for those who know me personally only
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I not malay, no eurasiuan, no mixed blood, no ahmoh, no black man. Im a chinese singapore educated born chinese, but a bit deviated in my mind.
Words at it best, powerful, supercharged usage.
IÂ’m not racist, im patriotic.
IÂ’m a good citizen I donÂ’t litter, I donÂ’t chew gum, I donÂ’t smoke.
1) I study in poly b4 so I just use in my observations.
Firstly, the tpoly lecturers in tpoly are lechers, they are no match for the poly girls mesmerising look and sex appeal some of them very chio as you all know. Maybe the girls remind them of their wife at home or whatever. If you observe the lecturers closely, they fking have that longing and yearning look on their face. But they donÂ’t show directly of course, they still want face, doint want their reputation tarnished.
Resulting in their bias treatment towards the students, they treat girls nicer and more attention towards them. Fking true. I can proved, go poly with me, IÂ’ll show you.
Beautiful, sexy, nice looking, peasant, sweet, charming, girls got more attention.. do you dare to reject a beautiful girls.. fking no right?
A beautiful girl ask you to help her, u fking cannot reject rightÂ… fking easy to understand right?
Ugly, simple girls, u fking dedicate ur hate to them. Fking laugh at them, fking mock about their look. U fking burn ueself to hell.
Fking observation n assumption made by meÂ….
Do not deny, sincerely face it and ask urself I fking not a liar.
1) dirty old man got abit of money visit geylang whores for sex relief.
Geyland whores cheap, easy available a range of choice.
Student, daring student, first timer, no much money, wanted to try to satisfy crave for sex visit geyland too.
Similarity: both of the above got no reputation to tarnish.
Fking understand man.
2)very rich people like CEO, chief manager, director of big enterprise, old white matsalleh, ahmoh businessman posted working here, very lonely, no wife around or no wife , a lot of fking money, no place to spend, they fking hired personal escort to help them chase away the loneliness. Fking go for high class pro or famous model, tv celebrities u seen on tv, advertise on tv to let them excite one night or simply to escort them around. The fking high class pro ver professional, very discreet, no leakage at all. Fking very safe.. got reputation also cannot tarnished. But fking expensive. Poor guy on the street cannot afford lahÂ…fking wanted to enjoy real life, fking screwed godÂ’s creations, beautiful girls, god must hae spend a lot of time with you
Fking understand man.
4)poly lectuters cannot afford high class or simply donÂ’t want to spend so much money on the 2) girls, high class veri expensive one. They left with no choice but to surf pornographic on the web. Fking consider they geyland whore to be dirty and unsafe this is fking offensive, but fking so what!
Fking bespectacle man, fking expose ur fking life, fking sinner.
From some of them I had came across, they fking show the porno faceÂ…pockmarked on the face, dimpled face, pleasure forehead, lusty eyes wwhen lookin at poly girls..bespectacles, lack of sporting life, exercise, sun exposure to tan the skin, fking look like a greyish person.
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They are fking technologist people, it savy, people, they always talk about how wonderful it is for a java script, java applet, java visual application, jav webchat to work.
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Also Fking cannot resist the urge to surf pornographic website, masturbate aloneÂ…..
Not every lecturers but some of them, mostly no wife, still bachelor, very obvious from their face I can tell..got wife one of course do not dare.
2) poly girls do part time prostitution to earn extra cash for sheshido, loÂ’real, expensive cosmetic, brand designer clothes, this is true, one of my poly consultant guidances lecturer can verify that. Why? To earn enough money earn more money To have beautiful skin, go for expensive cosmetic treatment u see advertisement all around, fking blinding ur eyes, fking lying to u, u fking fall for it. U fking dumb.. I fking laugh at you. U fking respect this kind of beautified girls? Fking no way man for me to respect not even their shit. externally very nice,very tempting, even studied a lot smart brilliant lecturers can fall for it, fall for their mesmerising look, all formulas to them just fking donÂ’t hold anymore in their so years of studying. The girls fking open their legs, lecturer cannot fking stand anymore, fking give in to everything, their primal instincts, urges. They fking sinner, fking imperfect, fking disgraceful, fking no saint.
Fking lecturers are human too, they fking made mistakes so is teachers and ministers.
Girls very beautiful but are their soul beautiful?
Beautiful, sexy, nice looking, peasant, sweet, charming, girls got more attention.. do you dare to reject a beautiful girls.. fking no right? Fking sweet beautiful, inviting, sxy, charming outstanding voluptous, shapely, curvy girls, u fking must look at her, u fking cannot reject her also. This is fking truth. Even if u fking have to reject her, its fking hard to say it in her face .
A beautiful girl ask you to help her, u fking cannot reject rightÂ… fking easy to understand right?
Ugly, simple girls, u fking dedicate ur hate to them. Simply Fking laugh at them, fking mock about their look. Fking think ur better than her or him.Ugly, fat, eye sore girls fking easy to reject, fking easy to insult her here and there and everywhere. -
got a lot of time lately, and nothing to do...
i don't have alot of education, so please bear with my english, grammer, spelling, tenses ok?
i can't be compared to the news-editor, english teachers of course... so just bear with me..
if u feel insulted pls leave... just like when ur sick, take a pain-killer or see a doctor. -
Fking wake up, listen to britney spear, f4, A1 or whatever teeny shit wont tell u all this rotten detail about life and humanity.
