break up
-
I hear you my friend. You are not the only one that has been through the bitter experience of having a relationship that one has thoroughly invested in to fall apart. I was driven nearly to suicide too, except that mine involved the Live Grenade throw in BMT. That particular relationship of mine was extremely intense and to be torn from it was a mortal pain. I sincerely believe that no one's general advice would be beneficial to you at this point. Your primary focus is upon the great loss that you have suffered and plain, empty instructions like "Go play soccer or something" would be irrelevant.Originally posted by CyberNut:Hi. I just broke up with my girlfriend of 7 months. I'm 17. This is my third relationship. This time I really put in everything I got. I can't get over it. I admit it too was my fault, but there's a lot of bad timing involved, that caused all these to happen. Long Story. Ain't gonna say. I really need someone, someone human to talk to. I nearly jumped down the MRT train track yesterday. Without thinking. I had to look away. I feel like a zombie. Nothing in life seems to matter anymore. No goals, no aim. She was what encouraged me to do things, she became my sole encouragement. Now I have lost her. Even as I dream, I dreamt about not having her. Could someone tell me what to do... I'm not exactly askign for answers. I'm just lost. Lost forever. Drowned. In Love.
I can, however, offer you what I myself DID after my own run-in with ill fortune. I went out with all my best friends, organised a few parties and clubbed more than I usually did. I think I may have a few gigs up for January... perhaps you might be interested to come?
Oh... and some more practical advice. Try not to pester your ex for patches at this point as it would lessen your chances of actually getting back with her (learnt it the hard way) and you are most likely in the 'rebound' phase at the moment. Avoid all impressionable young women like plague- you just might get another (very) short term relationship that would be more than you bargained for. Some men in rebound become more attractive somehow... afterall, there's no aphrodisiac like lonliness. Take your mind off scoring and love, kickback and escape. I hope that has been helpful.
Happy New Year. -
Thanks for all the encouragement. She told me she wanted a reunion, but not now. She felt that she is not ready, and wants some time off, to lead a single life again. I'm sure many of us have heart this kind of talk before. It gives us a sense of hope, yet a fear, that it was not to be. A stae of confusion. I know this time is hard for her as well. She too, was really serious, before all these mayhem broke out. But her way was to avoid thinking about it altogether, to prevent the painful memories from comign back. But if she learns to forget, how are we to get back together again? She's hot and cold at intervals, and it hurts like hell. Time will heal all wounds, but scars shall always remain. I guess I could only pray for peace for now. I never would have chosen death if I could, I would let down alot of people. But sometimes, emotions just get the better of you. I'm still well and alive, and I thank all for your concern. I'm still waiting. Just waiting. Patiently.
-
hi
i pride myself on being independent in most aspects of my life, with the ironical exception of being unable to forget things quite so easily. sure, i can be distracted momentarily ( or longer if i cared to try ), but not a day passes in which i don't relive the memories of us, the happy moments as well as the moment which marked the end.
cybernut : you see, in your case, it's not a lost cause. of course one could always argue that it's more cruel to be subjected to false hopes than to end it quickly and definitely. depends i guess. uncertainty and insecurity and this general feeling of being lost - sucks doesn't it? but still it's a good idea to take some time off. if your feelings and hers withstand this test, i'm quite certain your relationship would emerge a stronger one, one that you could place more confidence in. so be patient. you'll be rewarded (perhaps not in the way you think you will be, after all life has a weird way of throwing twists in the road ahead)
rebellyon : out of sheer kaypoh-ness i took a peek at your homepage - most impressive
liked the writing on the wall section best. happy new year to you. gd luck with NS. count down to ord, it helps.
