Originally posted by frustfrust:
When I wrote the posting, I did expect some flaming just with most other postings, even on the most mundane subjects. But I did not expect so much reaction. I do not hate those doubters, and those who were so harsh with their criticism. Afterall this is a discussion forum, you're free to post, you're equally free to criticise.
Devil1976 said it well:
My personal advice is whoever thinks that this guy DON'T deserves any attention can simply IGNORE him.
But I'm grateful to those sympathisers and those with very kind words (like ReallieRaw, boy in blues, talk_cock). I'm grateful that despite all the doubters, they were willing to give me benefit of doubt and spent time typing such kind lengthy reply.
I am not about to spend time defending my posting, or proving that it is true. Simply because I don't see the need to convince anybody the authencity of it. And simply because either way, there will still be sceptics. It never ends.
I have been reading the thread. At one point, I was so disappointed and disheartened by the criticism that I felt it was pointless to reply at all. And I had wanted to leave it as it is. But it was the kind postings by chaps like talk_cock, that made me felt compelled to at least reply to show some gratitude, and to say thanks.
I know I'm sick in the mind. I can't help it. But at least, I am not a hypocrite and pretend I'm perfectly normal, as normal as all of you here.
Because of this reply, I believe your problem is genuine. You see, I have been in the forum for quite some while and occasionally, there will be posts like this and people just disappear after the initial post - well, naturally, people would just think it was nothing but a tale spin. Since you did reply again to explain your stand, I shall honour my words to reply you.

First of all: You don't need the world to believe you: You only need one.
Allow me to explain and analysis a little and hope this helps:
Many behaviors and acts one implements and react has
ALOT to do when you were young. You mentioed that your dad passed away when you were young and you were the only child. My guess is that neither you were very close to your mum either - often lived in your little world and the external environment.

This is affects child psychological state and sexual development.
Let me ask you three question:
I) Do you engage in porn?
II) Have you ever had a girlfriend (Describe your first love)
III) Your attitude towards the opposite gender? (Shy? Don't dare look in eyes? Bold? Always full of thoughts? Etc? - As truthful as possible)

My guess over your problem of lusting over your mum is because you have weak family bond and the fact that because your mum wasn't just a mum - she was pretty for her age.
As for the fact that your mum was rape - please,
if you have mote of humanity in you - seek help on the behalf of her. Being a single mum is already a burden to her - now she has to undergo sexual harrassment and psychological damage from her ill fate.

Here are a list of things to stop: if you truely want to seek help.
I) STOP adding fuel to the fire, by reading her dairy and revel in it.
II) Stop posting your mum's number in toliet and ERASE those you have put.

III) Stop touching your mum's lingerie.
YOU DEFINITELY NEED TO SEEK PROFESSIONAL HELP. Do not delay anymore.You know that what you are doing is not only socially
UNACCEPTABLE and
DAMNABLE, it's highly
immoral. She is your mum - the lady who gave birth to you and brought you into this world. She is suffering! Open your eyes and look!

Your dad has passed away - but let me tell you, his spirit is always around and he will be weeping so badly when he sees his only child, not only gang up against his wife (Your mom), and he always felt pleased.

You won't have my sympathy UNLESS you do something practical about this issue - Seek help psychologically - There are alot of HOTLINES to call - Call them NOW! They ain't psycho trying to change your thinking - they are trying to sort you out, listen and is
]genuinely trying to assist you. They will be in better position to tell you what to do because they speak to you in person, unlike here - where words have little effect.

P.S: You can't overcome this yourself - seek assist NOW!

Cheers