When I was 15 years old
Got a fking secondary school teacher 12 fking years older
Fking bad temper, fking howl and shout at u like hell
Fking blame the government for not taking care of university math graduates.
Fking gotta be a school teacher n stuck in a neighbourhood school with no choice.
Fking always praise himself as a brilliant man.
Fking tired listen to his mindless ranting.
Fking always told us that if he wanted to get rich, he fking listen to his mother and become an engineer or a doctor and not a teacher.
Fking donÂ’t think he got any choice anyway.
Fking always praise himself as a brilliant man.
Fking tired listen to his mindless ranting.
Fking boast to us that he dare to cut his wrist, if he could not catch a bus, he fking walk all the way home.
Fking tired listening to that.
Always fking said a reputation is very important to a man.
Fking always said how many of you can become fann wong, stop think of playing soccer , u fking malay, fking wake up, fking how many of u can become fandi.
We always gotta listen to his fking verbal abuse.
Fking run here and run there, like a fking hyperactive kid.
Fking got problem in his mind.
Fking bad temper, fking howl and shout at u like hell.
When we fking pissing, his fking voice reverberated all around the toilet wall fking jamming our piss with his howling.
HOD math department interferred, fking young math teacher, fking young, fking quick temper, gotta appeased him students, gotta make him feel good student, fking complain about us. Fking gotta need a pacifier, fking Mister bad temper.
I Fking cannot stated his name, gotta fking protect his reputation, fking protect the minority, fking 37s years old chap still cannot control his temper well. Fking get himself. in trouble.
One good character of himÂ…
He fking polite, gotta greet every teacher he met, fking a humble apprentice in front of his mentor. Fking greet every dog he met also.
Fking human are imperfect.
Fking polite man n a fking proud shit which I donÂ’t mind trampling onÂ…Â…
If u fking rule the sky, u shouldnÂ’t be mocking at other less fortunate ppl
Cos ur fortunate enough not to scrapped the bottom.
--- do u remember humanities u studied in geographic, u learn something like hierachy, meaning human ranking---- u need the bottom of the hierachy and the top , middle, of the hierachy to coordinate in order for the whole system to work. e.g for a company to work. top==boss, middle== supervisor or leader, low==apprentices or (henchmen for the secret society.)
so even ur company's ah soh floor-cleaner, despatch man, delievry man very important also for ur cmpany to progress. -
~Sigh...~ I'm not a moderator lah... At least not in this forum.... Everybody can a MODERATOR (naturally...) in their own created forum....Originally posted by StQwerty:sorry man, u have made a mistake, i fking wanna correct you.i'm not rude. i'm not talking to a devil or god messager, i' talking to the moderator himself, moderator in disguise! what luck! nice to meet you, nice job there trying to juggle work study and 'modeling.. oops sorry moderating' at the same time.
u fking accumulateed 5000 post exactly, how wonderful! nice picture u got, never seen before one! nice job as the moderator, u got authority huh!
how many involved huh? september conspirator hanged for burning the history booK!
And nope... I'm not a student too... I'm already 110 years old... I WISH man..... ~Sigh....~
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ALOT of time you can't expect to change someone... Reason's simply because you're not that someone... But you DO have a CHOICE over what you wanna be... Gonna do... I never say it's gonna be easy.... I just said you have a CHOICE.... Many things ain't easy in Life.... People still made it....Originally posted by StQwerty:but i'm not like him leh. sian... gotta need a change... "all change"(oil change for motorist, those rich enough to own car)
not change outlook to become tasty, inviting, friendly, classy, style..etc
but change father... is it feasible?
gotta seek channel 5 mediacorp to help me fulfill my ideal family dream...
I couldnÂ’t start a family myself with me as the father lah, why?
DonÂ’t believe I can do it at all. why?
I cast my father shadow lah, thatÂ’s why!
If you think that someone've strayed you can TRY to change him/her.... But remember, it's never a 'MUST'.... Changing someone can have great consequences... Even if it's out of good will....
I RESPECT your choice for confining to your own thread... But urging people to die? If you think that someone've got you wrongfully psychologically brainwashed, then think about what you might be doing to the others...?
Things may have gone VERY WRONG for you in the past... You WISH that you could have made a DIFFERENCE but you may have little choice back then.... But the WORSE is when you've FINALLY got ALL your CHOICE and CONTROL.... You STILL make the MISTAKES when you have LOTS of CHOICES over what you wanna do....
Don't always curse and swear at people... Not everybody OWE you.... SOME people might OWE you ALOT.... But COMPARED to what you've robbed and deprived of yourself.....?
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lost sould in a world of complications...hhhmmm...
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what StQwerty has lamented here...actually just reflects what this world is all about, to a certain extent anyway...
this world is screwed up haiz -
Depends on how you wanna see it....? ANYTHING can be EVIL if you're DETERMINED to spot that 'dust'.....Originally posted by jeramy:what StQwerty has lamented here...actually just reflects what this world is all about, to a certain extent anyway...
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ah...been to the hell for a few days n back! got a few replies....how heart-warming, nonono... StQwerty aint replying or talking to no one neither is he demented...he's trying to influence the readers...reader digest....thanx for the reply despite of a busy working life.
