You do not exist. I did not read your last post.Originally posted by Darkness_hacker99:God is a concept. It does not exist.
Everything is a concept. You, me, he, she, and everyone does not exist.
We does not exist.
Entering the Kingdom of God and staying there is no easy task. Like the rest before me have said, Christian life isn't a bed of roses. Don't believe those ridiculous advertisements you she everytime about Christians being "forever happy" and "care-free". We're humans as well. I had depression twice in my 17 years of life. I thought that God and Jesus had abandoned me as well. But then I realized it was me who had abandoned them. I'm still recovering from those utterly miserable days.Originally posted by dyingpainfully:I once believed in Christ.
The pastor told me everything was gonna change once I became christ, But even after I became christ. I did not feel any change around me. I was still being bullied, being picked on and disliked or even hated.
Using you? How? We can't help if you don't provide details.
I then became very angry that I felt that my christian friends were just using me, Once I stopped believing, Everything wasn't as bad as before because I told myself it was time for a change.
You're growing away from the people you know, and that's not a helpful sign.
Either I wait for it to happen or I take it into my own hands and change everything, I thought I did well in changing. But I eventually grew disgusted with myself and the things I'm doing. I felt even more alone.
I have people telling me that "XXX, You can come to me and talk to me when you need help"
Was this character trait of being generally mistrustful something you had before you became like this? A really concerned person would not fall for the bait you put to lure them away from your problem. He/she will just keeping pressing, and you have to play your part too. Stop pushing people who are really concerned away.
But when I really need someone to talk to, I can't see them as someone I can trust and talk to. I even resort to changing the story alittle just to mislead them then off the issue off my mind.
But its really no use, My life i think is crashing down and I really don't know what to do. Now, I put on a strong front and try to cover my weaknesses but in fact, I know I don't have the guts to do it. I ever really had the thoughts to stab someone but I chickened out.
General misconception about counsellors; not everyone's out to get you. Only the very, very serious cases are ever reported to the IMH, and that's only after long consideration and discussion. You show slightly misanthropic tendencies here. Try seeing the good in people, and then maybe you can find the good in yourself.
I don't wanna talk to any counsellors because they cannot be trusted, I am afraid they will put me in some mental house or report me to the police. I keep telling myself one day I will make them pay. I dream about becoming rich then destroying their lives like they have to my life.
I sometimes I think of what I am living for, There is nothing I am anticipating to happen either that or I feel there is no need to suffer for that cause. I think of suicide.
If you judge yourself before others, then others will see that it's fine to judge you. So, break the bloody cycle. Take some time to prepare for it, then do it. It's not so hard.
I don't really like my class as well, I prefer the other class as they welcome me more and I think I fit in better. It really sucks, And I don't know if there is any chance of me changing class at all. I really don't feel like going to school tomorrow but I have a project to rush but I really need the time alone.
"Hate" is a very strong word.
I hate myself.
Here, you're just being lazy. What's the point of living if there's no struggle?
If there is a chance, I really wanna live my next life as someone with everything made for him or someone who doesn't know anyone at all so that I don't have to face any mockery at all.
No chance of coming back after death; you realize that, don't you? I'm not saying this as a Christian, but think again. If you're so unafraid of death, what do you have to be afraid of in this world?
I know running away isn't the solution but I think its either that or dying.
what talking you?Originally posted by Darkness_hacker99:God is a concept. It does not exist.
Everything is a concept. You, me, he, she, and everyone does not exist.
We does not exist.
Cogito Ergo Sum -> "I think therefore I am"Originally posted by Darkness_hacker99:God is a concept. It does not exist.
Everything is a concept. You, me, he, she, and everyone does not exist.
We does not exist.
Originally posted by mhcampboy:dyingpainfully, You can come to me and talk to me when you need help![]()
what if, just what if, we are in a matrix like the trilogy?Originally posted by Darkness_hacker99:God is a concept. It does not exist.
Everything is a concept. You, me, he, she, and everyone does not exist.
We does not exist.
Yep it is indeed very tempting to accept the concept of a supreme creator.Originally posted by unclebutcher:what if, just what if, we are in a matrix like the trilogy?
what if, we are just a speck in the universe?
what is our purpose in life then?
i haven't found mine.
Life on earth is so perfect that it could not have happened by chance. Even the composition of the air has to be exact or else we cannot survive. there is definitely God, and i believe in Jesus.
X2Originally posted by teraexa:
Yep it is indeed very tempting to accept the concept of a supreme creator.
However have anyone considered that the creator may not be only one? He may be a they? He/they may be mortal(s)? Was/were he/they created by someone else?
Interesting ain't it? The beauty of religion and faith.Life is way to interesting to be thrown away and wasted.
The reason why life is so perfect, why our atom weight and all are so perfect, is because that if it is slightly different, we WOULDN'T HAVE EXISTED.Originally posted by unclebutcher:what if, just what if, we are in a matrix like the trilogy?
what if, we are just a speck in the universe?
what is our purpose in life then?
i haven't found mine.
