sigh...its THAT feeling again(part 2)
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No, harlow, I WATCHed commercials there lah
RPOriginally posted by Devil1976:Err... You shoots commercials?
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Farmer Brown........
I'm worried abt u leh...
RPOriginally posted by Farmer Brown:this aint to anyone in particular... i just need to let it out... dun comment if you dun have to...
do you know how much it hurts? to feel gnawed upon inside inch by inch? to feel utter loneliness, to bask in the silence of it.. u become so confused..so lost...u mix up what you're looking for. the lines are blurred..by overwhelming tears..yet you think i'm ok. you think i'm fine. gosh... can't you see...i'm hiding cause i dun want to face you all... i'm running as far as hard as i can.. just to get away from all this pain.. just to be free from it... just to be far enough not to let it haunt me... and until that day where i can really run far enough... i have to accept this miserable fate. the fate you left me with when i left you. i don't know whether to hate you all or to blame myself. yea i seem strong all the time... but what do YOU know.. you don't bother to stop and prod.. in times of need i've been always there for you all. but where are all of you now... i go to sleep everynight hoping not to wake up...but do you know that? no you don't
i'm a mess inside... i don't know for how long i can keep this up.. this has been a terrible past year for me... and i don't ever want to remember it... so please...dun celebrate anything... i don't want it.. i don't want any balloons.. i don't want a cake.. i don't want f**king candles and i don't want you guys to show up with some stupid present you bought ten minutes ago... just leave me alone.. shouldn't be too hard.. you've all been doing it for quite long now...why stop? i'm leaving and i don't really wanna come back.. -
Originally posted by Farmer Brown:this aint to anyone in particular... i just need to let it out... dun comment if you dun have to...
do you know how much it hurts? to feel gnawed upon inside inch by inch? to feel utter loneliness, to bask in the silence of it.. u become so confused..so lost...u mix up what you're looking for. the lines are blurred..by overwhelming tears..yet you think i'm ok. you think i'm fine. gosh... can't you see...i'm hiding cause i dun want to face you all... i'm running as far as hard as i can.. just to get away from all this pain.. just to be free from it... just to be far enough not to let it haunt me... and until that day where i can really run far enough... i have to accept this miserable fate. the fate you left me with when i left you. i don't know whether to hate you all or to blame myself. yea i seem strong all the time... but what do YOU know.. you don't bother to stop and prod.. in times of need i've been always there for you all. but where are all of you now... i go to sleep everynight hoping not to wake up...but do you know that? no you don't
i'm a mess inside... i don't know for how long i can keep this up.. this has been a terrible past year for me... and i don't ever want to remember it... so please...dun celebrate anything... i don't want it.. i don't want any balloons.. i don't want a cake.. i don't want f**king candles and i don't want you guys to show up with some stupid present you bought ten minutes ago... just leave me alone.. shouldn't be too hard.. you've all been doing it for quite long now...why stop? i'm leaving and i don't really wanna come back..
/me pat pat FB
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Originally posted by Farmer Brown:this aint to anyone in particular... i just need to let it out... dun comment if you dun have to...
do you know how much it hurts? to feel gnawed upon inside inch by inch? to feel utter loneliness, to bask in the silence of it.. u become so confused..so lost...u mix up what you're looking for. the lines are blurred..by overwhelming tears..yet you think i'm ok. you think i'm fine. gosh... can't you see...i'm hiding cause i dun want to face you all... i'm running as far as hard as i can.. just to get away from all this pain.. just to be free from it... just to be far enough not to let it haunt me... and until that day where i can really run far enough... i have to accept this miserable fate. the fate you left me with when i left you. i don't know whether to hate you all or to blame myself. yea i seem strong all the time... but what do YOU know.. you don't bother to stop and prod.. in times of need i've been always there for you all. but where are all of you now... i go to sleep everynight hoping not to wake up...but do you know that? no you don't
i'm a mess inside... i don't know for how long i can keep this up.. this has been a terrible past year for me... and i don't ever want to remember it... so please...dun celebrate anything... i don't want it.. i don't want any balloons.. i don't want a cake.. i don't want f**king candles and i don't want you guys to show up with some stupid present you bought ten minutes ago... just leave me alone.. shouldn't be too hard.. you've all been doing it for quite long now...why stop? i'm leaving and i don't really wanna come back..
Anytime ya need to talk? You can PM me.... -
thx you guys... but i'm not sure how you guys could help.. i really appreciate it and i'm open to suggestions... and i don't think changing my mindset's gonna help...its a long term solution for sure....
in the meanwhile...i've just gotta wait for my departure date to arrive -
Actually, FB, until u identify the source tt leads to this feeling of "depression", it's hard to suggest anythg for u leh...