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I’m not dealing with politics here, ok? But, on another hand it’s looks like I’m talking about politics issue! Fk, what the hell am I talking about? If anyone of you who are reading right now who is a grassroot member, parliament representatives, political advocates, brain-washed army personnel.. u feel what I’m about to say to be seditious or highly insulting, aggressive in nature, leave now or treat my comments as a folklore, campfire story, AH ‘Cong’ story, bring a chair, a stool, anything to sit around me….treat me as a born story teller, although I’m only 21 years old, not brain-washed by the government, fk, I’m not a psychological mutants of the government in singapore……..hahahahah……… deemed me as an heretic now, burned me at stakes, cut my head off, charged me with treason, breach of trust fk, whatever, I don’t care. I not afraid of death, are you?
Let me remind you, IÂ’m not afraid of deathÂ…Â…Â…Â…Â…. So give me hell all you want, but remember IÂ’ll make sure you suffer the same fate as meÂ…Â…Â…Â…IÂ’m a mirror , I reflected everything you threw at me.hahahahahahhahahaaÂ…Â…
So here I begin my ‘story’ or truth…….
Third –world country in olden singapore means kampong everywhere, fishing village here and there, no commercial hub, no medical hub, unlike now, rmember the siamese twin operation helped us to gain global medical recognition, right? Mountain people everywhere just like my dad when he is young, most of the ppl, citizen in singapore 50 years ago from now dwelt in simple places like kampong ubi…etc everywhere in singapore full of them, they lived on pigs, chicken rearing, fish rearing, picked mangosteen everywhere
, climbed trees like monkey, swim in the river, get ur self muddy in the river bank, run around like mad screaming kids everywhere……..ur ah ma chased you around, panting for breathe, scolding you, “ ah boy, see lang kia” come into the house to ‘jia peng’…. Eat rice…. “If boh teha chui, ah ma paah lea ah!” if you dun listen, grandma will caned you….
Ah yes!, I highlighted a hibernating, lied dormant, long forgotten memories, in you? Right? Those who are 30 years or older will know what IÂ’m talking aboutÂ….or those living in kampong or village before..
all I have mentioned above is 50 years ago lah not now ahÂ…Â…Â…Â…Â….
Our dear….bravado,,,,,handsome…intelligent, superior intellectual, smart, highly articulated, impressive capable, rich, charming Mr Lee, LKY, hated, despised, loathed the above living condition al lot…. Remember third world situtation. Why? Mister Lee , highly educated, top scorer lawyer, overseas graduates in England, learned a lot about high class of living, dignantly, respect, to gain respect from the advanced country at that time, to let the ah moh respect you, so he decided, sworn to himself he will make singapore into a first world country like his ala mater, england when he got his knowledge, sipping english ceylon tea, eating english delicacies , english scones, english cakes, speaking like a high class english man, smacking his lips, saying “this cakes is absolutely fabulous!”
“I want more, everything of a high class english society to comprise in the development of singapore or the next millenium”, he said …read his books, memoradum, u’ll know what I’m talking about!
I donÂ’t need to refer to his memoraÂ’dumbÂ’ for my comments here anyway!
But u have to! ThatÂ’s the differences bet you and meÂ…Â…Â…. Ahahahahhaa..
Childish enough right?
Santa claus is coming to town to deliver a presentÂ…..
Hey, actually santa claus is despatch rider in realityÂ…Â…what a poor job he got! He must have not enough education like me to discern the complexity of the process of Newater (our latest issue to debate lahhhhhhhhh in a boring world like singapore lahhhhhhhhhhhh) ,I canÂ’t understand, explained, reversed omosis, mineral extradiction, filtration, water diversion, membranes n particles trappings, residual purification, chlorination without a taste, fusing of molecules and impurities, how to separate them, drink them in peace, piss smoothly, cool our frustrated system, cleanse our intestines, enough lahÂ… hey actually I got more questions to ask or more mind-twisting, never-ending, inquisitions to raise to challenge, to complicate ur expertises n mindÂ….ok! could you please give me a solution now! Did santa claus wore any underpants to school when heÂ’s young? Tough right? I bet u donÂ’t know the answer to it!
U think IÂ’m humorous in person. fk no! ur wrongÂ…Â…Â…Â…. IÂ’m ur hellÂ… believe me,
HahahahahahaÂ…..soooooooooooooooooooo **********expatraties over in singapore.. be not proud, tourist, keep ur shit to urselfÂ…Â…Â…. HahahahhaÂ….sorry, ahem! I got carried away!
although IÂ’m only 21 years old, not brain-washed by the government, fk, IÂ’m not a psychological mutants of the government in singaporeÂ…Â…..hahahahahÂ…Â…Â… deemed me as an heretic now, burned me at stakes, cut my head off, charged me with treason, breach of trust fk, whatever, I donÂ’t care. I not afraid of death, are you?