Life on earth is so perfect that it could not have happened by chance. Even the composition of the air has to be exact or else we cannot survive. there is definitely God, and i believe in Jesus.
Science..Originally posted by unclebutcher:what if, just what if, we are in a matrix like the trilogy?
what if, we are just a speck in the universe?
what is our purpose in life then?
i haven't found mine.
Life on earth is so perfect that it could not have happened by chance. Even the composition of the air has to be exact or else we cannot survive. there is definitely God, and i believe in Jesus.
Okie boy boy,Originally posted by dyingpainfully:I once believed in Christ.
The pastor told me everything was gonna change once I became christ, But even after I became christ. I did not feel any change around me. I was still being bullied, being picked on and disliked or even hated.
I then became very angry that I felt that my christian friends were just using me, Once I stopped believing, Everything wasn't as bad as before because I told myself it was time for a change.
Either I wait for it to happen or I take it into my own hands and change everything, I thought I did well in changing. But I eventually grew disgusted with myself and the things I'm doing. I felt even more alone.
I have people telling me that "XXX, You can come to me and talk to me when you need help"
But when I really need someone to talk to, I can't see them as someone I can trust and talk to. I even resort to changing the story alittle just to mislead them then off the issue off my mind.
But its really no use, My life i think is crashing down and I really don't know what to do. Now, I put on a strong front and try to cover my weaknesses but in fact, I know I don't have the guts to do it. I ever really had the thoughts to stab someone but I chickened out.
I don't wanna talk to any counsellors because they cannot be trusted, I am afraid they will put me in some mental house or report me to the police. I keep telling myself one day I will make them pay. I dream about becoming rich then destroying their lives like they have to my life.
I sometimes I think of what I am living for, There is nothing I am anticipating to happen either that or I feel there is no need to suffer for that cause. I think of suicide.
I don't really like my class as well, I prefer the other class as they welcome me more and I think I fit in better. It really sucks, And I don't know if there is any chance of me changing class at all. I really don't feel like going to school tomorrow but I have a project to rush but I really need the time alone.
I hate myself.
If there is a chance, I really wanna live my next life as someone with everything made for him or someone who doesn't know anyone at all so that I don't have to face any mockery at all.
I know running away isn't the solution but I think its either that or dying.
There is god but depends on whether this god wanna bless you or not. no worries,I have been through what you are going thru. The worst that can happen is there you are obeying God's word but there are evil chrisitans around in church, workplace, social circle to create trouble. The worst is the evil chrisitans in workplace who go all the way to break a chrisitan's rice bowl. God just let them do so, and better still they are so blessed that they get promoted from one grade to another, from one position to another. Chrisitans will say ,it is you who have no patience no trust in God that is why facing this !! Or they will say is be patient let them to God God will judge them on judgement day. Unrealistic!Originally posted by dyingpainfully:I once believed in Christ.
The pastor told me everything was gonna change once I became christ, But even after I became christ. I did not feel any change around me. I was still being bullied, being picked on and disliked or even hated.
I then became very angry that I felt that my christian friends were just using me, Once I stopped believing, Everything wasn't as bad as before because I told myself it was time for a change.
Either I wait for it to happen or I take it into my own hands and change everything, I thought I did well in changing. But I eventually grew disgusted with myself and the things I'm doing. I felt even more alone.
I have people telling me that "XXX, You can come to me and talk to me when you need help"
But when I really need someone to talk to, I can't see them as someone I can trust and talk to. I even resort to changing the story alittle just to mislead them then off the issue off my mind.
But its really no use, My life i think is crashing down and I really don't know what to do. Now, I put on a strong front and try to cover my weaknesses but in fact, I know I don't have the guts to do it. I ever really had the thoughts to stab someone but I chickened out.
I don't wanna talk to any counsellors because they cannot be trusted, I am afraid they will put me in some mental house or report me to the police. I keep telling myself one day I will make them pay. I dream about becoming rich then destroying their lives like they have to my life.
I sometimes I think of what I am living for, There is nothing I am anticipating to happen either that or I feel there is no need to suffer for that cause. I think of suicide.
I don't really like my class as well, I prefer the other class as they welcome me more and I think I fit in better. It really sucks, And I don't know if there is any chance of me changing class at all. I really don't feel like going to school tomorrow but I have a project to rush but I really need the time alone.
I hate myself.
If there is a chance, I really wanna live my next life as someone with everything made for him or someone who doesn't know anyone at all so that I don't have to face any mockery at all.
I know running away isn't the solution but I think its either that or dying.
I don't think that can help at all.Originally posted by livingpainfully:Give yourself one more chance.
Seek professional help.
Even if you will be placed in a mental hospital, know that it is to help you recover from your inner demons.
The people here can only give you advice that is insufficient for the problems you face.
Here is S.O.S. for you. Please consider emailing them while you're still open to help.
PM me if you'd like a to talk to a like-minded soul for as long as it can cling on to its sorry life.