I am heartbroken...

• ahkico

  20 Oct 04, 00:13

  Haha.. Think i myself deserve all tis! Haha..
  
  Me and my ex broke up since Jan tis year... It was an amicable broke up to which we both agreed to...
  
  Thru out, we keep in contact as friends.. Occasionally goin out once or twice in few mths or sometimes chat online...
  
  rEcently... We went out more often... He asked me out to watch movie.. etc. Once to company him go repair his phone... We went out more frequently than b4... Suddenly.. it was lik my feelins for him were kinda of rekindle.. Mayb coz we go out tog bein the re.. But i sense it in him too... Or mayb i am wrong..
  
  During one of the times tat we were out... We were talkin bout relationships etc.. One piece here n there... But he mentioned somethin.. We discussin on who should each should consider.. Then he suddenly said.. Me lor! Consider me! Then he said.. I give u a very big hint liao hor.. I dunno wat to say lor! From there.. i jus kinda of assume?
  
  We became abit closer.. NoT so close.. but better than b4.. He is quite close to a gal, she is 16 yrs old.. He also seems interested in her.. Haha.. But most of the time, he insisted he treat her as a sis only...
  
  Tat time he mentioned.. Latern festival, she asked him out to play.. Then dunno how... They playin fireworks, she accidently burnt a hole in his fav shirt.. Haha.. I dunno why.. but see he lik quite upset over the shirt or wat.. And i very tempted.. so i brought him a shirt and pass to him with a card..
  
  He seems quite happy lor.. Esp when he readin the card, he seems to be beamin.. Haha..
  
  Last Sat i msg him wanna meet up on wed? Told him got surprise for him.. But refused to reveal to him.. T act is jus wanna let him use the car coz my dad's not using.. Then he msg me tat.. Don treat me so gd.. i will feel bad.. etc.. From there.. i have kinda of given up...
  
  On sun.. Thru msn.. He told me.. The 16yr old gal very sad.. i asked why.. Then he told me.. Coz i jus told her she is my sis to mi only..
  
  i kept quiet.. coz recently he mentioned b4 he mention tis... I forgot when... think is fri or sat.. He said that she now stands a very big chance.. we now very close... she also can feel tat now i lik her lor..
  
  Only advice him not to hurt people heart and play with people feelins...
  
  I very messy so.. He suddenly lik seems interested.. Or mayb is one sided on my part... Then he ways insisted she is his sis.. then sudddenly say she very high chance to be his gf.. sun come tell me she is sis.. MOn tell me she his gf!!!
  
  I super shock lor.. Coz martin's mum passed away.. i goin the wake todae - tues.. but i don dare go alone.. coz i scared i lost coz i dunno the way... Then he told me tat oh.. We both stead already.. so happpy..
  
  Haha.. i jus congra him... From there.. my heart is totally dead for him...
  
  Todae, we really turn up tog.. Mayb i am kinda mean.. Haha.. he gave a friendly pat on my shoulder n i shrink from him n i think is quite obvious! But i dun care.. I don want any contact with him.. haha.. Mean of me!
  
  Then he come my place to print somethin.. He lik very anxious to go lik tat.. but the comp very slow.. Haha.. i very cold towards him.. Jus keep cool n polite.. He says, why ur attitude lik tis? I said: Then, smile ah? And i give him a super fake smile..
  
  Didn really talk much... Haha.. Wat he want me behave? super nice to u???
  
  I m jus fed up with myself for being so silly.. Haha.. Mayb is only i feel tat wae.. But from the way he talk, behaves.. Here n there makes me tot he is interested back.. LIk mi.. Tat mayb we will patch up... Coz after all.. we been tog almost 4yrs...
  
  I m jus super hurt by his actions.. So misleadin... Mayb i read too much into his actions or wat i duno..
  
  
  
  
• zheshi

  20 Oct 04, 01:01

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• evodarren

  20 Oct 04, 12:02

  A sad thing about life is that when you met someone that means a lot to you but only to find out in the end it was never bound to be and you just have to let it go
• womanie

  20 Oct 04, 12:08

  *huggies*
  
  now that you have seen his true colours... don't let him waste your time further or hurt you even more... pick up courage and move on... this guy ain't worth you being heartbroken over him! you definitely deserve someone better than him...
  
  take care...
• shaunlaw

  20 Oct 04, 15:28

  Originally posted by ahkico:

  Haha.. Think i myself deserve all tis! Haha..
  
  Me and my ex broke up since Jan tis year... It was an amicable broke up to which we both agreed to...
  
