This good good GAL and its just ME
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the most dramatic event has happened!!
As all of you know that this good good gal works in the Boon Lay on every Thu and her female friend who i know also works there..
Today we just exchanged sms in the morning.. and in the afternoon she called me.. we chat a bit and we make an appointment on sat..
at night.. she sms me saying where am i .. and i told her i cant meet her coz got appt with customer..... then after that.. suprisingly.. i stop at Boon lay by chance and eat dinner there with my sis they all.. then after i ate.. i went up to find the female friend.. and i saw the good good gal..
we just chat abit.. and i asked her why she didnt find me.. she said she thought i work late.. then after a while a guy walks into the shop.. this good good gal was expecting him already... the thing was that the guy wasn't happy and we shook hands.. this good good gal never intro his name..
for a moment i mistook him as her bf ..
i just became quiet and the situation is tense.. after a while i left the place... my heart shatters... before leaving.. i bid them goodbye and the guy too..
after i came home... she sms me saying that lucky i didnt follow them to eat coz they are on the way back now.. -
What sleepycat said is right...Maybe nightyoung should really learn from it...But don't u feel tired sometimes...After doing so many things for her and not getting anything in return...It is rather disheartening and sad if this ever happen..Sometimes i feel so tired doing things for people and not getting anything in return..Don't u feel that way too??
After doing so many things for her and she doesn't react the way u want her to be...Doesn't these makes u tired of doing things for her..No matter how much u love somebody..U will expect something back in return..But i don't think u are getting anything back but just more heartache.. -
yes.. i feel tired. very tired.. but i just dunknow what energy lead me to this..
juts now she sms me that she had bad encounter on the train.. about the man.. who was drunk.. then i get worried and called her.. we talked about 7 min plus then.. her line cut off.. i knew her handphone no batt.. but i just cant take the chance.. i called her about 20 times on her mobile.. its diverted to her mailbox.. cal her house 3 times engaged...
then i cant take it anymore.. i rush down to her house to see her.. bought a piece of sweet for her too.. when i reached her house/.. she was chatting over the telephone and she told me that her handphone battery is dead,, and i pass her the sweet saying that i owe her the last time..
she got a shocked.. coz she thought i was asleep.....
thinking back its quite foolish of me... but i just did it... -
Originally posted by sleepycat:
Dun tell me you going to do something to us that night.. pls don't i beg..
Though I'm a gal, I still want to say that nightyoung's love interest is responsible for causing him such confusion too. If she has discovered that he's the first one to deliver 2 chicken wings to her doorstep, she'd have no problem feeling flattered how overpowering she is to him and how amazingly interesting that he's still at her beck and call though she's committed to another guy now.
I had a long disussion with our pal here and he knows what and why I say the above and more. Those who're sharp and weathered would agree with me that it's hard to tango alone.
The biggest problem is nightyoung can't think clearly or sensibly and he always fail to see beyond his feelings for her. Perhaps, he has even failed to see the 'real' person in her. Yet, she's certainly & doubtlessly happy to have nightyoung making her happy & satisfying her demands while she makes yet another guy (her bf) happy.
I'd love to read that one day, her conscience & [b]real feelings get the better of her and she takes a 2nd look at our pal here.
anyway hi again, everyone and thanks wes brown for attempting to show nightyoung that there're other (perhaps, better) gals alive.
However, blinded eyes can't see. [/b] -
there is nothing sleepycat can do...its all up to u...
