them to be worried about me. Externally, I look OK, internally, it's a whole world of mess. I don't know how to help myself. I need a helping hand.
. Don't stop here carry on reading, this is not meant to be a flaming session....
First, u say the only reason u are still living in this wretched world is because u will like to chase someone... when i was reading this I was like LOL LOL.... u know what dude, there are a lot of emotion turmoils in r/s. Since u cannot even handle ur negative emotions in ur normal life, what makes u think that u can handle the vast complexity of the love ocean? I AM NOT TELLING U TO END UR LIFE.... pls carry on... this is my story...
When i first embarked into a r/s, i am very hopeful and confident that i will get the girl -- I am a very proud person and wants to win everything in life at that time.... but then i was rejected by her. At that time, i hit the rock bottom of my life cos i am being defeated miserably first time... i want to commit suicide too....
HOWEVER, if i committed suicide that time, u won't see me here writing to u. That time, i am asking myself, what if i committed suicide, what are the complications? Such act of mine will solve my problem.. ya it will... but then how about my family, my friends, my relative... ur death serve no purpose to the world but it serve utmost importance to ur family, especially ur parents.. if u do have kids ... will u want them to commit suicide?
Be it u come from a broken family and/or have bad PR skills (i don't know ur background, i am quoting the worst possible scenario that u could be in), what matters most now is whether u want to change ur future... not looking back at ur past...
If u really like the girl, pls for god sake overcome ur emotion problem... no girl will want to have a depressed and pessimistic guy.. for the sake of her, pls change ur mentality, u want to be with her and u will change urself for her....
Ok after saying so much, IF u are just an attention seeker, i will like to give u a BIG F@CK U... waste my time -
wow, ur problem is a serious one i must admit.
Failures are part & parcel of life, i have had my fair share of it. Suicide is something not to be taken lightly and please never ever think of it, your not alone though you think you are.
Seek medical treatment, i went to TTSH for mine & i believe i mentioned it here before. Don't wait till the last minute.
Since your going after someone now, my advice is not to focus too much on it becoz judging on ur nature shld anything not good happen once again.....you may not be able to deal with it.
Knife by Rockwell is a nice song, the lyrics reflect someone who has fallen out of love & is living a life of misery. Dun dwell to much on the lyrics, try listening to songs that brighten you up.
Not that i have fully recovered from my problems, one other way of me trying to help myself is by coming in here to try help others combat their problems. I find it amazing by advices i can offer to others & often read my posts to tell myself that I shld follow what i preach
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Have you thought of where you will go after you leave this world? If you are not sure or your answer is to a place you will suffer a lot, then I think you should stay put here on earth. Leave the world when it is time for you to go. I suicidal thought some time last week, but I asked myself where will I go, and I don't know, so now here I am - still alive, and am talking to you now.
Find ways to be positive, this will do you good. I am in extremely bad shape for long, but deep in my heart I believe I will get out of it one day. -
Look here. no worries dude.
Just remember, suicide is the worst option to take.
If good things happens, suay things also happen..
U felt that u reach the rock bottom? Then up's the only way to go. Things will be better slowly.. -
Get professional help
http://www.sgforums.com/?action=thread_display&thread_id=238593Originally posted by Donavan:The fact is that, I never told anyone for I didn't want them to be worried about me. Externally, I look OK, internally, it's a whole world of mess. I don't know how to help myself. I need a helping hand. -
You need professional help...Originally posted by Donavan:Interesting way to solve, sadly I ever tried. I got nightmares for the past week.
Relates to all kinds. Being chased by dark figures, to being trapped somewhere, maybe even taking the blow for that somebody and then "dying" in the process?
Sadly, I don't have many childhood memories to look back to.
It will make a difference.
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I agree.Originally posted by de_middle:Seek medical treatment, i went to TTSH for mine & i believe i mentioned it here before. Don't wait till the last minute.
Since your going after someone now, my advice is not to focus too much on it becoz judging on ur nature shld anything not good happen once again.....you may not be able to deal with it.
Go seek professional help staight away.
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Right now your brain is transforming itself and it can get very confusing and "painful" at times.Originally posted by Donavan:I hope I am not being a burden here.
I need to admit about certain things.
I am someone who has attempted suicide multiple times, due to various reasons. I feel that I seem to undergo lots of mental stress and pain at random times of the day. The only thing that seems to really stop me from suicide now is in actual fact, the hope of chasing someone. (name cannot be disclosed as of press time) That's the only reason for now why I'm living on.
I do not deny I need urgent help. This cannot carry on. I can suddenly switch to suicidal mood ANY TIME, for as long as there's something negative to harp on. Examples include scoring below average in a test, having a gift rejected (that happened many times), not being respected, or even thinking about my primary school life. (no one would want to have it)
Maybe I should type out parts of lyrics from a song that can tell in a way how I feel.
(section of song lyrics from Knife)
you cut away the heart of my life
When I pretend when I smile
to fool my dearest friends
I wonder if they know
it's just a show
I'm on a stage day or night
through my charades
but how can I disguise
what's in my eyes.
The fact is that, I never told anyone for I didn't want them to be worried about me. Externally, I look OK, internally, it's a whole world of mess. I don't know how to help myself. I need a helping hand.