  Thru out, we keep in contact as friends.. Occasionally goin out once or twice in few mths or sometimes chat online...
  
  rEcently... We went out more often... He asked me out to watch movie.. etc. Once to company him go repair his phone... We went out more frequently than b4... Suddenly.. it was lik my feelins for him were kinda of rekindle.. Mayb coz we go out tog bein the re.. But i sense it in him too... Or mayb i am wrong..
  
  During one of the times tat we were out... We were talkin bout relationships etc.. One piece here n there... But he mentioned somethin.. We discussin on who should each should consider.. Then he suddenly said.. Me lor! Consider me! Then he said.. I give u a very big hint liao hor.. I dunno wat to say lor! From there.. i jus kinda of assume?
  
  We became abit closer.. NoT so close.. but better than b4.. He is quite close to a gal, she is 16 yrs old.. He also seems interested in her.. Haha.. But most of the time, he insisted he treat her as a sis only...
  
  Tat time he mentioned.. Latern festival, she asked him out to play.. Then dunno how... They playin fireworks, she accidently burnt a hole in his fav shirt.. Haha.. I dunno why.. but see he lik quite upset over the shirt or wat.. And i very tempted.. so i brought him a shirt and pass to him with a card..
  
  He seems quite happy lor.. Esp when he readin the card, he seems to be beamin.. Haha..
  
  Last Sat i msg him wanna meet up on wed? Told him got surprise for him.. But refused to reveal to him.. T act is jus wanna let him use the car coz my dad's not using.. Then he msg me tat.. Don treat me so gd.. i will feel bad.. etc.. From there.. i have kinda of given up...
  
  On sun.. Thru msn.. He told me.. The 16yr old gal very sad.. i asked why.. Then he told me.. Coz i jus told her she is my sis to mi only..
  
  i kept quiet.. coz recently he mentioned b4 he mention tis... I forgot when... think is fri or sat.. He said that she now stands a very big chance.. we now very close... she also can feel tat now i lik her lor..
  
  Only advice him not to hurt people heart and play with people feelins...
  
  I very messy so.. He suddenly lik seems interested.. Or mayb is one sided on my part... Then he ways insisted she is his sis.. then sudddenly say she very high chance to be his gf.. sun come tell me she is sis.. MOn tell me she his gf!!!
  
  I super shock lor.. Coz martin's mum passed away.. i goin the wake todae - tues.. but i don dare go alone.. coz i scared i lost coz i dunno the way... Then he told me tat oh.. We both stead already.. so happpy..
  
  Haha.. i jus congra him... From there.. my heart is totally dead for him...
  
  Todae, we really turn up tog.. Mayb i am kinda mean.. Haha.. he gave a friendly pat on my shoulder n i shrink from him n i think is quite obvious! But i dun care.. I don want any contact with him.. haha.. Mean of me!
  
  Then he come my place to print somethin.. He lik very anxious to go lik tat.. but the comp very slow.. Haha.. i very cold towards him.. Jus keep cool n polite.. He says, why ur attitude lik tis? I said: Then, smile ah? And i give him a super fake smile..
  
  Didn really talk much... Haha.. Wat he want me behave? super nice to u???
  
  I m jus fed up with myself for being so silly.. Haha.. Mayb is only i feel tat wae.. But from the way he talk, behaves.. Here n there makes me tot he is interested back.. LIk mi.. Tat mayb we will patch up... Coz after all.. we been tog almost 4yrs...
  
  I m jus super hurt by his actions.. So misleadin... Mayb i read too much into his actions or wat i duno..
  
  
  
  

  Well, it happens when u love someone more than that someone loves u or when u love someone and that someone doenst even consider u.
  
  Personally, I have been thru such experiences a few times. I also feel the same as u do. Even though I have been thru it a few times and I know the hurt, now I am stil doing it! So I guess that makes me worse than u??
  
  
  Its kinda strange but thats me. Thats my character. I tend to do things quietly for the person I love and hope that she will take note of it. But often, it wasnt to be that way. Even when others start to notice it, the person involved just refused to reciprocrate it. So mayb i am unlucky in love??
  
  Or mayb its retribution for me that I hurt a girl when I was stil very very young??? Matters of the heart are hard to say. But I do hope that U will stand up fine and one day u will see that ur prince is rite there waiting for u.
• Match20

  20 Oct 04, 15:48

  i think when his guy mention the 16yr old gal being his sis...i think he juz tryin to make u feel good coz he still wan u to treat him nice...i mean not good for him to say that he also got feelin for the 16 yr gal and den he still expect u to be good to him...u get wat i mean..
  
  guys alway try to cheat ppl feeling coz they know once the truth is out...u might not be nice to him anymore..
  