Hahahahaha……..i’m a childish chap who got nothing to do in life, don’t mind dying, money don’t appeal to me at all… so don’t bribed me, kiss my ass, take ur 10 thousands with you, I cant be brain –washed, kid bear the consequences urself , those reading this lahhhh……………….foreign expatriates, we dun need you at all…… see lang ah moh, staining our world with ur shit,, get Lost now , go back to ur nasdaq, bloomberg, ur stock market in wallstreet…. our economy is as concrete as ever without ur pathetic aid, fk get out of our face…..singaporean born citizens shall rule over ur silly ass… stop going to the stupid pub, ur banned, ur rejected, we repelled ur white-hairy asss, stop wasting our beer, take ur jean beam n cola, budweiser with you….we drink tiger beer, our home-made booster, u hairy six feet tall ass get lost now….
We hate ur hairy ass, u ‘played’, fooled around when ur wife is around minding ur brain, u fuked our homely girls, our homemade product, our singapore girls, our conservative soul, proliferated them, bent them to ur wishes, ur outrageous demands…white hairy ass, get my words, get the fk outtta here, u don’t belong to our society, ur not part of singapore, never mind ur stupid stamford raffles…….folded arms and ur shit .we prefer tau po n tau gay to stand up, I’m not kidding, neither is GOD!
Damn! I always got carried away, so back to our DEAR MR LEE storyÂ…
1)Mr lee made a mistake ‘independenced’ singapore? Make singapore not dependant on any country, survive on itself own ? Maybe…
2)If we stay to the malaya fedaration n union, weÂ’ll be better off? No , definitely nonononono NO!
First, u see why I considered it as a mistake! We lacked natural resources like water n must have products like rice farming, chicken ‘ayam’ farming….how to survive ? just like a disable man without his legs and arms, without his limbs, moving around independently could be done but very tough, u understand right? so we gotta open our door to trade lah... cannot be selfish n isolated...must be friendly to other countries e.g malaysia despite their hostile treatment towards us.... no need to elaborate here, u understand hooo?
Singapore too ,if we wanted to survive, but for how long? We have survived for 38 years, it is only a small, insignificant age, duration compared to US, china which got like a 5000 years history but full of turmoil of course. We donÂ’t really experienced any turmoil, major conflicts in singapore yet! Right? Just like u donÂ’t got any chicken poxs before, PREPARED TO GET ONE NOW! If u already had one, ur risk or chances of getting is smaller and unimportant to you at allÂ….so speaks ur family doctor as ever.
Second option to reckonÂ…
No why? becos the malays are not prepare to share their country and everything with usÂ….
So chinese in malaysia would get intimidated by the muslims, we wont have any share of educations, businessesÂ…etcÂ…Â…chinese or race other than muslims, malays would got impartial, unfair , biased treetments of all kind u could imaginedÂ…. We got discriminated in generalÂ…Â…
Then how?
Die lah but u donÂ’t ask Mr lee to die, he got a bright future, actually he can considered migration to other countries but he chose to stay in singapore and develop the fishing villageÂ… maybe a challenge to himÂ…who knows ? why was that he could migrate to other already advanced country who could compensate a talent like him? HeÂ’s a cosmopolitan, highly educated, brilliant man but despite everything, he chose to stay in singapore and unleashed his talents n dreams, stubborn, one-sided belief, determination
To make singapore work unlike doc mahathir incapabilityÂ….. so our MR LEE ruled over us, over your soul, over ur body, over ur mind, over ur thoughts, over ur intentions, over ur belief and ur dreams n last but not least over the next generation childish kid like meÂ…Â….hahahah..
Still to be continued when IÂ’m back from hell vacation, dinner n dance in infernal pit, inhuman feastÂ…Â….
Who is willing to share a carpool with me, the devil advocates, the hellish attorney evolved from the pig abattoir?
Written by StQwerty lost in the x-demension, the receding horizon, overcasted skyÂ…. -
cool.. i learned a new wordOriginally posted by jeramy:what StQwerty has lamented here...actually just reflects what this world is all about, to a certain extent anyway...
this world is screwed up haiz
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"tibet lama lamented about the world is going to end soon..., prepared your raincoat and umbrella to defend yourselves against the alvanche, hahaha" -
are u sure about this? i have affixed every 'death sentences' with a parental guidance or 'kid reading, bear own consquences' warning... hum... so i dun got blame by their suicide if any are to arise of course...Originally posted by Devil1976:ALOT of time you can't expect to change someone... Reason's simply because you're not that someone... But you DO have a CHOICE over what you wanna be... Gonna do... I never say it's gonna be easy.... I just said you have a CHOICE.... Many things ain't easy in Life.... People still made it....
If you think that someone've strayed you can TRY to change him/her.... But remember, it's never a 'MUST'.... Changing someone can have great consequences... Even if it's out of good will....
I RESPECT your choice for confining to your own thread... But urging people to die? If you think that someone've got you wrongfully psychologically brainwashed, then think about what you might be doing to the others...?
Things may have gone VERY WRONG for you in the past... You WISH that you could have made a DIFFERENCE but you may have little choice back then.... But the WORSE is when you've FINALLY got ALL your CHOICE and CONTROL.... You STILL make the MISTAKES when you have LOTS of CHOICES over what you wanna do....
Don't always curse and swear at people... Not everybody OWE you.... SOME people might OWE you ALOT.... But COMPARED to what you've robbed and deprived of yourself.....?