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today she sms me out of the blue and asked me for supper.. and i agreed.. i was late coz i had to rush down from office.
we met and we went to her mum's stall and have supper..
and we chat.. it was raining.. and we swopped 3 places over the night.. and we talked.. and her bf called again.. and i keep reminding myself.. we just friends.. she asked me where do i want to go on 31st dec.. so i said.. the same things we did last year.. maybe that day.. i will tell her i willl walk away from her and i had to do the 2 more things first
while out there.. as its raiining.. she suggested to take cab and i agreed..
she feel so cold out there.. and i wanted to hug her but i just under control.. just stand next to her..
we hailed a cab and we got home.. yes.. i am gonna meet her tomorrow again.. after work.. sorry all guys.. and esp. Sleepycat who talked to me before.. i just cant do it.. i have ask her did her bf knows about it and stuffs.. i wait till 31st dec,,
Dodobirdle.. sorry i didn't followed your advice.. yes.. i almost wanted to hug her but i just cant when i know she got a bf.. i do her wrong.. cant.. -
Met her today.. i was late for the appt.. and i rush down to meet her.. she's angry with me and i apologized to her... she said she already angy today.. and i made her more angry today..
and she told me that she gonna meet her friend at 10 pm .. and if i go there.. she wont stay long.. so i said i come and i know who's her friend of coz..
then we went shopping.. and shop.. and we passed by a neo print shop.. and we take the pictures together... it was my first neo print in my life.. and its her somemore.. we got a few shots and i played along,, stood half and appears to be shorter than her.. and she chose that pic... and we went to laminate the pic.. she got her shelf one and i got herself one..
The reason i not standing close to her on th neon print and played to be shorter in the neon print.. so that if he sees it.. she wont get into trouble..
after that she became hungry ...and we went to eat sakae sushi..
we sat there and talk for a long time.. but after the dinner.. she not feeling well .. and went to the toilet.. after that i accompanied her back...
she's in pain and i can't do anything to help.. i feel so useless..
all i can do is carry her bag and ask how's she..
I sent her back home and she suggested that we watch VCD in her house.. so she wants me to go home and lend her the VCD i have.. as i have many VCDs and i don't see them all.. so many.. haha..
After that i passed the VCD to her and left the house as its quite late.. and she wanted rest..
she asked me out again tomorrow for lunch... and i agreed..
Nowadays .. dun know why.. its like during the weekend.. we sure meet up..
and ,.... i still got 2 things to do for her....
31st dec is the day ... i asked her out and .. i want to make it like.. how it happened.. how it will end type.... if i can let go... -
by right.. we wanted to go out today.. but our plans changed coz i have to accompany my parents out..
and i bought her the lunch and went o her house,, we didnt talk much coz she's busy doing the housework..therefroe ic hatted with her mum..
all sorts of general topics.. haha
then after that i tell her to rest well today and i went off..
came to realized her bf not PR through her mum's conversation..
no wonder he's always not here..... maybe work permit..
but... i had give up totally.. i told myself,.,, and i trying to let go of this..
soon i will......
but i still cared about her.. -
now do you realise the real reason she is hanging out with you?Originally posted by nightyoung:came to realized her bf not PR through her mum's conversation..
no wonder he's always not here..... maybe work permit.. -
what??Originally posted by v gal:now do you realise the real reason she is hanging out with you?
We somehow like close friends.. she treated me as a close friend of hers...
but i... -
if her bf can be with her by her side always... u will be a surplus to her... right now, she juz need someone to care for her... u get it now? Hope u can "wake up" soon...Originally posted by nightyoung:what??
We somehow like close friends.. she treated me as a close friend of hers...
but i...
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To put in a crude way, she maybe treating u as a spare tyre...She will only look for u when her bf doesn't have the time to keep her company...I don't know what type of person she is...So I don't want to comment much abt it...But do u feel that way??Does she only look for u when she need somebody??Originally posted by nightyoung:what??
We somehow like close friends.. she treated me as a close friend of hers...
but i... -
we didnt talk to each other for two days.. and just sms..
i initiated the sms yesterday.. and today.. she did in the afternoon
and i at night... haha
expected.. we just dun talk/meet during the first 3 days of the week.
its only from thu onwards.. then meet on sat and sun...
a cycle???