• Devil1976

  20 Oct 04, 16:50

  Just get on with your life....
• the Bear

  20 Oct 04, 16:53

  i think of all the advice given, devil's is most concise and best...
  
  he's not sure of what the heck he wants... or he's playing with you... or he's just being a dick with his fingers in different pies...
  
  best thing to do?
  
  get on with your life
• gasband

  20 Oct 04, 16:58

  AHKICO,
  
  Nevermind....summon all your anger and sadness and confusion and then go driving., memorise all the routes and park the car 1000 times. That way, U will use your time more productively then think abt him lah hehehe
• ahkico

  20 Oct 04, 17:33

  Thanks guys for ur replies..
  
  Not goin to think or be bothered by him as much as i can.. gonna con on my exams!
  
  
• the Bear

  20 Oct 04, 17:34

  that is good to hear
  
  be well yah?
  
  

  Originally posted by ahkico:

  Thanks guys for ur replies..
  
  Not goin to think or be bothered by him as much as i can.. gonna con on my exams!
  
  

• faith_09

  20 Oct 04, 17:44

  From my previous lesson, i get to know that...
  
  Never go together with someone you like the most, go together with someone that like you more then you like him...
  
  You will be more happy and feel the happiness in the relationship.
• SunRisE

  21 Oct 04, 09:45

  Originally posted by ahkico:

  Thanks guys for ur replies..
  
  Not goin to think or be bothered by him as much as i can.. gonna con on my exams!
  
  

  -pat pat-
  
  You know what kind of person is he.. In a r/s.. time is not a matter.. doens't mean you went wif him for 4 yrs.. you know him absolutely from head to toe.. 4yrs.. long not say long.. short not say short.. it depends on how your 4yrs are when you both are together??? good or bad?? Are you happy??
  
  You may feel that you wasted your 4yrs with him.. then make sure you learn your lesson.. and never waste your 4 yrs again.. Woman don't have many many 4yrs.. You see through him.. thne move on.. He already move on.. and proudly tell you that "hey.. i'm moving on good with my new life with a new girl.. SO what about you?" You proved to him.. that without him.. you live even a better life!!
  
  Concentrate on what you supoose to do.. and move up and forward.. ahkico you are a brave girl.. Face the reality and don't dwell into this anymore!
  
  Cheers..
  
• ahkico

  21 Oct 04, 22:59

  Originally posted by SunRisE:

  -pat pat-
  
  You know what kind of person is he.. In a r/s.. time is not a matter.. doens't mean you went wif him for 4 yrs.. you know him absolutely from head to toe.. 4yrs.. long not say long.. short not say short.. it depends on how your 4yrs are when you both are together??? good or bad?? Are you happy??
  
  You may feel that you wasted your 4yrs with him.. then make sure you learn your lesson.. and never waste your 4 yrs again.. Woman don't have many many 4yrs.. You see through him.. thne move on.. He already move on.. and proudly tell you that "hey.. i'm moving on good with my new life with a new girl.. SO what about you?" You proved to him.. that without him.. you live even a better life!!
  
  Concentrate on what you supoose to do.. and move up and forward.. ahkico you are a brave girl.. Face the reality and don't dwell into this anymore!
  
  Cheers..
  

  Thank! Gettin over it is hard.. But then.. In life, we got to be stay happy! Haha.. Wat u say is rite.. Cheers!
• SunRisE

  22 Oct 04, 09:35

  Originally posted by ahkico:

  Thank! Gettin over it is hard.. But then.. In life, we got to be stay happy! Haha.. Wat u say is rite.. Cheers!

  Yup.. it's hard.. but then again..time will really heal.. it jus matter of how long it takes..
• neuros

  22 Oct 04, 09:53

  Originally posted by ahkico:

  Thank! Gettin over it is hard.. But then.. In life, we got to be stay happy! Haha.. Wat u say is rite.. Cheers!

  atta girl!
• ahkico

  26 Oct 04, 01:01

  Jus now i did the sillest thing ever..
  
  I went to buy a card for him.. And wrote a super lengthy letter.. Guess i got pretty emotional over all tis.. The letter is lik.. 5 pages long.. Both side all filled.. Haha..
  
  The letter consisting of my congra to the both of them.. wishin them bliss and happiness...
  
  Then.. Talkin bt the past.. The things tat i have never mentioned all.. My most inner tots.. TEachin him not to repeat all the mistakes tat we had done.. to learn from mistakes and not to repeat them.. Then the present.. Of wat he did.. Or whether it is all of my one sidedness..
  
  Hopin to hear from him.. See wat he got to say..
  
  To let him know all tat i have think.. And tat i understand is all over btw us.. N tat nothin is possible..
  