You do the calculations....?
i eat tau po n noodles for lunching in coffeeshop-----$2.00
i eat roti prata kosong 2 piece------ 80 cents
i eat chicken rice-----$1.00
i drink Qoo---$1.00
i dropped $2.00 into the drain
i donated $1.00 for charity, kidney foudation, spastic association, elderly hospice each......very good heart ah......
total funding i got in my bank $10.00
i left--------10-9.80= 20 cents left in my poc..... -
-_-`~ Ever when the TV says "Kids, do NOT try this at home..." They still 'fly' around like superman....? ~Sigh....~Originally posted by StQwerty:are u sure about this? i have affixed every 'death sentences' with a parental guidance or 'kid reading, bear own consquences' warning... hum... so i dun got blame by their suicide if any are to arise of course...
i eat tau po n noodles for lunching in coffeeshop-----$2.00
i eat roti prata kosong 2 piece------ 80 cents
i eat chicken rice-----$1.00
i drink Qoo---$1.00
i dropped $2.00 into the drain
i donated $1.00 for charity, kidney foudation, spastic association, elderly hospice each......very good heart ah......
total funding i got in my bank $10.00
i left--------10-9.80= 20 cents left in my poc..... -
Please dont associated me with the terrorist ok? i'm not in 'jamileeh.... islamania' the only place i've place my bomb is here in SGforum, virturally... as usual u dun like my words get out now....
or i'll call my bouncer to give u a hand.
do be misunderstood, i've never been, step into a pub before but u cant beat me in drinking beer!
lets pinpoint the next location of terrorist attack....
possible venue
1) north pole---ohhhhhh the polar bear is goin to diieeee!
2) south pole-----nononoonon we got a singapore flag there, remember khoo planted it there when he reached the center.
its coming closer, first World trade, then Bali, future singapore! AHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhh, urgh, it taste bitter, lets stay at home!
those working in US company, enterprise,embassy,institution, MAY GOD BLESS YOU! the securites is asleep.
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u know what? a bomb could be planted or placed strategically in a vending machine situated in the middle of a crowded streets...like orchard plaza.
Mrt train, one of the cabin or the car n detonate once underground! why? the underground cave is confined so the shock will be amplified!
a bomb in a supermarket or shopping arena.....very common also.
aeroplane hijaking--well known method.....
kamikazis wrapped with detonation running towards a crowd of ppl
n blow!--- another common
a car with bombs driven into a crowded place...... very common tatics always advertised in movies..
what else could you think of?
interested pls reply!
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one question for the terrorist in jemiaah islamia,
could you guys, bombs adorning gentlemen tell a differences bet Australian white men and american white men?
are u people against the americans or agianst white ppl or against anybody who is sophisticated, modernised, city-dwellers or gainst people who drink alcohol in a liberated pub?
why do you ppl like donkey, mule, camel and AK47 rifle so much?
i know you ppl, goat-tee handsome man hated shotgun, either automatic or pump action. why? is it bcos the americans like the shot gun.
Is ur beloved leader, Osama bin lader, is really 6'6 in height, 1.98 metres?
what did his mum fed him with when he is young?
camel's milk, goat's milk?
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try to decode my binary, convert it to hexa, then to decimal, then you got the next terrorist location.....
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Those not involved in our family feud or turmoilÂ…. Get out now! As you as came to know me recently from my writings, IÂ’m a somewhat a creative personÂ….but not now. I got serious explanation to clarify to those involved in the feud. ItÂ’s not complicated but it depends on who is reading it, what sort of family ur from to discern the complexity of the problem!
those u from a responsible, fortunate, good, spoilt, silver spoon, over-indulged family, sorry to say, u wont understandÂ…haha. Want me to kick ur dumb ass? DonÂ’t u try to act cool in front of me. Ur just compelling me to raise up my middle finger n growl a, fuck you! Yeah, singapore discouraged the vulgar n the scumÂ… scum of the earth! scorch the earth! Opps! I got carried away! We donÂ’t have hard-cored in singaporeÂ… so I sought the USÂ….dead bodies in the gutter everywhere, clogging the drainsÂ… bullet wounds, lead filled human carcasses, death stench n rancid smell evaporating! I got ur mind reeling! Haha.
Those of you from a poor family or being thrown into the society at young age to struggle, to survive, coolÂ…
UÂ’ll understand, a portion of it only. Just a small portion, I donÂ’t need to elaborate, itÂ’s ur problem not mine. See, IÂ’m selfish right? Well, everybody is selfish to an extent to save ur own life! God made us selfish. By the way, please pardon my english, itÂ’s not good, I hope uÂ’ll understand! IÂ’ll try my best! Believe me I wont be able to tell u face to face, person to person as much n as fluent as writing here!
As you know, IÂ’m scare of reality, I ruled in my dreams. Everybody around me is reality, so IÂ’m scare of them, but in my dream IÂ’m unbeatable n invulnerable! IÂ’ve fixed, constructed, erected, designed, rendered a beautiful world inside my dreamland with me living in it. Words is inadequate to describe dreams as u all know but enough to form n pieced together the reality we r living in. A utopia is what I mean.
So here I begin the faultÂ…
Due to initial woes e.g I saw my father strangled my mum, he squeeshed her neck with both his hand, I saw my mum withered like a helpless dog between his palm. For ur information, IÂ’m already born at the time, sitting on the floor playing with my lego pieces, comeon, imagine a chubby child sitting on the floor playing with his new lego set. Where did I got the lego set, I earned it myself. how? Such young age?
