For the next few months, we chatted everyday and each time I felt that I am slipping into this pit of angelic darkness called love. She told me she couldn’t go out very often as her guardian is very strict – finally she is talking more about herself. Her parents are overseas working, leaving her all alone, which contribute reasons for her character. I know she longs for my company like I longs for hers. We are like one in-separate-able pair of best friend. Whatever problems she has, she consulted me and I will be there to give my expertise advice. Maybe this is what true love is, someone to be there regardless of whether you two are together - someone to guide, shield and depend. Jerry, the woman’s men, said that I am wasting too much time on a single girl. I should have just pop the question and leave the thinking to her, after all life is too short to spend on one person. But the urge to reveal my feeling hasn’t reached to such stage for desperation yet. Maybe next time I would, but when is the right time?
‘Cloud… I have something to ask you…’
Oh no, not again?
‘What do you think of me?…’
Oh shit, peer evaluating time! Even though I speak easily to myself, when it comes to expressing to HER, I am score an F9 for it.
‘Cute? And you are a very good friend of mine…’
‘That all?…’
What do you mean thatÂ’s all? Oh dear, I have to say something that she wants to hear or forever I will be condemn in her eyes. NooooooooÂ…..
I decide to avoid the question using my avoidance tactics.
‘There is a lot of things in my heart that I feel about you, but in this short span of time, I can’t express it out. But regardless of what is it, I want to let you know that treasure you a lot.’
Phew, lucky thing I manage to come out with this marvellous sentence. It seemed that after the episode of knowing her, I am beginning to learn the trades of using words.
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I didnÂ’t know how to reply her smile and decide to leave it until she reply me with something else. Five minutes went by and I am starting ponder whether I should reply anything.
‘Cloud… can we meet for dinner tomorrow?’
Another date! Yeah I screamed literally at my computer scream as she is able to go out once more, with me.
‘Sure! What about your guardian? She allows you to go out?’
‘Yes, she allow me to go out tomorrow…’
‘Ok… we meet at Mac at Parklane ok?’
‘/me nodded her head…’
‘Ok I have to go offline now… remember don’t be so early ok?… I feel bad if you have to wait for me…’
I smiled at her consideration for me.
Before I could reply with anything, her nick has quit IRC. Guess that I have to wait for tomorrow to see her again.
(To be continued...)