I do not dare to look in the mirror....
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As a matter of factually description of "Disabled" I am actually partially oneOriginally posted by thebunny:U very extreme leix... why remove the mirrors? Then how u comb ur hair?
U arhx... post sth so emo here then refuse to accept people's comments... wat's wrong with u?! -.-
Cherish wat u have lahx. Sometimes look in the mirror and admire urself lohx... U're lucky u wasn't born disabled k... And u're not deformed! -.-
Someday, you'll find a very important person who loves u and accepts u for who u are! And tt person will appreciate ur inner beauty. Dakara... culture ur inner beauty? If u wanna improve on ur outer one...then ... engage in a makeover programme or sth... I dunno where issit lahx but specialist there can advise u on the hairstyle and clothings which will suits u lohx =D
Take care..~
On the exterior i may be a normal being, but do you know that i have severe hearing loss on my left? Not to mention that i have a child stroke that left my right hand and right leg partially disabled (unable to move some of the fingers) I cannot do what my peers can do (guitar, piano, etc).And not to mention that i am weak (occasional fits) ?
And I cannot balance properly? my left foot is also flat
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U sayin me mental? Psychiatrist?I wouldnt go there im not a mental retard kthxbaiOriginally posted by sEphIrOth:currently, u are suffering from avoidant personality disorder. u need to see a psychiatrist asap.
a milder term for your other posts would be love shy. however, we should tackle your APD asap.
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Everyone have weak points, for me i am so short and abit ugly but if you let your limitations get the better of you, then you are limited only by your own thoughts. Seriously, if I think like you do, then I would probably be single & virgin (last time my friend even said that i will never get a gf), broke (because people used to say i am stupid and useless), probably become a begger (because i let what other people say or think affects me) today. But funny because I have huge belief in myself, and that helps me to act like a confident person, and my gf is 172 (taller & older than me), i've got business man coming up to me wanting to work together with me (so i'm not really stupid and useless afterall), and i'm definitely not a virgin (although i wish i am)... but one thing those people may be right is that i'm still quite broke, i also dunno why.Originally posted by Evolution IX MR:I have such an fugly face that is full of revulsion and horrible features.Same goes for my equally horrible body..... Its so repulsive that i actually cannot wait to die to get out of this freaking body.I had all my mirrors in my room taken out and dont dare to face myself in the bathroom.I avoid anything that shows my deformed face.
Dont try that hypnotize shit on me, it wont work.I had actually thought of plastic surgery, but no $$.Suiciding was an option but i was afraid of pain.
I also thought up of going where no one is somewhere like off the coast of sg. -
there are 'uglier' ppl in the world who lead normal & happier lives than the most beautiful ppl out there. VANITY is not something to fret about considering ur situation. U should stop thinking bout suicide, its unhealthy and sinful..
why not face ur fears and look in front of the mirror while listening to Christina Aguilera's 'Beautiful'?...
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no he didnt say that ...Originally posted by Evolution IX MR:U sayin me mental? Psychiatrist?I wouldnt go there im not a mental retard kthxbai
u think everyone seeking professional help are retards?
on the contrary, i think those who do seek professional help and treatment are very smart people. At least they consider all options and do the right thing, not drown in self-pity till they give up and jump down some ledge or cliff to let someone else find their shameful decomposed bodies. (u will look much more uglier after suicide, i can assure u that.)
if u wanna help yourself stop being so weak and consider all options. If not, not even the world's best psychologist or plastic surgeon can help. -
dude... how'd u arrive at that man?Originally posted by sEphIrOth:currently, u are suffering from avoidant personality disorder. u need to see a psychiatrist asap.
a milder term for your other posts would be love shy. however, we should tackle your APD asap.
dun jus throw diagnosis out like that man... especially when u havent run any test
if u r judging it based on his behavioral traits, than it is obvious that alot of ppl will fit in the category
more so, any adolescent at 16 that is going through identity crisis that may not be completely resolved till 22 will obviously persist.
if u had just studied it or read it somewhere, than even worse.... don't just make bad consultations like that
that boy is 16.... until he is 21, u cannot really define any concrete personality disorders....
why dun u meet up with him, and run some test, and cross reference it with the mean man.
personally unless u have spend at least 3 months with him 4 times a month, 1 hour per week, than i think diagnosis should be avoided for now k?
dun panic ppl like that
mikairis
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it depends on the situation. different situations take different diagnosis. however, i am offering a problem to him. yet not diagnosing him as one. so i adviced him to seek professional help.Originally posted by mikairis:dude... how'd u arrive at that man?