Thru the third prize I got in my kindergarden examination, (hey hey hey, this shows that I’m intelligent right!) then my mum will boast the whole present winning to my dad n sister, to show off lah! Of couse lah, the father will be proud of his son, mum too but the sister… due to lots of attention being paid to me, my sister grew jealous of me! Cruel truth of the stupid society sure was successful in accessing my family n seized in between its crushing grasps. My sister is not to be blamed! She is young too! I understand but my parents… they failed to realize the danger n failed to rectify the problems promptly n allowed it to evolve into a monstrosity chaos right in the heart of our ‘warm’ family. Fk. I’m not exaggerating, feel my words with ur heart, u’ll understand the true meaning! Please don’t ever say I’m trying to jerk ur tears ok? I’m not trying to get ur sympathy, I’m explaining the reasons for my hard-hearted n lethargy on life.
My dad is weak! He cannot be a man, not a father, not even an upright person! Fk. My mum is blindÂ… or desperate. Fk. When a person is desperate, committing mistakes is aplenty n easy. Her mind will tend to overlook n shroud logical thoughts n decisions. My mum is one of the unfortunate victims. Fk the desperate! GOD IS THE CULPRIT! My mum got married to him for a cheap price! He donÂ’t even cherish his understanding wife! Well, IÂ’m goin to make this known to everybody especially, EVEN IF UR FAITHFUL WIFE RAN WAY FROM YOU, U R TO BE BLAMED! Something hideous, ugly u must be committing to repel her away! Fking get this! Well, I do know of a few case where th3e wife is totally at fault! Ok but not in my fmaily lah! My mum is a respectable, upright, strict, faithful, honest, honorable, irreplaceable, unpreceded, meek wife, mother. -
nothing intellligent to post, dun post anytinhg ok?Originally posted by Devil1976:-_-`~
i dont need ur support at all, MR DEVIL even if i'm talking to noone in particular...i dont need ur sympathy, i dun get any incentives neither! -
I got kicked into my dreamlands due to the initial woes. This always happen! This is life! When a kid is exposed to the ugliness of the society at a tender n young age, he got kicked into his dreamland to escape the painful, mind-reeling, cruel reality. IÂ’m no an exception! Dream is wonderful, my dreamland is even bigger than singapore itself but lacks the cruel, hostility n darkness of the reality. It is always sunny days in my dream. My dreamland got a few new addition to it a few years back. Who? U know ah! I donÂ’t have to mention whom! ItÂ’s really embarrassing! ItÂ’s a SHEÂ….fkÂ… I miss herÂ….ahahhahahahahhahahahaa! IÂ’m dreaming again! Gotta flush my head in the toilet bowl!
Hey back to the initial woes kreated by the dumb manÂ…
Hey did you ever see a bruise on an arm as big patch as a knuckle size! Hum?
Â…. IÂ’m not joking. I saw the bruise on my mother when I was like five years old, I think my sister remembered! Gotta wrecked her forgotten memories for it! Courtesy from my dumb father, with compliments!
Kick his bloody ass! U know what? It really amazed a kid like me, shocked at the same fking time, wondered how my mum got it from! She was weeping at that time, crying her heart out, heartbroken shrieking n moaning, groaning like a dying person! IÂ’m used to it! Sorry dear sister, I know itÂ’s painful for you, neither am I helpful with me refreshing the dormant old haunting past. Ur husband gotta understand n love u more! IÂ’m alright! I only hate life! I donÂ’t get angry any more but if IÂ’m to erupt once again, I swear, not even a bullet is going to stall me ANYMORE! But of course, I wonÂ’t harm those not involved in the initial woes. I hate fighting! Lets forget everything! I hate threaten! Not to mention those asshole in the school.. fkÂ…IÂ’m not vindictive neither am I determined to make them payback!
I just hate life! hope IÂ’m not freezing ur atmosphere n tensing it with my gloom. IÂ’m used to love violent, IÂ’m taught to love, accept violent quietly!
Now if u ask me how to chase a girl, or how to make her feel good, how to make her feel unique, sincerely n franklyÂ…Â…I donÂ’t know!
Now if u ask me how to be a good son, how to be piety, how to be a caring son, how to treat ur old mother, sincerely n franklyÂ…Â…Â…..i donÂ’t know!
Now if u ask me how to be a good husband, a good examplary father, a good family manager, a financial managerÂ…Â…Â…Â…Â…Â…I donÂ’t know!
Now if u ask me how to make friends, how to associate, socialize, be a good friend, make whatever contact
With human, with pplÂ…Â…Â…Â…Â…I donÂ’t know!
But if u ask me how to read a juvenile, a child, a kid, a delinquentsÂ’ mindÂ…..i do know a few tricksÂ….
I could advice, answer ur doubt, tell u why they acted this way but u have to execute it yourselves! Since u r the father, I’m not! Give u a frequent asked question FAQ about kids frustration n needs n attentions… I could help, without a fee, no charge lah, I’m NOT professional what! Or u rather seek PRO help, also can, u pay what not me which is even better than my advice, but I’m faster to give you an immediate answer, but u ‘ve to execute it urself!
