Don't worry, this is not a thread for Mods.Originally posted by thingy:looks like a threads for mods
i get that bottled feeling often.. it's like i have so many thoughts i can go through, but when i decide to pen it out or type it in notepad, most of the stuf just won't come out.
i don't really trust online blogs for very personal stuff... so i type in notepad and save it in a hidden folder. when i'm feeling down, i look back and it reminds me why i'm feeling like that.. i don't think i'll be able to accept that fact in this life..
i feel like ending it, but i don't dare to. i'm afraid of change... and i feel disgusted for myself because of the reason. i shouldn't have started this all. now i regret, trapped in a one-way ticket to hell..
FYI...I'm not modOriginally posted by thingy:looks like a threads for mods
i get that bottled feeling often.. it's like i have so many thoughts i can go through, but when i decide to pen it out or type it in notepad, most of the stuf just won't come out.
i don't really trust online blogs for very personal stuff... so i type in notepad and save it in a hidden folder. when i'm feeling down, i look back and it reminds me why i'm feeling like that.. i don't think i'll be able to accept that fact in this life..
i feel like ending it, but i don't dare to. i'm afraid of change... and i feel disgusted for myself because of the reason. i shouldn't have started this all. now i regret, trapped in a one-way ticket to hell..
Totally agree!Originally posted by M©+square:Don't worry, this is not a thread for Mods.
We all feel trapped at one point of time or another in life.
Only a person who thinks deeper gets comfort or solutions out of these sense of 'helplessness'.
We are all responsible for our decisions and actions, hence we have to find ways to go through it with minimal damage.
It's is a difficult process, that is why we should thread on our lives carefully, but yet not too cautiously for we might miss certain valuable lessons in life.
It is full of probabilities, and life is wonderful because of uncertainties.
Cheers
It is important to appreciate pains and difficult lessons.Originally posted by laosu:Totally agree!
It takes me many lessons and pains to be where I am now and I'm still taking lessons and I still feel the pain but that's very normal cause I'm a human being. If this world is really so beautiful, then we might all have died and went up to heaven.
I used to be a pessimistic person and maybe I still am but times and times again miracles appear before be just when I'm about to give up and when I thought things are changing for the better, another problem came about and dealt me with another blow...then another miracle comes along...blah blah blah...Originally posted by M©+square:It is important to appreciate pains and difficult lessons.
The world is colourful and beautiful because we change all the time.
When we learn to adapt to the changes, we will love our lives and our condition we're in.![]()
Congrats! You've persisted long enough to realise life is worth Living!Originally posted by laosu:I used to be a pessimistic person and maybe I still am but times and times again miracles appear before be just when I'm about to give up and when I thought things are changing for the better, another problem came about and dealt me with another blow...then another miracle comes along...blah blah blah...
Sometimes I do feel tired and don't understand but sometimes I just think that god is there to help me become stronger and often or so the miracles seemed to be like a reward to me in some sense.
Take for instance my gf. I always thought that I'll be bound to a retribution fate for hurting my first gf cause a few other r/s after that always ends up ugly and I'm always the one hurt. I never thought that I'll survive that long but all these nine years, I see these failed r/s as a lesson to me and I constantly try to learn from it until my last r/s with my ex, I really thought it's hopeless and I'm bound to the retribution for life. Then I met my gf. She's like a gift to me from god and she's really a very wonderful gf. I'll lay down my life for her and even if fates determines that we aren't fated to be together in the end, I'll never forget the things she had done for me and walking with me through my darkest hours.
At least I try to see things from another angle now. Sometimes things happens for a cause and it might not be bad afterall if you can survive long enough to realised it.
Too early to congrat me pal...but thanksOriginally posted by M©+square:Congrats! You've persisted long enough to realise life is worth Living!
Glad for you.
Share it as and when you feel like it.Originally posted by laosu:Too early to congrat me pal...but thanks
At least at this moment now I'm glad that I'm still alive.
But then again human's greatest weakness are still their own emotions.