Haha hmm..... dun know.. hope to get out of this -
most of the time.. she look for me .. ya.. sometimes her friends...Originally posted by *Lord Kang*:To put in a crude way, she maybe treating u as a spare tyre...She will only look for u when her bf doesn't have the time to keep her company...I don't know what type of person she is...So I don't want to comment much abt it...But do u feel that way??Does she only look for u when she need somebody??
but we drew the line already.. now she dun sleep on my shoulders in train.. the last few times round.. and i never hug/kiss her anymore..
the last one was she scared in the movie.. that's all -
Since u know that u two have already draw the line..Shouldn't u be less bother abt how u feel abt her??Now both of u are the best of friends, then there shouldn't be anymore wishful thinking on ur part...Originally posted by nightyoung:most of the time.. she look for me .. ya.. sometimes her friends...
but we drew the line already.. now she dun sleep on my shoulders in train.. the last few times round.. and i never hug/kiss her anymore..
the last one was she scared in the movie.. that's all -
think someone is still clinging on to a very dangerous thing... *HOPE*...
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i am trying to let go...Originally posted by stupidjoe:think someone is still clinging on to a very dangerous thing... *HOPE*... 
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Hi young man,
This is my first posting although I have been following you diary for a few months already.
I somehow feel that you have missed out (subconciously I hope) talking about her the-other-half ----- boyfriend.
Pardon me for asking some direct questions, which I believe will help you have a better grasp of the situation.
-Who is he
-What does he do
-What is his nationality
-What is his attraction
-Why is he more attractive than you are to her
-Does she love him
-If not, why is she still with him
-If yes, why is she hanging out with you
-What is his hold over her
-Does she owe him something
I suspect that she is beholden to him. He must have something over her that makes / force her to stay in the current situation / arrangement. Perhaps you can come into the picture and play a role. Can you help her? (I am not taliking about fixing some lousy player here...) But what is it? Go find out!
At the same time, I am sure you should be aware of the fact that they are farking each other a few night a week. Can you accept it? Can you take it? Is it an issue? Imagine you are drowning your sorrows at home one night, while she is being sent to seventh heaven by her boyfriend in her room, on her bed. Painful? Cruel? But you have to face it. Ask yourself again, can you take it?
Dont be angry with me for asking such questions. I think if you can at least think about the above questions, you may be able to come to some decision whether if you should stay or go.
I know how you feel, friend. Good luck. It is going to be very painful. -
just call her today in the afternoon... just a few sentence with her to see whether she's ok.. as she went clubbing yesterday..
then at night she gave me a call.. said that she bought lots of things so called me to help her as she thought i was nearby.. but she found out that i was home so its ok... then aftera while.. i think that she will be bored in the train.. so i called her and chat for about 6 min..
sighed... why am i still caring about her?? -
why dun u just BED HER?
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so the time has come ... and i am left with less and less time...
should i walk her away.. on 31st dec
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the path i am going through now is the same like u young night buddy......can know how u feel now.....same feeble and helpless like u...but there is nothing we can do.....even if its to be like that all the way until whole head of hair turn white as we aged.....
even till she married and attend her wedding....have her 1st child.....i dunno but i just hope the pain and though just dun come back....i started back all the favor past time i crazy over long long time ago....although i dun enjoy it 100% like i used to but at least it helps to keep me goin....although dreams tat give me hope i dreamt at night give me alot of encouragement say that i may still have a chance just be more confident but i still lock my heart in the dark cold place....being nice to her is being cruel to myself...its unfair even don i dun mind......as the days passes by....she look more and more perfect in my eyes no matter how she change herself...i just felt so hopeless sometimes.... -
It is about time to end it anyway...Just end it once and for all...No point holding onto something that will never bear fruits...End it with sweet memories and no regrets..Thats all i can tell u...Originally posted by nightyoung:so the time has come ... and i am left with less and less time...
should i walk her away.. on 31st dec
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are you kidding??Originally posted by doomvell13:why dun u just BED HER?
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hmm.. didnt see her for 6 days.. i miss her alot.....
just sms and sms today...