im a girl that cant take the pain any longer...im in control.just dont want to be in pain anymore.
what do you mean did i calculate the cost??? this may just be cause im blonde,and tired,and i cant think properly,but,the cost of what??
im just so sik of not knowing how to approach the sunject,if i should at all.
i cant decide whether to or not....so i post here for suggestions! everyone has been great help.....im sorry,everythings just getting to me....i'll be in sg in bout 3 weeks,and i'll HAVE to talk to him about it.....im just scared.......im not even really sure of what i want anymore.

i cant keep my mind on dealing with the government here to arrange my travels even,,,,my mind is constantly on him...its draining me