dun jus throw diagnosis out like that man... especially when u havent run any test
if u r judging it based on his behavioral traits, than it is obvious that alot of ppl will fit in the category
more so, any adolescent at 16 that is going through identity crisis that may not be completely resolved till 22 will obviously persist.
if u had just studied it or read it somewhere, than even worse.... don't just make bad consultations like that
that boy is 16.... until he is 21, u cannot really define any concrete personality disorders....
why dun u meet up with him, and run some test, and cross reference it with the mean man.
personally unless u have spend at least 3 months with him 4 times a month, 1 hour per week, than i think diagnosis should be avoided for now k?
dun panic ppl like that
mikairis
Clinical Psychologist -
go out with janice lar..
she'll make u forget about your ugliness -
hey nic,Originally posted by Evolution IX MR:U sayin me mental? Psychiatrist?I wouldnt go there im not a mental retard kthxbai
listen to me. what u need now is quite a few things.
u r neither crazy nor mentally retarded, u also do not have any personality disorder. BUT if u choose to continue thinking the way u r now, when u turn 21 or 22, we will have an issue
ur next few years will be crucial not only for ur cognitive development but also ur social and emotional development and also ur stress management mechanism
u r mildly low now, not yet depressed, but ur low spirits is due to ur own inability to meet ur unrealistic expectations
it is obvious that u urself have defined for urself what the word "beauty" means and u get that either from the media or ur social community or who knows where, gradually it becomes ingrained in u. ur continual obsession with ur imperfection have become a little excessive that u can only see ur blemishes, this in turn makes u feel sadder, effecting ur neurotransmitters in ur brain mainly the 5-HT (serotonin). believe it or not these effects ur brain plasticity and also ur protein formations in ur body. it will also affect ur metabolism. in short, ur mood and ur body shape and ur energy level, and eye contact, and how u feel every morning when u get up, ur attitudes are all effected by this
i am not sure if u r familiar but ppl with antidepressants or pills to tackle depression tend to get fat easily. the reason is as mentioned above (in a gist) but it is alittle more complex to explain now.
but the point is
what u need now is CBT, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and some exercises, and lots of bananas
CBT is something to actually help u reformulate ur whole idea on life. expectations, and many other things, and also how ur behavior can be moderated and altered for ur benefit.
u r not crazy, u r just a growing up adolescent who needs some guidance
if u need one (CBT) send me a message to my email: [email protected]
we can schedule an appointment. no charge. no worries
i will give u my real name before we meet
u should probably consult ur parents first, and seek their approval
mikairis
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ur stroke when u were a child may have effected ur motor functions in ur frontal cortex, and also ur auditory senses. ur loss balance is due to some disruption in ur cerebelum (probably due to ur stroke again), the back of ur head below the occipital lobe, slightly ahead of ur top part of neck.Originally posted by Evolution IX MR:As a matter of factually description of "Disabled" I am actually partially one
On the exterior i may be a normal being, but do you know that i have severe hearing loss on my left? Not to mention that i have a child stroke that left my right hand and right leg partially disabled (unable to move some of the fingers) I cannot do what my peers can do (guitar, piano, etc).And not to mention that i am weak (occasional fits) ?
And I cannot balance properly? my left foot is also flat
On these circumstances(do i actually fit in here?)
it is true that when u r a baby, only ur primitive brain (or brain responsible for instinctive motor functions or needs such as breathing/feeding) is developed.
i dunno how old u were when u had the stroke but ur stroke probably affected ur brain development
those are neuropsychological issues, can only be controlled through medication or years of behavioral therapy or occupational therapy or physiological therapy. ur neurologist should have adviced u or ur parents on that.
but he dint insist on the therapy, it probably means that it is not sever enough to warrant any serious concerns.
which means u r not any more handicapped compared to others
u have to be strong mentally
i think u have a weak will, better straighten up b4 NS -
The hearing loss was due to severe high fever at the age of 1 1/2 yrs old abt 40.5deg c
Although the fever was brought down, the virus/bacteria had already damaged both ears .Left is more severe
The child stroke that i described happened abt the age of 4-5 according to my parents. It affected my motor functions yes, the hand and leg
10 years old i had pneumonia. I still rem walking down the hospital (Mt alvernia) with a intravenous glucose feeding machine (not allowed to eat)
Then the fits. I had it when i just came back from the clinic where we stayed at Balam road( Moved out of there last dec) I had to be warded 2 days
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So what?Originally posted by Evolution IX MR:As a matter of factually description of "Disabled" I am actually partially one
On the exterior i may be a normal being, but do you know that i have severe hearing loss on my left? Not to mention that i have a child stroke that left my right hand and right leg partially disabled (unable to move some of the fingers) I cannot do what my peers can do (guitar, piano, etc).And not to mention that i am weak (occasional fits) ?
