‘Cloud! You are finally here!’
I looked at the clock and it says 10 pm. No, I am not late, rather I am pretty early using IRC entering our usual chat room.
‘Cloud, my good friend tried to patch back with her bf today… but he ignore her…’
WellÂ… guys of these days are not looking for serious relation. People have to get to know and go through more relation before they could realise that who is the right one for them what.
‘She cried you know… so poor thing… then that guy said that he likes another girl…’
A Chinese proverb came into my mind – Tian ya he chu wu fang cao. Why cry wasted tears over a relation that was never meant to be yours in the first place? Human, even though are emotional creatures, after a period of time, everything will just be a memory of what had taken place.
‘Yah I told her to move on with her life, but she loved him so much and she couldn’t believe that he like someone else… if I am her, I will also dunno what the do…’
DonÂ’t know what to do? Make yourself happy instead of lingering in this sorrowful event? Sometimes I really wonder if woman are that dumb? Or is it love that is making woman a vulnerable creature? And what makes you think THAT it is love? Woman, in their first love, love their lovers, in others, they loved loveÂ…
‘Really?…’
All woman loves romance. It is like salt and sugar in cooking. Without it, whatever relation will be bland.
‘What about you Cloud?’
Me? How come the topic is about me now? I always avoid questions whenever it comes to me in revealing my inner self. It is like exposing yourself to danger through speaking. People, whom you least expected it, betray the trust you given to them and you will have to go through this series of utter disappointment and sadness. Ok I admitÂ… I watch TOO much TV.
‘Me? What about me?’
‘What if something like that happens to you?’
‘Er… it won’t lar. I don’t even have a gf…’
‘Why? Go get one?’
‘…’
‘y? something is wrong?’
Ok baby, this would be the catalysis to explode my innermost views again.
‘I don’t want to get a gf for the SAKE of getting one… its meaningless don’t you think? Relation nowadays are going nowhere because people just want to be in a relation. They are afraid to be alone - they WANT someone to walk by them. Be it emotionally, sexually or physically. I don’t mind being alone - I like it! Until maybe when the special one comes along, I will try my best to be with her, doing stuff together and most importantly, grow together…’
There was an unaccustomed silence after I type that paragraph. My fingers speed through the keyboard and finally stop at the last word. Oh shit! Have I just ruined my good impression? I discern its time to celebrate with Jerry about my first failure.
‘You are right Cloud…’
Hooray!! I could see my happiness on the computer screen, signalling to my victory of words.
‘I want to stay single, until the special one comes along too…

Â…Â’
Oh wait, how could cute girls like her possibly stay single? Guys will try all sorts of ways to get her and she would finally succumb to one. She is too cute to stay singleÂ…
‘/me blushed… no I am not cute…’
She is such a poor liar. When you praise a girl pretty, they would tell you they look ugly. When you say that they look like toilet, she retaliate and bites back, saying you look worstÂ… such is mentality of a woman.
‘I girl mah, that why will also be like that… =P’
From a close defeated battle, I have eventually emerge the winner as I continue to chat with her for the next two hours. Somehow, during these periods of knowing her, I had never asked about the background of her family or sort, but we talk everything else. I loved to chat with her as she is way so different from all the other girls – she is VERY naïve and this creates an impulse for me to protect her, to guide her along. She showed me the real innocence of a young lady, untainted and pure. I love the way she is, naturally cute and THIS is the reasons that stop me from jioing her – I can’t take advantage of her innocence right?
‘Cloud… I have to go already… its getting late…’
‘I have to leave too…Oh yeah… its almost 12 and my Cinderella has to leave… HAHAHAHA!’
Why is it that I must laugh every time I attempt a MUSHY statement? A lousy cover for my embarrassment.
‘

Â…Â’
‘Cloud… you say the other time you wanna treat me movie right?’
Ok, my hypnotic statement has hinted her! YEAH!
‘Lets watch movie together tomorrow ok?’
ErÂ… ok!Â’
My mind was cheering and screaming in rejoice. All hail cupid for the golden opportunity!
‘Ok… Cloud you log off first, I don’t want you to see me go…’
‘Aww…ok I count to 3 and leave…’
I canÂ’t believe I am doing this SILLY business.
‘3…2…1…gone!’
I couldnÂ’t get to sleep on that day, totally excited about tomorrowÂ’s event. Going out with a girl? I had never been out with one before! Praying at my bedside sincerely that nothing will screwed up on that day.
(To be continued...)