Sometimes I like to deviate my focus on my personal problems to some other things, not really ground-breaking or compulsive to read! As you know, IÂ’m long-winded n tend to get carried away lah like grandmaÂ….ok? so you wont get boring reading my passage. I know I used to favor long passages but now I tried to cut n distribute it accordingly into shorter passage. Okokokokokokokokok ENOUGH! -
This is strictly personal stuff! Those who donÂ’t know me personally, get out now! I donÂ’t welcome you.
At that time, when IÂ’m working in fairprice in tampines mallÂ….okokokÂ…..fking laugh all u want ..i donÂ’t care! Show me ur rude eyes? IÂ’ll dig it out! See IÂ’m low education, so I fking worked thereÂ….just like santa claus, despatch riderÂ…Â…Â….fk
After working, I got up the arcade in century square 5th level I thinkÂ…Â….now I deeply regretted it, I hate arcade, I hate the ppl there, ah beng n ah lian everywhere, who think the arcade is the best enjoyment everÂ….. I was playing daytona 2 n there was this girl who sat beside my booth to challenge me to raceÂ…Â…I lostÂ…Â…Â…..fk! I lost to a girl in racingÂ…Â…Â…Â….fkÂ….never mind about thatÂ…she got more experience than meÂ…..
Then she approached me n requested me to lend her 50 cents…..then I go…. “I don’t have…u want a token….thinking maybe I could spare one”…..then she rejected my offer n walk way! Then I walked away too! I don’t know maybe she is trying to befriend me… or something else! It looked as if she was still single at that time when we met…..her description: petite, small-framed, pale face, untanned face, cute face, slim, narrow waist, shorter than me….like 5 feet tall, black undyed, untinted hair, chinese, clear n light, soft mellow voice….i also noticed a maybank timer card dropping down n hanging from her neck…….thought maybe she is working in the bank across the berger king. Fk maybe it’s the opportunity from GOD for me to get a grrrlfriend! But I let it slipped thru my fingers…….hehehe!
HeyheyheyÂ… I dun like petite girls anywayÂ…..i like girls like Ms CareyÂ…Â…Â….fk but I must look at myself in the mirrorÂ…Â…fk. I donÂ’t have a mirror at homeÂ…fkÂ….hahah....imÂ’ getting bolder in my writings every minute!
Say girlfriendÂ…Â…Â…Â….i say grrrrrrrrrlfriend. Haha
U said u r pathetic, sadÂ…Â….. IÂ’m much more patheic than you! I canÂ’t face reality! -
As for the broken ties or trust, I could only say sorry, u don’t have to trust me also, or return ur trust in me to the initial level ok? Never a need! Don’t bother! Just don’t let me, what I‘ve done, disrupt ur personal life, carry on as usual, nothing happen, u don’t have to believe me anymore but believe what I wrote here!
Don’t be impressionable, don’t mind what I ‘ve done, u ‘ve to forget the bad past! Dunno how to put in word leh! I’m don’t feel sad, emotional writing this, neither should you! Just carry on with ur life as usual, family as usual, everything as usual……. I don’t know how to repair this trust also,,,,,,,,, never feel a need to do it, sincerely n frankly, I just hope u don’t feel sad or anything or heartbroken! Serious! I really mean it! I’m long-winded again…..u could still trust my sister, my mother of course, but u can choose not to trust me! It is really not that important! I promised, swore not to worsen the trust, just leave it as it is…ok?
(Listen carefully! Whatever happened recently, if uÂ’ve discovered something amiss recently, it is just a left-over debris from the past disaster, just like the photograph lahÂ…Â…Â…Â….uÂ’ve misunderstood already!) okokokokokokok simply, donÂ’t have to regain your trust in me, donÂ’t waste time, donÂ’t bother just donÂ’t brood about it! Simple right! Recently n in future I will be doing nothing to cause break of trust, worsening of trust or anything bad in the house, I retired already, very sianz.
About helping me, actually I hate ppl helping me, I donÂ’t like to be told what to do, just like you or everyone else lah! Okokokok, very complicated now! How to tell you the finer n intricate details of my character n behaviour.. I do it another time, very hard to explain why? Just let u know, IÂ’m caught in between my dream n realityÂ…Â…very hard to solve, very hard to switch, cannot abandon both of my dream n reality eitherÂ…... so IÂ’m somewhat very confused very blurred like sontong, donÂ’t know what to do, just like when ur bios is infected by virusÂ…Â…Â… only thing is to replace the whole mother board, dispose the infected bios away! But can you dispose me away?
Â…Â…. First u think IÂ’m like Jack Neo, same low education n got the brain n brawn to be successful!Â…Â…Â…Â….. IÂ’m not, sorry u donÂ’t understand at all!
Then I filled u up with all this words, u said I must be coping it from somewhere, I said NO! IÂ’m not angry with you but I need to clarifyÂ…..not some much as to show off or prove to u or anything but I just need to BE MYSELF, ACT MYSELF, THIS IS ME, WHAT YOU SEE NOW IS THE TRUE ME, NEVER SEEN BEFORE IN REALITY..imÂ’ always like this in my dreams all alongÂ…Â…but not in reality.fk it!