And I cannot balance properly? my left foot is also flat
On these circumstances(do i actually fit in here?)
I also have physical problems but not much people except close friends and family members know, and they wont even suspect i have anything wrong with me. why? coz i am very positive. I express my likings and dislikes openly. I tell a friend i love them from the bottom of my heart, and i tell somebody i dont like them from the bottom of my heart too.
Oh ya, what physical illness i have you might ask? I have this serptal defect, a puncture at the wall of my heart. I had it plugged till i was around 13 before i underwent surgery to patch it up. Due to my liking for football, i kept on exercising till i can run 10 kilometers non stop, and is still jogging and jump jumping regularly.
Both my feet were what they called "figure 8 feet". My mum told me just a few days after i was born, planks were tied to my legs to try bring them back in place. The condition was much better but still my feet were inverted and pri sch friends called me duck legs. I forced myself to change the way i walk. Now i walk just like any normal people.
I was plagued with acne in sch sch. That brought my morale down the most. Still i hang out with friends, do stupid things etc etc... I still remembered telling my mum, "Buy a lemon for me every 3 days, i am gonna apply lemon juice on my face till acne goes away." Now its much better, i have some scars, but who cares? I am a guy, not a girl.
I was fucking fat too once, once weighing 75 KG i think around 160 in height during sec sch. Then i cut down eating at night and together with playing football, i stand 170 and 55kg now.
The reason why i seriously despise u from the bottom of my heart is, all you do is whine, or i would say, kpkb. I can say EVERYBODY have some problem or things they dont like physically, and they work to change it. Which is totally the opposite of u.
I forgot if i mentioned this before but, I have a classmate this sem, His name is MAX. He is physically disabled, and needs 2 walking sticks whereever he goes. I dont know the exact problem with him, but his feet seems like jelly.
HE never look down on himself, he is very outgoing and friendly. Not only that, he took part in the Olympics for the Disabled for 3 years straight already, and he just returned from this year's competition 2 months ago. I forgot which event he took part in, but he told me he was just short of qualifying for finals.
Now you know the difference between those physically disabled, those who have problems physically, those who are unhappy with themselves and you?
Its they DO something about it. -
hmmm.... looks like u've been through quite alot. do u also have issues with ur immune system? ur lympathic systems?Originally posted by Evolution IX MR:The hearing loss was due to severe high fever at the age of 1 1/2 yrs old abt 40.5deg c
Although the fever was brought down, the virus/bacteria had already damaged both ears .Left is more severe
The child stroke that i described happened abt the age of 4-5 according to my parents. It affected my motor functions yes, the hand and leg
10 years old i had pneumonia. I still rem walking down the hospital (Mt alvernia) with a intravenous glucose feeding machine (not allowed to eat)
Then the fits. I had it when i just came back from the clinic where we stayed at Balam road( Moved out of there last dec) I had to be warded 2 days
Hope i clarified everything
looks like exercise is out of the picture. i guess what can worked on is accepting life and making the best out of it.
CBT is still useful
but tell me ur lifestory pls.
i want to know more about u and where u come from.
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something to be thankful about tho, i know some ppl whose child had high fever at young age too. and it 'fried' their brainOriginally posted by Evolution IX MR:The hearing loss was due to severe high fever at the age of 1 1/2 yrs old abt 40.5deg c
Although the fever was brought down, the virus/bacteria had already damaged both ears .Left is more severe
as a result, their bodies were developed irregularly (maldeformed) as i explain earlier as our genetic coding which programs our protein formation (body) is probably disrupted. as a result he now has down syndrome, autism, behavioral motor disorders, excessively big ears, small built (body growth stunned), and bulbous nose. all cuz of the fever. i am guessing he probably does not have proper cognition to be able to be conscious and thinking
ur hearing is impaired from the incident. though it is by no means a fortunate thing. compared to the boy mentioned above, u r much more fortunate. he is also 16 this year.
dont waste ur valuable life experiences. u have the potential to make alot of difference in the life of others. helping them etc. because of ur wealth of expeeriences through ur struggles, u are actually in a much more better position than most of us to try to understand others
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though i feel ur motives are well intended and u have made ur point clear and they are indeed useful. it is always a benefit to put it across in a more caring and compassionate manner if u know how it is to be in pain, than u must also know that it sucks to have someone throw ur problem back at u on the face and yell at u.Originally posted by ChingAlvin:So what?
