Suicidal and depressed
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As of my previous posts, I talked to everyone about my situation but no one wants to realise my position. I am posting this in all seriousness about my feelings as I am helpless and I wish to seek help here as the first option
My family fails to listen to me and my girlfriend does not want to listen to my problem as she says she has work problems. My problem of the limitation of freedom is so big that I feel I have lost a mere sense of mutual respect from everyone around me. I am beginning to feel that life continuing on like this has no purpose.
I have evaluated my thoughts. I talked and discussed matters only to be rebuked by my mother like this 'Anything you say, you will think it is right so I have no comments because you only think of yourself.' I am compromising yet she wants to be right. I have thought of a plan rationally but she holds her ground. I am helpless. Does it give her a permanent high to see me being submissive? I want to stand up to my parents yet they make things difficult.
I feel that my parents curb my potential. I have always thought about a compromising plan so we both could be happy, if not, least unhappy. However, everytime I try to be tactful, my plea gets thrown out even without the slightest concern.
I feel suicidal because I cannot continue being oppressed by my mother. My girlfriend has so many things to see to, she neglected me. Trust me, if I told her how I feel, I would get a 'What is it again now' type of look and she would tell me she is too busy.
I feel that whatever I do cannot be achieved because my potential is stunted by these 2 women of my life. I am truely troubled. Even if I break up with my girlfriend, my mother will always be my mother. Suicide has been my last option yet I have exhausted other options My mother will dismiss everything as a family affair if I seek professional help. I am helpless. I do not want to wash the dirty linen in public too.
I am mentally tired and I do not wish to continue yet it breaks my heart to end everything. Thinking back, I have nothing. -
Suicide is NEVER an option!!!!!
What are you saying dude!!
Cheer up... there will always be someone that cares...
What about your friend? -
Originally posted by mhcampboy:
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[b]Suicide is NEVER an option!!!!!
What are you saying dude!!
Cheer up... there will always be someone that cares...
What about your friend?[/b]
Wheres your friend? -
this is in all seriousness.
friends have never been priority in my life. my family provides me with shelter food and clothing, not my friends. they limit whatever i do, what good will frens do when i do not even fulfil my own needs?
my girlfren never listens. i m suicidal yet she might think i m bothersome. she cares when we r happy but starts getting moody when i m having bad times, who m i to her now?
my family does not even listen, yet the root cause is my family. if i dont tackle the cause and only cure the symptoms, it will me constant! i do nto want such a life.
anyone who can say there are people worse than me and living, we have different mindsets, what someone thinks may not apply to the other. -
Suicide is not an option.
however much i wanna smack ur head in and ask u to wake up a bit, this is still AA.
So I will restrain
Mabbe u need to rethink ur life if u are basing it on just two women. -
i m losing everything because these 2 women are wrecking my life.
now that they have achieved their goal, how can i pull myself out?
imagine u getting pushed into the lake by 2 ppl. u wan to get up but they sit on ur body thinking that you will be tougher after this. yet one day, you may just drown. could this be the day? -
ur girlfriend sounds more like your happy hour buddy to me. if she cares for you she would surely take time off for you.
as for your mother perhaps you can move out and get ur own house. -
she suppresses everything i do. i cannot work. she will ensure i cannot work then she is happy. she wants me to kneel to her. pop a lil pills n everything just goes. thats it. i have a very high urge to do that now. i m not joking or seeking attention but that is how i feel for about 1 month already.Originally posted by cApitaland:ur girlfriend sounds more like your happy hour buddy to me. if she cares for you she would surely take time off for you.
as for your mother perhaps you can move out and get ur own house. -
Why suicide?
You kill yourself solve problem meh...? You kill yourself you can see they regert or not meh?
Ans is NO.
Always remember to LIVE FOR YOURSELF. Your parents give you problem, you can always move away. Your girlfriend gives you problem, you can dump her. (Note: following is last resort suggestions)
If they dun make you happy, make yourself happy (Note: substance abuse or anything against the law is not an option). Find good friends, take up sports, etc.
