since u made up your mind bout being only frens, then dont say it no matter how badly u wantaed to say it.. cuz , u need to see the result after what u said...
U know the result is the bad one.. right?
Sometimes, your decision is a decision with whats wrong or right.. not whats should or shouldnt.... any decision based on just feeling always ended up making a bad one..
U said u only wanted to be frens with her now. But if u still thinking of saying that u once loved her, that just make another key to lock the chain between u and her.. do u see it?
Just remind u again, not everthing in our life is blessed with everything we want..No matter how bad u think you are now, theres always some1 worse than you. Be grateful that she is still your fren now..
I believe once u overcome this problem, you are stronger than ever..
the reason why i wanna tell her that i loved her once,
because there is a barrier between us now.
let me explain the barrier:
Before secondary 4, she always confide in me about her r/s problems.
during secondary 4, when she stead with that guy and a big issue was raised between me n her, after that she never confide in me about her r/s problems cos she does not want to hurt me [ take note: she does not know i like her ]
and now, she is having some serious problems with that guy which may or may not result in a break. [ reason is : she has multiple crushes recently. ]
and i feel very tortured for her not to say out how troubled she feels.
so i thought that i could remove that barrier by saying out.
then maybe she'll understand why i did this or that in the past, and then forgive me, then we can start anew as friends..something like that...