I also have physical problems but not much people except close friends and family members know, and they wont even suspect i have anything wrong with me. why? coz i am very positive. I express my likings and dislikes openly. I tell a friend i love them from the bottom of my heart, and i tell somebody i dont like them from the bottom of my heart too.
Oh ya, what physical illness i have you might ask? I have this serptal defect, a puncture at the wall of my heart. I had it plugged till i was around 13 before i underwent surgery to patch it up. Due to my liking for football, i kept on exercising till i can run 10 kilometers non stop, and is still jogging and jump jumping regularly.
Both my feet were what they called "figure 8 feet". My mum told me just a few days after i was born, planks were tied to my legs to try bring them back in place. The condition was much better but still my feet were inverted and pri sch friends called me duck legs. I forced myself to change the way i walk. Now i walk just like any normal people.
I was plagued with acne in sch sch. That brought my morale down the most. Still i hang out with friends, do stupid things etc etc... I still remembered telling my mum, "Buy a lemon for me every 3 days, i am gonna apply lemon juice on my face till acne goes away." Now its much better, i have some scars, but who cares? I am a guy, not a girl.
I was fucking fat too once, once weighing 75 KG i think around 160 in height during sec sch. Then i cut down eating at night and together with playing football, i stand 170 and 55kg now.
The reason why i seriously despise u from the bottom of my heart is, all you do is whine, or i would say, kpkb. I can say EVERYBODY have some problem or things they dont like physically, and they work to change it. Which is totally the opposite of u.
I forgot if i mentioned this before but, I have a classmate this sem, His name is MAX. He is physically disabled, and needs 2 walking sticks whereever he goes. I dont know the exact problem with him, but his feet seems like jelly.
HE never look down on himself, he is very outgoing and friendly. Not only that, he took part in the Olympics for the Disabled for 3 years straight already, and he just returned from this year's competition 2 months ago. I forgot which event he took part in, but he told me he was just short of qualifying for finals.
Now you know the difference between those physically disabled, those who have problems physically, those who are unhappy with themselves and you?
Its they DO something about it.
there are many ways to convince ppl to change. try the soft reasonable approach. it works better.
i am sorry about ur condition. and if i can be of any help pls let me know -
Hey there. First thanks for your concern but, i am just like any normal person now, maybe very very very rare instance of tripping myself.Originally posted by mikairis:though i feel ur motives are well intended and u have made ur point clear and they are indeed useful. it is always a benefit to put it across in a more caring and compassionate manner if u know how it is to be in pain, than u must also know that it sucks to have someone throw ur problem back at u on the face and yell at u.
there are many ways to convince ppl to change. try the soft reasonable approach. it works better.
i am sorry about ur condition. and if i can be of any help pls let me know
Well... If you had seen all his threads, and all the advices that the forumites gave, and how he reacts to them, you will understand.
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most of the time, chio gals always attach to fugly guys..
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Originally posted by ifish:most of the time, chio gals always attach to fugly guys..
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u know i was jus browsing though the past thread, and i think i can understand why. but i'll still help if he wants to be helpedOriginally posted by ChingAlvin:Hey there. First thanks for your concern but, i am just like any normal person now, maybe very very very rare instance of tripping myself.
Well... If you had seen all his threads, and all the advices that the forumites gave, and how he reacts to them, you will understand.
cheers
thanks man
cheers -
if no constructive comments, please don't kill with your words..
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the thread is not constructive anywayOriginally posted by Agenda:if no constructive comments, please don't kill with your words.. -
Not constructive? How in what way?Originally posted by r0mE_27:the thread is not constructive anyway
Anyway im giving hypnotherapy a go .Whatever the cost, as long as it cures my disorder -
u're at insworld ah?
i like that place! -
It's boring reallyOriginally posted by ChoCoChips:u're at insworld ah?
i like that place!
Their comps are still pentium 3 -
x2Originally posted by browniebaobao:i dun see any prob with ur looks.
u think too much.
to me, looks are juz outer shells, we have different looks bcos we are unique, and we have to be unique in order to identify ourselves.
beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. take for example, durians. the appearance is not appealing, but the flesh inside is really good stuff. however, not many people love durians, some juz want to stay far far away from durians bcos of the smell... others like me just can't get enough of durians.
if you dun even feel good about yourself, dun expect others to feel good about you.
anyway i don't think u look ugly.