The only time I would want to commit suicide is when I'm standing on a meteorite heading towards earth and the only way to stop it is to blow it up with a nuke...
http://www.miniclip.com/games/bloxorz/en/
here, play this game, take your mind off of things... -
dude.. there is a lot of ppl here.. including myself... is willing to listen and help u out....
sure... we cannot change everything.. but we can be by your side...
u really got to get rid of ur suicidal tendencies first... -
sorry to say this but you are in control of your own life.
others might influence the journey but the destination will ultimately remain as yr decision.
you are not totally wrong in blaming others. but they are not fully responsible cause you allowed it to happen and thus you played a key role in being where you are now.
There are many options instead of taking your own life. find one that is more sensible and you have taken the 1st step into changing your destiny. -
i admit i was led by them to the lake, but who expected them to push me down?
i trusted it was a trip but they wanted to control me. now i am not scared to lose anything, what is life to me? -
Why don't u seek professional couseling about your problems. If i am your girlfriend and i have to put up with your problems every now and then, i could also go crazy. Girlfriend is also human. She also expects you to be a good bf who share joy and not excessive problems. ( Assuming that u have been telling her your problems every now and then.. have u ? )
I remember that you have posted a thread that you have quite a good life and you should be more open-minded with it. You think your life is shiit, there are people whose life is even more shiitter!!! Please don't get self-centre with your own problems. Everyone is facing their problems in this imperfect world.
so ok cheer up yah. You are not the only one who suffers.
Your mum is your mum but she is also doing things for your own good. Maybe her ways of doing things isn't ideal but at least she meant well.
I'm sure she loves you too. Even though your girlfriend neglects you, she also loves you. Now please learn to love yourself more yeah. By loving yourself and accepting your flaws unconditionally, you are more able to find the inner strength/positive happiness to make the changes internally and externally. Btw I don't mean happily blind yourself to your flaws... love your flaws is to also look at them squarely and do something about it but you don't feel aversion for it. There is a difference.
You can't do anything about your life now does not mean you can't do anythings in the future. Maybe it is not the rigjt time to try too hard since the situation don't allows. Stay hopeful and wait for the right opportunity to make the changes.
With Love,
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They influence you but they don't control you. You are nevertheless the key to how you want to live your life. If they ask you to shit rubbish, will u eat rubbish ?Originally posted by sEphIrOth:i admit i was led by them to the lake, but who expected them to push me down?
i trusted it was a trip but they wanted to control me. now i am not scared to lose anything, what is life to me? -
guys, when someone wants to commit suicide usually gives a very clear warning first before he or she does it.
4/5 people always give clear warnings. I believe he is talking about the truth, the stress is too hard for him.. I cant advise much cos im a girl, but then plz plz hang in there.. I can only sae this from my favorite anime to encourage you:
"the girls in your life, to handle them, you must learn how to be a predator, you devour them, dont let them devour you. if they get to you, its all over."
So i hope you wake up as a MAN this time around and not a boy, even if it means you need to shout at your mum and ask your gf to go eat sai, so be it.. you have to learn how to grow up le. -
tendency for suicide has been seen since i was 15, but has not arised till now. i feel that so much pressure is unbearable.
some things we r very clear of what we want, yet we cannot achieve them due to barriers which we cannot remove. however, we can take happiness out of such obstacles. but during a growth period, social physical cognitive and awareness are all essential. i feel i m lacking the social and communication part. we can say we can eliminate each sector but all of them complement each other.
therfore, i feel empty and something needs to be done. but my pleas go on deaf ears. -
pushing me is a form of taking advantage. well i feel what they are doing in ur context is... if u dont wanna eat rubbish, i will make life hard till u eat rubbish. they use such forms to torture me.Originally posted by SeaofLove:They influence you but they don't control you. You are nevertheless the key to how you want to live your life. If they ask you to shit rubbish, will u eat rubbish ?
as everyon can see, i m sound and making logical thoughts but i feel there is no use since no one listens. -
your mother gave birth to you, raise you like this, and you want to waste your mother's hard work, her youth and her money?
such a waste -
i dunno how to give adice but just dun be alone in the meantime....