Maybe a religion might be good for you at this time so that you have something to cling to... but remember to come out of the religion and live life back in reality again. -
Perhaps you need a quiet environment to sit down and think through all you have done, to organise and clean up your internal mess. Only when you can calmly face the past can you attempt the present.
Nothing is perfect in this world; there are bound to be failures. Either you get laid back by failures forever, or you bounce back from them. With each failure, you grow. The trials of life are not thrown to you without any reason.
What is keeping you in a sane mentality is a glimmer of hope, the hope that you can get someone to love you. What worries me is what if this hope bubble gets burst... What will you do? I'm not being pessimistic, but I think you should bring yourself up together before you can share your life with others; do you want to share/throw your mental burden to someone you love? To me, your hope is your goal. Why don't you set more goals in life than just in chasing someone? Surely there are many things in life for you to aim for.
Suicide is definitely never a solution. It just brings about more problems that you may never know... Life is so short, why must you end it shorter.
Regards,
eagle
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Originally posted by Donavan:I hope I am not being a burden here.
I need to admit about certain things.
I am someone who has attempted suicide multiple times, due to various reasons. I feel that I seem to undergo lots of mental stress and pain at random times of the day. The only thing that seems to really stop me from suicide now is in actual fact, the hope of chasing someone. (name cannot be disclosed as of press time) That's the only reason for now why I'm living on.
I do not deny I need urgent help. This cannot carry on. I can suddenly switch to suicidal mood ANY TIME, for as long as there's something negative to harp on. Examples include scoring below average in a test, having a gift rejected (that happened many times), not being respected, or even thinking about my primary school life. (no one would want to have it)
Maybe I should type out parts of lyrics from a song that can tell in a way how I feel.
(section of song lyrics from Knife)
you cut away the heart of my life
When I pretend when I smile
to fool my dearest friends
I wonder if they know
it's just a show
I'm on a stage day or night
through my charades
but how can I disguise
what's in my eyes.
The fact is that, I never told anyone for I didn't want them to be worried about me. Externally, I look OK, internally, it's a whole world of mess. I don't know how to help myself. I need a helping hand. If you need to rant it out, this space is given for you to relate your inner voice, which I know is probably restrained by circumstances in your reality. Feel free to share with everyone what's hurting inside you.
But if you feel that you cannot handle the suicidal thoughts that seemed to flood your mind, please seek help before it's too late.
We have a list of numbers here if you need them. Feel free to dial.
You need to go spiritual; do you have a religion in which you could seek solace?
P.S: You will be in my prayers.
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In my point of view, I find this statement really true.Originally posted by DC+:Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
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I can empathise with what you've written there. You can suddenly feel all suicidal for a random moment, right?Originally posted by Donavan:I hope I am not being a burden here.
I need to admit about certain things.
I am someone who has attempted suicide multiple times, due to various reasons. I feel that I seem to undergo lots of mental stress and pain at random times of the day. The only thing that seems to really stop me from suicide now is in actual fact, the hope of chasing someone. (name cannot be disclosed as of press time) That's the only reason for now why I'm living on.
I do not deny I need urgent help. This cannot carry on. I can suddenly switch to suicidal mood ANY TIME, for as long as there's something negative to harp on. Examples include scoring below average in a test, having a gift rejected (that happened many times), not being respected, or even thinking about my primary school life. (no one would want to have it)
Maybe I should type out parts of lyrics from a song that can tell in a way how I feel.
(section of song lyrics from Knife)
you cut away the heart of my life
When I pretend when I smile
to fool my dearest friends
I wonder if they know
it's just a show
I'm on a stage day or night
through my charades
but how can I disguise
what's in my eyes.
The fact is that, I never told anyone for I didn't want them to be worried about me. Externally, I look OK, internally, it's a whole world of mess. I don't know how to help myself. I need a helping hand.
The fact that you're still alive now has shown that you're still strong enough. We're all usually stronger than we think we are.
Do you have any friends you can talk to? Any good friends, and when I say good, I mean the type that will not say "Aiya, don't be so sad lah." or "Why so stupid? Got so many girls out there!", I mean the kind who will share your pain and really find a way to help you. If you do, go to them. You're not a burden; you're a friend who's worth saving to them.
It sucks to be putting on an act in front of everyone, doesn't it? Just to protect others from yourself.
If you have a blog, use it to spell out your emotions. Don't care what others say, because they will never understand.
Then, at the same time, you should be looking around for someone who can help you better than us or your friends (I hate the term "Professional help". Makes you feel like a mental patient.). Healing is a long process, but you can afford the time. You always can. -
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Pm you...
Cheer up dude!
You are just tired with life... With wearing all those mask and no one understanding you...
But don't throw away you life just like that!
have a clear goal what you want!
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moderator, you are very kind.Originally posted by popikachu:Pm you...
Cheer up dude!
You are just tired with life... With wearing all those mask and no one understanding you...
But don't throw away you life just like that!
have a clear goal what you want!
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can you imagine how you will feel when this problem disappeared?
you will be in a state of calm, everyone and everything around are nice, and you can feel the happiness for them?
if you like this feel, go see a doctor, seek professional help, they can help you experience calm, happiness and the feeling of nice.
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Blardy coward.
Suicide is a crime.
You probably dunno this,but you bring much burden to your family and friends,
imagine all the suffering they have to go thru.
Just take anti-depression pills and clear ur emo songs, and listen to techno or some upbeat songs.And get along with ur fucking life, just like everyone else.