I'm more than willing to share my ugly past if it'll help people who are facing similar problems as I did before.
I'm constantly still learning...to be stronger and to stay as strong but afterall...I'm still a human
Hahaha...I hardly get to see daylight if I go on being so awake at this kind of hour now.Originally posted by M©+square:Share it as and when you feel like it.
Yes we are all humans afterall.
No matter how people reacted to a situation(cases in AA). We do not have the right to give names and condemn them, afterall, we have our own weaknesses as well.
Let those people learn as we do what we can to guide them along, if possible.
It's great to see daylight every morning.
Cheers
I'm not implying at your comments.Originally posted by laosu:Hahaha...I hardly get to see daylight if I go on being so awake at this kind of hour now.
I know in some cases I do sound harsh in my comments but I really mean no harm. Liked I say before that we have no rights to judge if a person is good or bad when we ourselves have our own weakness and faults.
Often we are able to see the thing other people did but never our own doings. The only time we can see our ownself is when we stand in front of the mirror and even that is just an image but not real. I hope you understand what I mean. The person you see in the mirror, when you try to touch it, it's not us that we touch but the mirror and the person we saw in the mirror is just an image and not real.
Hahaha...is ok..sometimes I got weird ideas about life and the things I see in life.Originally posted by M©+square:I'm not implying at your comments.
Just stating a somewhat ugly response we have towards some threads.
I somehow get what you mean, but i down see the full picture.Sorry
Nitey!Originally posted by laosu:Hahaha...is ok..sometimes I got weird ideas about life and the things I see in life.
No no..I'm not saying that you are implying at my comments but I know myself very clearly the things I've said.
Ok ok..time for bed...dun think I can stay awake till the sun rises. Gf will kill me for sleeping so late everynight!
Nite MC.
Originally posted by Devil1976:Yeah.. Often for you, the many thoughts just confuse and irritates you...![]()
hahahah.....///Originally posted by alexkusu:DEVIL IS GAY!!!!!!!!!!!
phew...enuf of bottlin it in
tat mean u dun wanna ur lover company wif u when u keep quiet? or u wanna keep u problem/unhappy things in ur mine, dont wanna share wif ur lover?Originally posted by Devil1976:Nay... It can be normal for some people... I used to be quite a solitary guy too... ALWAYS NEED TIME by myself...
Sometimes, it's just not about sharing. Some stuffs are simply just too hard to share especially when you know it'll effect your partner too when they learn of it.Originally posted by Missing:tat mean u dun wanna ur lover company wif u when u keep quiet? or u wanna keep u problem/unhappy things in ur mine, dont wanna share wif ur lover?![]()
Originally posted by Missing:tat mean u dun wanna ur lover company wif u when u keep quiet? or u wanna keep u problem/unhappy things in ur mine, dont wanna share wif ur lover?![]()
Depends...Originally posted by Missing:tat mean u dun wanna ur lover company wif u when u keep quiet? or u wanna keep u problem/unhappy things in ur mine, dont wanna share wif ur lover?![]()
I see... Sounds like me in the past...?Originally posted by M©+square:I love solitudes, but people see it as reserved and problematic.
Hurmmm.
Actually i'm fine with it, i've lost many friends because they do not understand me. And because i didn't bother to explain myself, i lost them. :: They are my friends, if they don't understand and accept the way i work, then they're not my friends.
Hurmm
Originally posted by thingy:Actually there's this pen pal of mine who's somehow experiencing quite the same or sort?
looks like a threads for mods![]()
NAY...
i get that bottled feeling often.. it's like i have so many thoughts i can go through, but when i decide to pen it out or type it in notepad, most of the stuf just won't come out.
i don't really trust online blogs for very personal stuff... so i type in notepad and save it in a hidden folder. when i'm feeling down, i look back and it reminds me why i'm feeling like that.. i don't think i'll be able to accept that fact in this life..
i feel like ending it, but i don't dare to. i'm afraid of change... and i feel disgusted for myself because of the reason. i shouldn't have started this all. now i regret, trapped in a one-way ticket to hell..