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Let examine the situation::Originally posted by sEphIrOth:pushing me is a form of taking advantage. well i feel what they are doing in ur context is... if u dont wanna eat rubbish, i will make life hard till u eat rubbish. they use such forms to torture me.
as everyon can see, i m sound and making logical thoughts but i feel there is no use since no one listens.
In what ways your mother push you around?
In what ways your girlfriend push you around? -
mother: tell her when i need things, sponsor me abit. she say i save myself. everyday i eat in sch or starve n not eat also not enough.
tell her i wanna work. she say dont work, if not no pocket money at all and she will force me stay at home.
always tell me what she wan me to do, not wad i wan even if it sounds reasonable.
gf: doesnt really care about me, just her work n nth else, always get angry when i m depressed. -
well cancel out suicide. it is against the law and its not worth because i cannot see more of the world. however, i feel very depressed. it has affected my self esteem too.
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Can u sercetly have a part-time job ?Originally posted by sEphIrOth:mother: tell her when i need things, sponsor me abit. she say i save myself. everyday i eat in sch or starve n not eat also not enough.
tell her i wanna work. she say dont work, if not no pocket money at all and she will force me stay at home.
always tell me what she wan me to do, not wad i wan even if it sounds reasonable.
gf: doesnt really care about me, just her work n nth else, always get angry when i m depressed.
Teach tuition also can.. Don't tell your parents loh.
can't u talk to your dad about it. btw which year are u in uni?
I don't know what btw u and ur gf so im not gg to comment on it.
Don't expect her to be always there for you to listen to you.
She also has to have her own time and do her stuffs. -
about my gf, quite true. i will not brood too much about her.Originally posted by SeaofLove:Can u sercetly have a part-time job ?
Teach tuition also can.. Don't tell your parents loh.
can't u talk to your dad about it. btw which year are u in uni?
I don't know what btw u and ur gf so im not gg to comment on it.
Don't expect her to be always there for you to listen to you.
She also has to have her own time and do her stuffs.
Secretly? it is hard to secretly find a job. i can talk to my dad, he is very understanding but i feel that my mother is the head of the family and it is hard for my father to make decisions. my mother is stingy as to the amount of money she gives me. my dad understands and he is willing to give me what i need. i do not ask for much, not having things most teens have. i am simple and dress simply. i eat simple dishes. all i ask for is something special once in a blue moon and the request gets rejected.
they think that bringing me holidays would make me happy. in fact i feel obliged to go holidays with them. it is what makes them happy not me,. i have to follow them around and it is a chore as compared to when i go out with my frens, and i spend lesser. -
Tuition assignment is not hard to find. You just need to look through the newspaper and register yourself as tutor. Online resources also got.Originally posted by sEphIrOth:about my gf, quite true. i will not brood too much about her.
Secretly? it is hard to secretly find a job. i can talk to my dad, he is very understanding but i feel that my mother is the head of the family and it is hard for my father to make decisions. my mother is stingy as to the amount of money she gives me. my dad understands and he is willing to give me what i need. i do not ask for much, not having things most teens have. i am simple and dress simply. i eat simple dishes. all i ask for is something special once in a blue moon and the request gets rejected.
they think that bringing me holidays would make me happy. in fact i feel obliged to go holidays with them. it is what makes them happy not me,. i have to follow them around and it is a chore as compared to when i go out with my frens, and i spend lesser.
U can tell them u DON'T want to GO. Just insist that and make out some excuses. How old are you already ? Even if they kick you out for not gg holiday with them, you also can survive.