Â…Â…Â…Â…Â….then u got feeling that I shouldnÂ’t have a problem with life since IÂ’m understanding, I could express myself so clearly HERE! Right?Â…Â…Â….but I canÂ’t face reality, I canÂ’t do this in reality IÂ’m caught in my dreams half of my soulÂ…..
Human brain is so complicate, believe me!
U donÂ’t really understand the truth yet! DonÂ’t bother also!
Carry on with ur life is the better part of understanding n a good solution now! -
i'm coming!
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We r in a society,
Where strong feeds upon the weak,
The weak feeds upon the dead.
We r in a society,
Where kids feeling guilty drawing pictures of pornographic stickman,
Incestuous parents educating the youths.
We r in a society,
Where ur death will be the noblest,
Ur sin will be purged entirely! ENTIRELY!
I was all speed, dunno that I was going too fast,
Scaring all the kids running for cover, screaming for mum.
Accelerated blades shearing thru their soft bones,
Slicing them like fragile grasses,
Human cries piercing ur soul with a guilt that
Signal victory! VICTORY!
IÂ’m ur worst nightmare, bad dreams that u cant stop,
I eat away at ur soul, ur eyes is my dessert.
U canÂ’t run away from me,
U canÂ’t hide,
IÂ’m comingÂ…
U hate going down the road called life,
Serrated blade help you in ur destiny,
Help you to achieve ur dreams, everlasting happiness.
Cut it now!, cut thru the soft line called vein,
relishing the taste of blood,
feel the warm rivulets crying down ur arm,
as u bleed in glory!
This is power! This is real! Cut the veins now! CUT IT! BLEED!
IÂ’m ur worst nightmare, bad dreams that u cant stop,
I eat away at ur soul, ur eyes is my dessert.
U canÂ’t run away from me,
U canÂ’t hide,
IÂ’m comingÂ…
Ur Mum is lying, Dad is deceiving!
Have trust in me, I shall grant u peace,
Chased away ur fears n cradle you like a newborn
Take you away from harm,
Cruelty n darkness of life,
U shall feel the warm of fire n gasoline burning at ur soul!
ItÂ’s great! OH GREAT! BURN!
IÂ’m ur worst nightmare, bad dreams that u cant stop,
I eat away at ur soul, ur eyes is my dessert.
U canÂ’t run away from me,
U canÂ’t hide,
IÂ’m comingÂ… -
wow........so late still posting these ah?
dun think so much lah....dun think u can sleep well later....
ur mind's gonna be too ACTIVE with these thoughts.....
drive u CRAZY man......
yah i know u gonna scold me.....
HATED me mah coz i dunno u n i still reply
im inviting myself for a tongue-lashing by u?!?!
nah........nvm lah......as long as u enjoy lah
hey...the ones who noe u still online this 'early' n reading them?!?!
hope wat u r doing can make u feel better.....
n may the 'meant-to-be' readers reading them as well
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Originally posted by StQwerty:
nothing intellligent to post, dun post anytinhg ok?
Like you have anything intelligent to post...? -_-`~
i dont need ur support at all, MR DEVIL even if i'm talking to noone in particular...
Who says I'm giving you any support anyway...? I just love to see people WOE and WEPT... That's why I'm the DEVIL.....
i dun get any incentives neither!
Neither do I....? -
Channel his ENERGY in the RIGHT DIRECTION and he might just get himself a DEGREE or something....?Originally posted by reallieRAW:wow........so late still posting these ah?
dun think so much lah....dun think u can sleep well later....
ur mind's gonna be too ACTIVE with these thoughts.....
drive u CRAZY man......
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Chain Reaction
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Uranium particles dug up from the soil,
Refinery and purifying to get what you have in mind.
Atomic structures is shifted,
Convention explosion initiated,
Charged particles collided vigorously,
Escalating into a un-reversible process, escaping is futile! FUTILEÂ…
Electromagnetic travels at light speed, de-capable communication, and
Ruthless penetration as everyone is unforgiven.
Enormous waves of heat scorching ur back,
U feel ur lungs being puncture before everything fades to black.
Payback time is here! IS HERE!
Ionizing the air, electrifying the atmosphere,
Forming a chain reaction with u in the middle. [Repeat 2]
Shock-wave tremor shattering the concrete jungle,
Leaving nothing to Beauty.
Mangled steels and rocks splitting the roads,
Blocking ur only escape path, desperate seized u,
As u hope for the worst! WORSTÂ…
Ionizing the air, electrifying the atmosphere,
Forming a chain reaction with u in the middle.
Radioactive clouds evaporating rapidly,
Beyond the ozone, the sky is rendered pinkish-red.
Destruction is now widespread, Death is euphoria.
He got ur soul at his hand and with a cross-bone,
U beg for mercy! MERCY!
Ionizing the air, electrifying the atmosphere,
Forming a chain reaction with u in the middle.
Carnage is over, survivor is sparse.
Rain is here to baptize,
Cleansing them of their sin.
Anguish n agony horrify every single soul,
Emptiness is here to justify the innocents! INNOCENTSÂ…
Ionizing the air, electrifying the atmosphere,
Forming a chain reaction with u in the middle.
Over-exposure, blinding rays of white heat,
Causing everything to disintegrate. OH GOD!
Obliterating all, freezing the time,
As life come to a standstillÂ… standstill.