Chapter 11
I was early.
In fact, every upcoming meeting with Snowy, I will be early. She probably never realized this, but when you fell so deep in love with someone, your burning desire to see this special one just flow naturally. So natural to love is like to breathing – nothing can obstruct the heart from overwhelming emotions… absolutely nothing.
I was concerned.
So overly concerned that I want to see the same smile appearing once again - like sunshine after the rain. Love transcended all possession; being with her now rank second priority, but to ensure her well being became so important, nothing else matters as long as I know she is alright.
I could see a shadowy figure emerged from the gloomy night; it was Snowy. She was early as well, just that I was slightly earlier. Then, I begin to conclude that troubled souls will never be late for appointment, probably because of the desire for some quiet space, time and serenity. Being early gives you the edge to think over your words, conversation, thoughts and feelings.
The sky rumbled in protest and gradually cast a red netting of clouds over heaven.
Snowy cried again; I could see it in her eyes. Tears gathered and swelled up. This time, she took no precaution to mask her depression. I felt a wounded soul with abundance of grievance, upsetting her life. Something is definitely wrong.
I stood where I was standing and she, frozen in her steps. We were physically about ten feet apart, but emotionally, millions of miles in distance.
I initiated a first step forward.
‘Stop where you are…’
I paused, still maintaining my eye contact.
I saw her crumbling emotions crying out for assistance. The pain within her heart still lay red with sore. Someone had to nurse her wounds and I prayed that I would be the candidate. I can feel SnowyÂ’s desire to reach out to me, but SOMETHING, so powerfulÂ… so sinisterÂ… held her back, like an unbreakable mithril chain.
‘Cloud… you love me?’
There are times when words were not spoken, because the meaning becomes more powerful in silence. I always thought of what I can do for Snowy, not so much about how much I could gain from a relationship with her. If this is stupidity, Love has created me the most insane person ever.
‘Cloud… you… are too good…’
Good? Take advantage of me then. If taking advantage could make her share this burden of hers with me, I seriously donÂ’t mind the exchange - To take away hurt and replace with hope and love.
Snowy broke down completely. Apparently, my words seemed to soften her hardened interior.
I felt droplets of rain falling on my shoulders, hands and head. Flashes of lightning lit the flaming sky.
‘I will not leave within if the rain comes. I will stand strong here; nobody has the power to remove me away,’ I replied, stuffing my hands into my pants pockets as I closed my eyes, waiting for the menacing rain to begin its operation.
(To be continued...)