[This message has been edited by jazmyn (edited 01 January 2001).]Originally posted by CyberNut:Thanks for all the encouragement. She told me she wanted a reunion, but not now. She felt that she is not ready, and wants some time off, to lead a single life again. I'm sure many of us have heart this kind of talk before. It gives us a sense of hope, yet a fear, that it was not to be. A stae of confusion. I know this time is hard for her as well. She too, was really serious, before all these mayhem broke out. But her way was to avoid thinking about it altogether, to prevent the painful memories from comign back. But if she learns to forget, how are we to get back together again? She's hot and cold at intervals, and it hurts like hell. Time will heal all wounds, but scars shall always remain. I guess I could only pray for peace for now. I never would have chosen death if I could, I would let down alot of people. But sometimes, emotions just get the better of you. I'm still well and alive, and I thank all for your concern. I'm still waiting. Just waiting. Patiently. -
Can only wish the best for you. I agree that some girls are rather tempremental, thus leave the both of you with a lot of uncertainty. Still, she gave you spark of light, and I hope that it will ignite a fire again.Originally posted by CyberNut:Thanks for all the encouragement. She told me she wanted a reunion, but not now. She felt that she is not ready, and wants some time off, to lead a single life again. I'm sure many of us have heart this kind of talk before. It gives us a sense of hope, yet a fear, that it was not to be. A stae of confusion. I know this time is hard for her as well. She too, was really serious, before all these mayhem broke out. But her way was to avoid thinking about it altogether, to prevent the painful memories from comign back. But if she learns to forget, how are we to get back together again? She's hot and cold at intervals, and it hurts like hell. Time will heal all wounds, but scars shall always remain. I guess I could only pray for peace for now. I never would have chosen death if I could, I would let down alot of people. But sometimes, emotions just get the better of you. I'm still well and alive, and I thank all for your concern. I'm still waiting. Just waiting. Patiently.
On the other hand, still it's n harm to know more pple now. Widen it, coz maybe next time u wun have the chance when u r paired up again.
But remember suicide is never an option. It shld never be one. coz whether is it successful or not it will bring more hurt than to yourself. Furthermore, it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. u sure it's the way out?
Like to know more info on how things are going for u...
------------------
Barely Bearing Berry Belly Bear -
Know how hard it is to get thru this stage, but as the clouds pass by, the sun will rise and sat. Soon, seeing the moon will be a routine. It will be just just like a fog deminishing, as the day brightens. it happens to all of us, esp to someone who came so close and touched ur heart many a times.Originally posted by jazmyn:hi
i pride myself on being independent in most aspects of my life, with the ironical exception of being unable to forget things quite so easily. sure, i can be distracted momentarily ( or longer if i cared to try ), but not a day passes in which i don't relive the memories of us, the happy moments as well as the moment which marked the end.
cybernut : you see, in your case, it's not a lost cause. of course one could always argue that it's more cruel to be subjected to false hopes than to end it quickly and definitely. depends i guess. uncertainty and insecurity and this general feeling of being lost - sucks doesn't it? but still it's a good idea to take some time off. if your feelings and hers withstand this test, i'm quite certain your relationship would emerge a stronger one, one that you could place more confidence in. so be patient. you'll be rewarded (perhaps not in the way you think you will be, after all life has a weird way of throwing twists in the road ahead)
rebellyon : out of sheer kaypoh-ness i took a peek at your homepage - most impressive liked the writing on the wall section best. happy new year to you. gd luck with NS. count down to ord, it helps.
[This message has been edited by jazmyn (edited 01 January 2001).]
Oops think I provoked some moments again... sorryz...
------------------
Barely Bearing Berry Belly Bear -
jazmyn: Thanks, I'm flattered. Oh please don't remind me of NS... its bad enough already. Hope that you would be able to purge those ghosts of your former relationship in order to get on with your life proper. A damage emotional set would affect your morale. Try to forget by simply turning your attention away from the subject matter- Trauma is painful as always. I understand.
singlehood rules by the way. Be happy! And... Smile -
Rebellyon: Relac Lar! U NS nia lei, pple here still got 12 more mths to go wif the air-force ar!!!! so sian.......
then somemore i now N.P.S.L
------------------
***A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.***
***Don't waste your time on a someone, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.*** -
it's okay dun worryOriginally posted by Bear:Know how hard it is to get thru this stage, but as the clouds pass by, the sun will rise and sat. Soon, seeing the moon will be a routine. It will be just just like a fog deminishing, as the day brightens. it happens to all of us, esp to someone who came so close and touched ur heart many a times.
Oops think I provoked some moments again... sorryz... i think i provoke my own flashbacks more often than other pple do... so yalor...
to continue on your theme of weather (the fog and clouds and all that)...i hope i got rainbow to see soon ...