  I go buy two cards.. the id card with words love is sharing for the both of them..
  
  I brought tis bk for him earlier on.. B4 i receive the msg from him.. sayin not to treat him so gd, etc.. the more i think of the bk.. the more i don want to keep it..
  
  I sms him jus now.. Bt 1030 pm.. askin if he willin to come down.. i want pass him a letter and the bk..
  
  He says don want... etc.. I says nev mind.. Haha.. Eh.. think i am not in the rite state of mind.. I will jus send to u the letter.
  
  Then he was lik.. U ok??? Ha.. tat guy tot i m goin to commit suicide lik tat.. Or mayb i seldom show out tis super emotional side of mi.. Callin him come down so late in the nite to get a letter only.. Is not wat i ever done b4.. But he stayin quite near me.. Same town area anywae..
  
  Then he msg mi thanks.. don treat me so gd, etc. wait my gf not happy..
  
  Haha.. the words pierce my heart lor.. Of coz i know.. I jus wanna send out this letter.. Coz i want clear wat ever misunderstandin tat we have in our relationship.. things tat he didn know and should know.. And tat.. by gettin them the id card.. Is to show him.. I really got over him.. Unlik tat period.. whereby i treated him very gd..
  
  I admitted to him some stuff.. Haha.. Tat i really wish i could hate him.. Tat for X'mas.. I jus wish to send a card with: To: M.R. Msg: Merry X'mas. From: ahkico.. Tat's all.. cold and short..
  
  but i realise tat i couldn do it.. As much as i didn want have any contact with him anymore.. i went to buy tis card for him.. so much for tryin break contact! I admit i be cold still when i see him anywhere.. How else u want mi behave? smile? Haha.. i can't do it..
  
  I only say to him.. To email mi if u ever need help or a listenin ear.. Haha..
  
  But the letter alot of things abt the past.. Personal thingy btw the both of us.. I dunno if it is appropriate to send it out to him???
  
  I want faster get over with tis.. coz i dun want to delay it. i know the further i delay.. the more i don dare to pass him the letter.. I dunno lor.. Esp his my gf will not be happy.. It jus pierce me so much tat i couldn bear passin him the letter..
  
  He says he got exam wed.. I so have exams, but on fri.. Haiz.. I duno i want pass it to him personally with the bk or should i jus send to him the card n letter by post? Or even better.. Don give it to him at all..
• the Bear

  26 Oct 04, 01:07

  do you actually have to give him the letter?
  
  i found out from bitter experience, that some things are best left unsaid when things have come to an end..
  
  be well yah?
• ahkico

  26 Oct 04, 01:14

  Originally posted by the Bear:

  do you actually have to give him the letter?
  
  i found out from bitter experience, that some things are best left unsaid when things have come to an end..
  
  be well yah?

  Thanks bear.. Haha.. Tat's why i considerin to give him or not.. Esp after the stupid msg.. he noes i goin pass him a letter..
• xiao_p

  26 Oct 04, 01:30

  hope u pass thru tiz quick n alls well
• the Bear

  26 Oct 04, 01:39

  could just write in another letter: i wish you both all the happiness in the world and more
  
  
  
  

  Originally posted by ahkico:

  Thanks bear.. Haha.. Tat's why i considerin to give him or not.. Esp after the stupid msg.. he noes i goin pass him a letter..

• stormax

  26 Oct 04, 02:26

  Originally posted by ahkico:

  Thanks bear.. Haha.. Tat's why i considerin to give him or not.. Esp after the stupid msg.. he noes i goin pass him a letter..

  Just let go!
• ahkico

  26 Oct 04, 21:54

  
  
  I feel much better after writin e letter.. I think i will pass him the letter bah.. Haha.. i wait till our exams over first.. Wait he don do well, come blame say is my fault..
  
  I dun want see him if possible.. So will be sendin him the letter by post instead..
  
  Hehee.. I m well n over! Haha.. Think i too happy go lucky.. Dun lik people round mi to be sad.. So i so cannot be sad! Haha..
  
  i jus hop he won give mi the crap sayin he don understand.. Jus hop to get an ans from him for his past behaviour..
  
  After writin so much.. I suddenly feel tat.. He isn tat worth! I finally realise tat i am indeed happier after the whole thing has ended.. J us tat.. Hmm.. Still got soft spot for him..
• the Bear

  26 Oct 04, 21:56

  have you really let go?
  
  i hope so.. and that letter would not "place burdens" on him like someone accused me of doing once..
  
  be well
• Magnus

  26 Oct 04, 22:37

  What's the intention of the letter?
  What's there to clarify?
  
  Unless, deep in your heart, by sending the letter, it carries a hope.