Originally posted by fgfm:
My ex and I have been together for more than 2 years. We broke up yesterday and I was the one who initiated it. We have broken up a few times before but patched soon after and were back to being loveydovey.
I believe he still loves me because before the day we broke up, he told me he really loves me and when I asked where he expected this relationship to go, he said he wanted me to be his wife. I dont think feelings fade that easily? So I guess there's still chances for us to be together again, I still love him but I am really confused.
The break up was mainly resulted due to an incident last Sunday. Last Friday or something, he asked me to go to this party with him. And I knew that his friends will be there. I told him that my tuition ends at 3pm and I can meet him after that. On Saturday night, I msged and asked if he wanted me to go to the party, he said that he's scared that he wont accompany me. Still, he didnt answer my question. I msged again, asking him the same question but this time, there was no reply. As his handphone was prone to running out of battery easily and he was usually out till late at night, I didnt really bother.
Deep inside, I wanted to go. I couldnt sleep the whole night. Maybe because of the stress I received due to school work that made me want to go to a party that much. I was looking forward to it so much.
I msged him at about 11am the next morning, asking the same question again. No reply. Thought he might be sleeping. So yeah. I went for my tuition and even after it ended, there was no reply from him. Usually after my tuition, my Dad will fetch me home..But this time, because I thought I was meeting him, I told my Dad that he need not fetch me. After tuition, I slacked at Orchard alone. Called up a lot of friends but mostly were not free or had plans already. That added onto my frustration.
3.30pm. I called and he finally picked up the phone. He explained that he overslept and will go bath and leave the house now. I asked how long he would take, and he said, 'half an hour to bath and get ready. 45 minutes to get to Orchard'. I got really fed up, this wasnt the first time he overslept. And knowing him, it wouldnt take only half an hour for him to get ready. I told him to cab down because I didnt want to wait that long. I was alone at Orchard, damn it! Moreover, many questions ran past my mind at that time. Questions like, whether he knew that my tuition ended at 3pm but didnt bother. Apparently, I let my emotions got the better of me as I hurled vulgarities at him via sms. At first he was quite apologetic and I told him to stfu and go and bath. He told me that I can go and meet myself. In other words, we wont meet. It was 4pm by then.
I kind of regretted so I decided I should just wait for him. I msged giving him my reasons why I was really angry. His reply was cold, and nonchalent. He said that we could meet, but he will be taking train. Moreover, he wont be sending me home even if I went. I asked why. And his reply was, "If other people's gf can go home themselves, I dont see why you cant."
That fucking broke my heart.
The next few moments was spent on trying to make him say that he will send me home. In fact, I had asked my Dad to fetch me home. All I needed was for my him to say that he will send me home and when its time for me to go back, I will tell him that there's not a need to do so. But he didnt. I asked which was more important, the party or me. And he said the party.
(Btw, the party has something to do with his hobby.)
Damn depressing.
I continued waiting until about 5.45pm. I got really frustrated and asked where was he. He said he was at the party already. Instantaneously, I went, WTF? I had been waiting so long for him over there and yet he reached and didnt bother finding me? Then he told me to meet him at the party. I told him to come and find me. I gave him directions and also casually asked him to buy me a donut from the donut shop down the road, near to where I was.
He found me after searching for 10 minutes or so. I ate the donut he bought, and he offered me his drink. He asked if I wanted another one and I said no. I walked away and he followed behind me and slowly, we were walking together again. No words were exchanged. Then I dont know for what reason, he just walked off and went to the party himself.
Just then, my Dad called and asked if I was ready to go to my Uncle's place and I left the vicinity.
It seems like God planned everything.
For all he has done and said, I am really hurt. His insensitivity has disgusted me because he wasnt like this in the past. He knows that I cant accept his hobby and hopes that he would reduce doing it to spend more time with me but he just refuses to do so. Its not like I am totally stopping him from doing it what. He's a really nice guy when we are 'Okay' and I enjoy times spent with him. It has been a long time since we knew each other. We knew each other for months before getting together.
I was, and in fact still hurt that I so much want to hit him, punch him, kick him, slap him and cry in front of him.
But I know I will miss him. He says that I am too insensitive. Am I?
I dont mind getting flamed here. And I am kinda sure he will read this. So yeah. I just need help.
I have to admit you are one of the most insensitive types.
You are the types who expect guys to treat you like a princess and you treat them like a dog.
seen so many of your types around and I always advice guys to stay away from girls like you.
Sadly your bf do not seems like a real man at all, kena f by gf still treat you so well.
One word of advice for you, better change your ways. people give face to gals who are young and pretty, once you are old or turn ugly, people will hack care about you. Tell you to f off.
To the bf of this girl who maybe reading this :
Dump this gal asap. No point going out with her cos she treats you like trash. Keep saying she loves you but her actions only shows that she treats a dog better than you. They are many other gals who are better looking and treats you with much more respect.