*resigned grin*
happy 2nd jan everyone
------------------
don't think too much or everything will suck -
Wat an ending... love it.. and a rainbow will surely be there for u, coz it will always be there after all the storms. and it will be a perfect one with a pot of gold at each of its ends.Originally posted by jazmyn:it's okay dun worry i think i provoke my own flashbacks more often than other pple do... so yalor...
to continue on your theme of weather (the fog and clouds and all that)...i hope i got rainbow to see soon ...
*resigned grin*
happy 2nd jan everyone
Things in life just want us to learn and experience it, so that we will become a stronger and better person. For instance, we will not understand wat it is like to pass the PLSE or O'levels, in urs and my case the A's. We do learn different things from each step we take. and we experience different feelings even though we make the same move. Memories are just things that we think it's worth to recollect. Without it, life may be easier, but surely not livelier. Coz we will not know how to obtain, share and empathise our feelings. Memories do fade wif time, but like wat u said, rainbow will appear, and will draw our attention away from memories...
Cheer up....
------------------
Barely Bearing Berry Belly Bear
[This message has been edited by Bear (edited 02 January 2001).] -
hmm
thinking of wat you said - that life without memories may be easier but not livelier... it's so true... i was kinda tempted to give way all the things in my room that reminded me of him... but eventually i didn't - i know i will regret doing that. my friend also said someday when the pain has faded i'll be able to take these things out, look at them, look back into the past and smile.
------------------Originally posted by Bear:Wat an ending... love it.. and a rainbow will surely be there for u, coz it will always be there after all the storms. and it will be a perfect one with a pot of gold at each of its ends.
Things in life just want us to learn and experience it, so that we will become a stronger and better person. For instance, we will not understand wat it is like to pass the PLSE or O'levels, in urs and my case the A's. We do learn different things from each step we take. and we experience different feelings even though we make the same move. Memories are just things that we think it's worth to recollect. Without it, life may be easier, but surely not livelier. Coz we will not know how to obtain, share and empathise our feelings. Memories do fade wif time, but like wat u said, rainbow will appear, and will draw our attention away from memories...
Cheer up....
don't think too much or everything will suck -
Thanks jazmyn for reading my post...
My story is just the same as urs but we are in the opposite sex. This relationship of mine is the first and brought a lot of flaskbacks when i think of it.
I m rite nw trying to forget abt the 2 and a half relationship we hv been together. Tell u frankly, it's hard to forget but at least u r still young but i m nt...I too tired to start another relationship over ard.
If u still love him and he still love u...try harder to convince him. persistent might works. -
i'm still young? not really... my heart feels old already. sometimes i wonder whether i'll be able to trust anyone who says he loves me ever again. how old are you sad_soul? i'm going to be 21 in april...Originally posted by *Sad_Soul*:Thanks jazmyn for reading my post...
My story is just the same as urs but we are in the opposite sex. This relationship of mine is the first and brought a lot of flaskbacks when i think of it.
I m rite nw trying to forget abt the 2 and a half relationship we hv been together. Tell u frankly, it's hard to forget but at least u r still young but i m nt...I too tired to start another relationship over ard.
If u still love him and he still love u...try harder to convince him. persistent might works.
i've tried asking before for a reconciliation, not only once. isn't that persistent enough, considering it's so much more difficult for a girl to ask a guy? i'm just worried that by bugging him too much i'll just be pushing him further away. so i guess i'll take a breather for now, and perhaps find a better time to ask him.
jaz
------------------
don't think too much or everything will suck
[This message has been edited by jazmyn (edited 02 January 2001).] -
i m 3 yrs older than u.(tired to look 4 1)
ya i agree nt 2 be very persistent as wat i did to my gal. rite nw, i believe she do nt wan 2 speak 2 me (maybe even friends cnt be made). I terribly miss her and cant thought of the feelin that she is with another guy. at least ur guy is still single and available so take things slow and tactful and also hint him that u still love him. -
he knows that i still have feelings. i don't know if he does still feel for me. we do talk every now and then, but he says he doesn't have enough feelings to want to keep up this long-distance r/s and that he cares for me as a friend only.Originally posted by *Sad_Soul*:i m 3 yrs older than u.(tired to look 4 1)
ya i agree nt 2 be very persistent as wat i did to my gal. rite nw, i believe she do nt wan 2 speak 2 me (maybe even friends cnt be made). I terribly miss her and cant thought of the feelin that she is with another guy. at least ur guy is still single and available so take things slow and tactful and also hint him that u still love him.
