So much hatred and anger in me!
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Originally posted by BaByBoY:i`m here too to vent my stress upon..
there area many places u can vent ur anger on..
u an try visit the kao pei kao bu forums..
there`s a guy callled croco..
vent ur anger on him...
on a more serious tone..
do find alternatives to tire ur physical body..
like go for swims cycl;ing or run
i`ve seen that u liked karate..
but since u almost killed ur mates, i suppose it isnt healthy anymore..
try more singular sports..
try participate in the upcomin OSIMS triathalon..
vent ur mental here..
trust me it`s a good place here..
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Originally posted by Inner Voice:I am not sure about you people, but if all our thoughts are transform into actions, there will bloods everywhere ...
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Don't worry... Done that too.. In fact, in many of the games.. I'm always after the CIVILIANS and not enemies if I'm not too badly penalised for it...?Originally posted by Inner Voice:Done that to, I make sure I kill all the villagers as well.
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I'm a Devil. If you think I can help you, PM me and we can exchange contacts.Originally posted by Inner Voice:gaoyue, thanks for being a friend. But I think I am going to disappoint you. The reason I come here is to release the beast within me. Things that I fought so hard to keep in control in my real life, I can safely say/do it here. I may be posting some sick topics here in the future. I may be ban by Jason. I need to get them off my mind. So please please don't be my friend or try to help. It makes me feel even more guilty. I really appreciate your, and the others, help. -
X 2. In fact, it can be quite a VERY GOOD way once you start to write them down and review them periodically....Originally posted by DeadPoet:Want to try writing poems?
It is a good way to express your emotions too you know.
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I SAW thatOriginally posted by BaByBoY:don mind me for ginvin other forums a bad name..
but the `OFFICIAL` forums are more restricted as in the tend to the general audience..
if u wanna rant u acn go kpkb forums..
even SCP ( shan_cai`s place ) u can say wat u wan..
the mods ther are more relac aka lazy to close threads..
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SInce you're already HERE...Originally posted by Inner Voice:You wrote those poems? They are very good. Maybe I will try writing in the future. Now I just need a place to vent my anger into words rather than actions. The more I post here the more guilty I feel because I may be posting some angry/sicks topics in my forum. I will be asking my psychiatrist to read my postings here too. Hope she is free, nowadays quite difficult to make appointment with her. Maybe she is avoiding me after I shouted at her during our last session. Whatever...
Teach you a thing today? It's call TRANSPARENCY....
To OPEN UP yourself to others... A sort of 'painful' process in the BEGINNING... But it allows you to have your wound EXPOSED... However, have it EXPOSED to the CORRECT people in the beginning... Until you're getting more comfortable with it... Then I can give you a follow up of the NEXT METHOD which you may use for be experiencing...
REMEMBER. Allow yourself to be REACHED. TOUCHED. And HURT. Feel the PAIN. At least you'll know that you're still there and alive.. And whatever BEAST which may be living inside of you, you're afterall in a human's flesh.
Being 'vulnerable' reduces the beast in you to a certain degree and puts you back to where you BELONG. Don't be afraid to be HURT. Don't be too defensive. Once you're IMMUNISED to PAIN, you'll be TOO STRONG to CONTROL. Unless you can have a VERY GOOD MENTAL CONTROL. That's in regards to the 'thoughts to actions' thing you've mentioned about in your much earlier post... But I don't really think you're in the condition for that for now...
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Originally posted by Inner Voice:I know I am the beast. What do I need to do to tame it? I know my soul is empty ...
Learn the power of humility - you have to be service of people who are inferior and weaker than you and you need to be constantly under people and work for them. You need to surrender all form of aggression to love and be taught the correct essence with regards to it.
What you fear, you must face. Devil's post is good stuff. Read it carefully.Teach you a thing today? It's call TRANSPARENCY....
To OPEN UP yourself to others... A sort of 'painful' process in the BEGINNING... But it allows you to have your wound EXPOSED... However, have it EXPOSED to the CORRECT people in the beginning... Until you're getting more comfortable with it... Then I can give you a follow up of the NEXT METHOD which you may use for be experiencing...
REMEMBER. Allow yourself to be REACHED. TOUCHED. And HURT. Feel the PAIN. At least you'll know that you're still there and alive.. And whatever BEAST which may be living inside of you, you're afterall in a human's flesh.
Being 'vulnerable' reduces the beast in you to a certain degree and puts you back to where you BELONG. Don't be afraid to be HURT. Don't be too defensive. Once you're IMMUNISED to PAIN, you'll be TOO STRONG to CONTROL. Unless you can have a VERY GOOD MENTAL CONTROL. That's in regards to the 'thoughts to actions' thing you've mentioned about in your much earlier post... But I don't really think you're in the condition for that for now...