RPOriginally posted by Farmer Brown:thx you guys... but i'm not sure how you guys could help.. i really appreciate it and i'm open to suggestions... and i don't think changing my mindset's gonna help...its a long term solution for sure....
in the meanwhile...i've just gotta wait for my departure date to arrive -
Well... Maybe you feel that it's not a time for 'therapy' or even a need for it? I'm not suggesting otherwise...Originally posted by Farmer Brown:thx you guys... but i'm not sure how you guys could help.. i really appreciate it and i'm open to suggestions... and i don't think changing my mindset's gonna help...its a long term solution for sure....
in the meanwhile...i've just gotta wait for my departure date to arrive
I like it when you mentioned that you're open to suggestions.. That's the key thing I'm gonna recommend to you... Don't have to change your mindset or reflect over yourself if you don't want to for now... RATHER take more time off to talk with people... Open yourself up and expand your thinking... Voice out whatever you have to say and cross your mind... Let them do the conversation... Contribute... End of the day you decide for yourself what you wanna do and maybe even what went 'wrong' which makes you feel that way...
PS. You might be surprised? The problem might not even lies with you? Or maybe there won't even be a problem to begin with?
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xwOriginally posted by hopy:juz hv to pick up the pieces and move on? no matter how sad, no matter how hard...life still goes on.....
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haha...i wish i knew too...if this goes on i think i might seek professional help..hur hur hur...Originally posted by RainbowPrincess:Actually, FB, until u identify the source tt leads to this feeling of "depression", it's hard to suggest anythg for u leh...
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FB, dun leh, these kind of thoughts at this hour on a Friday night isn't good, talk it out with some1 who's familiar with what u're going thru ya? I'd talk u silly but i dunno why/who got u so messed up Help me 2 help u maybe?
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Izzit the feeling whereby u wish someone was there to give u a cuddle?
RPOriginally posted by Farmer Brown:help..... it won't go away...i feel lost. i feel so so alone...why am i even posting this...... -
BLURGH!!!
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i dun thats it... maybe it is... i really dun know,....everytime someone suggests a possible reason, it seems like it is. this is nuts.. it can't be humanly possible for me to feel EVERYTHING bad at one go....Originally posted by RainbowPrincess:Izzit the feeling whereby u wish someone was there to give u a cuddle?
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found something that might just reflect how i feel
always look on the bright side of life!! *whistles* -
hey guys.... thanks for all the concern... guess i should get rid of this thread.
i'm really fine and capable of being my obnoxious self
guess its just sometimes i have to let it out...looking back at this thread...it all seems silly. i'm fine and i thank ALL of you for being so supportive...
you're all free to come to my farm for one of FB's Famous Bakeout sessions! -
*hugz* I'm glad u're fine now : ) Anytime : )
RPOriginally posted by Farmer Brown:hey guys.... thanks for all the concern... guess i should get rid of this thread.
i'm really fine and capable of being my obnoxious self
guess its just sometimes i have to let it out...looking back at this thread...it all seems silly. i'm fine and i thank ALL of you for being so supportive...
you're all free to come to my farm for one of FB's Famous Bakeout sessions! -
REALLY?Originally posted by Farmer Brown:hey guys.... thanks for all the concern... guess i should get rid of this thread.
i'm really fine and capable of being my obnoxious self
guess its just sometimes i have to let it out...looking back at this thread...it all seems silly. i'm fine and i thank ALL of you for being so supportive...
you're all free to come to my farm for one of FB's Famous Bakeout sessions!> -
of course.. haha
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U make cookies, pies & cakes?
RPOriginally posted by Farmer Brown:of course.. haha -
YUPPEE! Where at? Maybe we can organise an outing?Originally posted by Farmer Brown:of course.. haha -
Venue: Farmer Brown's House, 14 Punggol Ave 6
Time: After rice-planting hours
Attire: Flannel shirts, overalls, work boots & straw hat
Entertainment: Feed the Chickens, Drive the Tractor, Egg Collecting, Cow Milking, Walking the Cow, Feed the Piggies, Bathing Session wif Piggies.
RPOriginally posted by Devil1976:YUPPEE! Where at? Maybe we can organise an outing? -
aye... something to that effect... wahaha
anyway... still waiting for RP's invite -
Wah tzann, waiiiiiiiit lah! *pengz*
Super impatient leh! *faintz*
RPOriginally posted by Farmer Brown:aye... something to that effect... wahaha
anyway... still waiting for RP's invite