he's a very private person and he doesn't reveal easily what he feels...so i really wouldn't know... but i guess perhaps i shouldn't hope too much. bad for health, just like thinking too much...
only time will tell lor...
hang in there. i know how much you miss her, it's the same for me.
i look around at all my friends who've recovered from their first breakup...if they can get over their first love, so can the both of us.
jaz
------------------
don't think too much or everything will suck -
iceflame: Okay! Relac-cing. Right now I am temporarily posted to S1 while my battalion is in Thailand and I'm stuck back here with a cracked ankle. Its all a mess... but hell.. it'll be over sooner than I know it This may be seemingly typical of anyone, but I would like to persuade our friends here to appreciate their newly gained singlehood. Perhaps we should start a singles club? *IDEA* The measure might offset the misery of breaking up with a measure of humour and company
-
hmm brilliant idea but *sigh* will only be sg for hols. but anyhow, here's my two pence worth : first one to get attached buys everyone dinnerOriginally posted by Rebellyon:iceflame: Okay! Relac-cing. Right now I am temporarily posted to S1 while my battalion is in Thailand and I'm stuck back here with a cracked ankle. Its all a mess... but hell.. it'll be over sooner than I know it This may be seemingly typical of anyone, but I would like to persuade our friends here to appreciate their newly gained singlehood. Perhaps we should start a singles club? *IDEA* The measure might offset the misery of breaking up with a measure of humour and company
take care of that ankle
jaz -
Wah!! Power!!!
S1 ok wat so relac.
then sort of big shot somemore.....
Dunno if one day will i get to be a RSM or Commander or not.
heee.....
3 Jan Liao, Me Still Dreamming!!!
[This message has been edited by IceFlame (edited 03 January 2001).] -
I can understand that most pple will either return or throw away all the stuff that was given to then by their ex. coz they dun want to think about them. In my view, as long as you are comfortable wif it, I feel that it's even better that you keep. Coz there was this period of time you had joy and laughter, anger and sorrows for this person. Keeping it as a momento will surely bring on the smiles when recall your younger days. Not saying that you are old now, but maybe when you look at it when you have a family and tell it to your children, they will scream wif excitement.Originally posted by jazmyn:hmm
thinking of wat you said - that life without memories may be easier but not livelier... it's so true... i was kinda tempted to give way all the things in my room that reminded me of him... but eventually i didn't - i know i will regret doing that. my friend also said someday when the pain has faded i'll be able to take these things out, look at them, look back into the past and smile.
Just a understatement, all these are fine if u have thoroughly forgot your love for your ex and love only ur future-hubby, If not it will be so unfair for him and quarrels will have no end.
------------------
Barely Bearing Berry Belly Bear -
Anyone play computer games while they are serving NS?? *Bear raises up his hand*Originally posted by IceFlame:Wah!! Power!!!
S1 ok wat so relac.
then sort of big shot somemore.....
Dunno if one day will i get to be a RSM or Commander or not.
heee.....
3 Jan Liao, Me Still Dreamming!!!
Anyone play Lan games while they are serving NS?? *Bear raises up his hand*
Anyone doing office hours while in NS?? *Bear raises up his hand*
Anyone who is of status PES A doing admin job while in NS?? *Bear raises up his hand*
Hee hee... sorryz.. for being bhb here... hee hee..
------------------
Barely Bearing Berry Belly Bear -
i think many pple never truly get over their first love. dunno about me lah... you leh...? bear whole day give advice but never says much abt himself...*curious*Originally posted by Bear:I can understand that most pple will either return or throw away all the stuff that was given to then by their ex. coz they dun want to think about them. In my view, as long as you are comfortable wif it, I feel that it's even better that you keep. Coz there was this period of time you had joy and laughter, anger and sorrows for this person. Keeping it as a momento will surely bring on the smiles when recall your younger days. Not saying that you are old now, but maybe when you look at it when you have a family and tell it to your children, they will scream wif excitement.