So reduce yourself... You need to re-shape your psychological mindset and spiritual motives to the greater good, if not, any love relationship would be terribly destructive. You truely need someone to enlighten you.
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And I thought I am the only sick one here ...Originally posted by Devil1976:Don't worry... Done that too.. In fact, in many of the games.. I'm always after the CIVILIANS and not enemies if I'm not too badly penalised for it...? 
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Paiseh lah. I am only pri-primary school poet.Originally posted by gaoyue:im not a poet like him, but anything that is true is a good poem imo.
http://www.tabulas.com/~gaoyue/339233.html
anyways, don't ever force yourself too hard either. thats why you should do simple and nice things.. like the above suggestions. your psychiatrist probably told you its just stress to prevent you from thinking too much in it, since the rest are mere speculations at best.
clinical psychology isn't all books you know, it can be very practical for everyday life.
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Well said Devil!Originally posted by Devil1976:X 2. In fact, it can be quite a VERY GOOD way once you start to write them down and review them periodically....
By the way if you are free, please reply my pm. Thanks. -
you're pri-primary, then i'm not even a poet.Originally posted by DeadPoet:Paiseh lah. I am only pri-primary school poet.
Your poems are also very good. -
Originally posted by DeadPoet:Paiseh lah. I am only pri-primary school poet.
Your poems are also very good. dun make me laugh, im juz a first timer, i dun think anyone bt myself or maybe the person in question can decipher it. but dats my true feelings though, -
Originally posted by Inner Voice:And I thought I am the only sick one here ...
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DONE.Originally posted by DeadPoet:Well said Devil!
By the way if you are free, please reply my pm. Thanks. -
Since WHEN you're a POET?Originally posted by Nelstar:you're pri-primary, then i'm not even a poet. 
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whoa cool!! would u like to serve as my assasin?Originally posted by Inner Voice:I am afraid to wake up in the morning, because my battle with the beast within me starts once I am conscious. There is so much hatred and anger in me that they are tearing me apart. I am afraid I am losing the battle.
Recently, I am starting to have thoughts about taking lives, man, children, etcÂ… I am sick! I was kick out by my karate instructor a few months back for almost killing my classmate. He refused to teach me further.
I think my psychiatrist has also given up hope on me. But he did advice me to channel my hatred and anger into words. And that is why I am here. I will be postings some very sick thoughts here, or maybe I will start a forum so that nobody will have to read my sick postings. I know I am very sick. If I offended anyone, please forgive me. you have all the necessary traits and mindset. -
ooh! i got an idea. hmm.. sometimes its good to stay away from things that get u mad, until u cool down and think rationally.
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doesn't work, wad if u're mad at yourself?Originally posted by dumbdumb!:ooh! i got an idea. hmm.. sometimes its good to stay away from things that get u mad, until u cool down and think rationally. -
Sometimes I get mad over how dirty a public toilet can get?Originally posted by dumbdumb!:ooh! i got an idea. hmm.. sometimes its good to stay away from things that get u mad, until u cool down and think rationally. -
ever complained to the cleaners?Originally posted by Devil1976:Sometimes I get mad over how dirty a public toilet can get? -
I think tat tis is mostly out of stress... Be strong! Sometimes... All tis little things do fusturate us, esp when we r not in the best of moods... It takes jus a little to blow our top... I am also caught in tis kind of situation, though not as bad as urs... I loved children very much... But when i'm in a foul mood, i wish they would jus go away...Originally posted by Inner Voice:I am afraid to wake up in the morning, because my battle with the beast within me starts once I am conscious. There is so much hatred and anger in me that they are tearing me apart. I am afraid I am losing the battle.
Recently, I am starting to have thoughts about taking lives, man, children, etcÂ… I am sick! I was kick out by my karate instructor a few months back for almost killing my classmate. He refused to teach me further.
I think my psychiatrist has also given up hope on me. But he did advice me to channel my hatred and anger into words. And that is why I am here. I will be postings some very sick thoughts here, or maybe I will start a forum so that nobody will have to read my sick postings. I know I am very sick. If I offended anyone, please forgive me.
My suggestion is tat each time u feel fusturated, tak a deep breath n calm down... Think of the consequences tat will happen to watever action u have done... Or... think mentally wat u wanna do in ur mind... Think, but not do... At least u feel better!
Cryin is a gd way to let out ur tension... Or mayb u could listen to soothin music... Think of happy thoughts... thoughts tat makes u happy n forget wat is happenin now...
Mayb u could pick up kickboxin? Think is a gd way to relive ur anger also... or... Go xiao gui ling at bukit timah if i not wrong... go shout!!!
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Thought I'm suppose to AVOID the toilet then??Originally posted by wuming78:ever complained to the cleaners?