Just a understatement, all these are fine if u have thoroughly forgot your love for your ex and love only ur future-hubby, If not it will be so unfair for him and quarrels will have no end.
i'm a karang guni...collect all my old stuff, can never bear to throw away letters, movie tix, notes exchanged during lectures...and all whole assortment of useless ( in the practical sense ) things of sentimental value....even emails i also print out and keep... quite silly rite?
jaz -
pple so jealous liao still make pple MORE jealousOriginally posted by Bear:Anyone play computer games while they are serving NS?? *Bear raises up his hand*
Anyone play Lan games while they are serving NS?? *Bear raises up his hand*
Anyone doing office hours while in NS?? *Bear raises up his hand*
Anyone who is of status PES A doing admin job while in NS?? *Bear raises up his hand*
Hee hee... sorryz.. for being bhb here... hee hee..
hou shang jia you!@!!!
------------------
Your existance in my life
has given me lots of joy and happiness,
But since you left me
You had given me lots of pain and miseries,
Would you come back to me
and light up my life???
I belive that I still love you
Cos' deep inside my heart
I can feel it is there
And It Will always be there
Forever -
I dun suppose that u r silly or anything. Hey like I said u have your emotions involved in the matter. It can just be a heart made out of bus ticket that he gave you just for the fun of it, it will still be a treasure to you. It's different when it's object of sentimental value. For instance, clay is just a lump of mud, but hey pple are seeing it the other way. It's mud suitable things for more pple to appreciate. So wat it's a piece of mud, some pple do see the value in it. And now the person is you.Originally posted by jazmyn:i think many pple never truly get over their first love. dunno about me lah... you leh...? bear whole day give advice but never says much abt himself...*curious*
i'm a karang guni...collect all my old stuff, can never bear to throw away letters, movie tix, notes exchanged during lectures...and all whole assortment of useless ( in the practical sense ) things of sentimental value....even emails i also print out and keep... quite silly rite?
jaz
It's how you view it, and I dun think you are silly to keep these things. Think abt it. Only u urself know how much they are worth. Only urself can tell whether they are fit for the safe or for the bin, coz these were once your treasures, and as to whether it will be in the future depends on u. Give you another example, I participated in a race, and you got 3rd, but it can feel that like it's you r the champion. Just like one of the runners who was interviewed in the Olympics in Atlanta. Forgot her name though, she came in last for the race, u can see her smile just as brilliantly or even happier than the champion. WHY u may ask if you have not seen the report. Becoz she broke her own record, and to her that is achievement. Just saying here is from the way u look at things. u have your own style and way of doing things, so just do it. need not follow wat the crowd is doing.
As you asked for my personal first love, I can say that when she first broke up wif me I was totally lost. Moreover I was still a very young teenage. There was this guy who was rather rich, he always have at least $100/- in his wallet. Mine is at most $15/- and by the end of the week it's empty. She felt so pampered when she's wif him, but not me. She told me that I do provide emotional security, but that too was much won over by him. I think memories put her in a tough spot. Until one day I told her, it's either him or me.
In my heart, I remember clearly the words she once said, she will love me forever. The vows that we made to stay together eternally. All these gave me hope and trust that she will pick me. But she chose the other guy instead.
I told myself that at least I have an answer and need to see her go out wif another guy during the week ends. And that was it, though we patched back after a while and the following yr, it was my turn to make a wrong move on her. Yet it was still maintained till we went to seperate JCs. She was in the extreme north and I was in the far west, so we sort of end it since we couldn't meet and studies were pushing us. We are still good friends now though. and we still keep in contact and I still kept all the letters, photos and stuff she gave me...
------------------
Barely Bearing Berry Belly Bear -
Just to make it even worse.. I have been doing it for the past 1.5 yrs of my NS life.. haa haa.....Originally posted by IceFlame:pple so jealous liao still make pple MORE jealous
hou shang jia you!@!!!
just like to disturb pple... heehee...
------------------
Barely Bearing Berry Belly Bear -
so nice... still can be friends... i bet the transition must have been difficult right? it's like that for me now...Originally posted by Bear:I dun suppose that u r silly or anything. Hey like I said u have your emotions involved in the matter. It can just be a heart made out of bus ticket that he gave you just for the fun of it, it will still be a treasure to you. It's different when it's object of sentimental value. For instance, clay is just a lump of mud, but hey pple are seeing it the other way. It's mud suitable things for more pple to appreciate. So wat it's a piece of mud, some pple do see the value in it. And now the person is you.
It's how you view it, and I dun think you are silly to keep these things. Think abt it. Only u urself know how much they are worth. Only urself can tell whether they are fit for the safe or for the bin, coz these were once your treasures, and as to whether it will be in the future depends on u. Give you another example, I participated in a race, and you got 3rd, but it can feel that like it's you r the champion. Just like one of the runners who was interviewed in the Olympics in Atlanta. Forgot her name though, she came in last for the race, u can see her smile just as brilliantly or even happier than the champion. WHY u may ask if you have not seen the report. Becoz she broke her own record, and to her that is achievement. Just saying here is from the way u look at things. u have your own style and way of doing things, so just do it. need not follow wat the crowd is doing.
As you asked for my personal first love, I can say that when she first broke up wif me I was totally lost. Moreover I was still a very young teenage. There was this guy who was rather rich, he always have at least $100/- in his wallet. Mine is at most $15/- and by the end of the week it's empty. She felt so pampered when she's wif him, but not me. She told me that I do provide emotional security, but that too was much won over by him. I think memories put her in a tough spot. Until one day I told her, it's either him or me.
In my heart, I remember clearly the words she once said, she will love me forever. The vows that we made to stay together eternally. All these gave me hope and trust that she will pick me. But she chose the other guy instead.
I told myself that at least I have an answer and need to see her go out wif another guy during the week ends. And that was it, though we patched back after a while and the following yr, it was my turn to make a wrong move on her. Yet it was still maintained till we went to seperate JCs. She was in the extreme north and I was in the far west, so we sort of end it since we couldn't meet and studies were pushing us. We are still good friends now though. and we still keep in contact and I still kept all the letters, photos and stuff she gave me...
hmm ultimately i believe what most girls need is not the material comforts ...it's the emotional security... like knowing you're cared for, that you're special to the guy, and that you're respected by your other half for who you are and not what you do... *sigh* hard to find these days lor. girls just want to be cherished lor... as for guys... dunno leh, my friend said he was very touched when his gf told him " i don't care if you're a bastard to everyone else, as long as you're good to me i will love you always". heh on first glance like very weird like that, but after thinking abt it...it's so sweet of her huh...
jaz
------------------
don't think too much or everything will suck -
ur story quite similar to mine...Originally posted by Bear:I dun suppose that u r silly or anything. Hey like I said u have your emotions involved in the matter. It can just be a heart made out of bus ticket that he gave you just for the fun of it, it will still be a treasure to you. It's different when it's object of sentimental value. For instance, clay is just a lump of mud, but hey pple are seeing it the other way. It's mud suitable things for more pple to appreciate. So wat it's a piece of mud, some pple do see the value in it. And now the person is you.
It's how you view it, and I dun think you are silly to keep these things. Think abt it. Only u urself know how much they are worth. Only urself can tell whether they are fit for the safe or for the bin, coz these were once your treasures, and as to whether it will be in the future depends on u. Give you another example, I participated in a race, and you got 3rd, but it can feel that like it's you r the champion. Just like one of the runners who was interviewed in the Olympics in Atlanta. Forgot her name though, she came in last for the race, u can see her smile just as brilliantly or even happier than the champion. WHY u may ask if you have not seen the report. Becoz she broke her own record, and to her that is achievement. Just saying here is from the way u look at things. u have your own style and way of doing things, so just do it. need not follow wat the crowd is doing.
As you asked for my personal first love, I can say that when she first broke up wif me I was totally lost. Moreover I was still a very young teenage. There was this guy who was rather rich, he always have at least $100/- in his wallet. Mine is at most $15/- and by the end of the week it's empty. She felt so pampered when she's wif him, but not me. She told me that I do provide emotional security, but that too was much won over by him. I think memories put her in a tough spot. Until one day I told her, it's either him or me.
In my heart, I remember clearly the words she once said, she will love me forever. The vows that we made to stay together eternally. All these gave me hope and trust that she will pick me. But she chose the other guy instead.
I told myself that at least I have an answer and need to see her go out wif another guy during the week ends. And that was it, though we patched back after a while and the following yr, it was my turn to make a wrong move on her. Yet it was still maintained till we went to seperate JCs. She was in the extreme north and I was in the far west, so we sort of end it since we couldn't meet and studies were pushing us. We are still good friends now though. and we still keep in contact and I still kept all the letters, photos and stuff she gave me...
Hope i wished i hv meet u eariler and talked abt it...