Suicidal and depressed
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Not that what you want is not gonna happen.... Perhaps there's just a better time for it to happen....? Like you've said, you've just had an operation... Why not you just 'take a break' and bear with things for now....?Originally posted by sEphIrOth:i know many people have been trying to help. but if no one knows how depressed someone can get, suicidal thoughts may happen at any point in time and to anyone.
im not a whiner. i intend to change my lifestyle and work things out. i think i should be more initiative and take control rather than sit back and see the whole show going on.
The 'stress' coming from your mum and gf.... How long have they been around? How long have you been with your gf?
My 1st advice for you is to call the professional helps listed in the sticky thread within this forum...
2nd advice is for you to drop down a few numbers (maybe of people who had offered from here if you don't really have friends) in case you need someone to talk to anytime...
Where do you live? How old are you?
If you want to, you just always PM me to exchange contact so that we can talk?
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By the way.. The above 100th's reply is proudly owned by Devil.... <
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lai lai... let's all go die tgt... den sehp will not be lonely...
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er... no thanks.
I still wanna enjoy BK , Steak.. lots n lot of sex. Booze... drugs... money.. fast cars ... travelling... girls... girls GIRLS!! partying and work hard and play harder! -
Originally posted by BadzMaro:er... no thanks.
I still wanna enjoy BK , Steak.. lots n lot of sex. Booze... drugs... money.. fast cars ... travelling... girls... girls GIRLS!! partying and work hard and play harder!
go down liao still can enjoy...
*takes out sleeping pills.. penknives...charcoal, lighter, kerosene, fire pit, chlorofoam......... and the list goes on...
now... CHOOSE!!!
*stare at sephiroth -
you gave too many options le. he'll have a hard time deciding what to do. and even after plan le, he'll still want you to buy everything for him and bring to his doorstep help him kill himself. otherwise he'll just sit in front of the keyboard and shoot u back. then you'll become the 3rd lady to ruin his already ruined life.Originally posted by aHGer^83:
go down liao still can enjoy...
*takes out sleeping pills.. penknives...charcoal, lighter, kerosene, fire pit, chlorofoam......... and the list goes on...
now... CHOOSE!!!
*stare at sephiroth -
orh...Originally posted by TTRules:you gave too many options le. he'll have a hard time deciding what to do. and even after plan le, he'll still want you to buy everything for him and bring to his doorstep help him kill himself. otherwise he'll just sit in front of the keyboard and shoot u back. then you'll become the 3rd lady to ruin his already ruined life.
den may i suggest him to:
1. take lots of cough syrup to make urself drowsy (at least 180ml)
(explaination: make u drowsy and numb, so u won't fell the pain when u cut urself)
2. take 20 tablets of panadol with alcoho
(liver cfm damage plus if u dun die, u sure vomit till jialat jialat)
3. take penknife to cut the large green vein on both ur forearms
(will become cripple if u dun die)
4. smoke if u still can hold ciggies...
(this only applies if u a smoker)
if all the above fails, it shows that u succeed in failing... it makes u successful.. then we can write "commit suicide for dummies"
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So ma fan. I teach him a painless way.Originally posted by aHGer^83:orh...
den may i suggest him to:
1. take lots of cough syrup to make urself drowsy (at least 180ml)
(explaination: make u drowsy and numb, so u won't fell the pain when u cut urself)
2. take 20 tablets of panadol with alcoho
(liver cfm damage plus if u dun die, u sure vomit till jialat jialat)
3. take penknife to cut the large green vein on both ur forearms
(will become cripple if u dun die)
4. smoke if u still can hold ciggies...
(this only applies if u a smoker)
if all the above fails, it shows that u succeed in failing... it makes u successful.. then we can write "commit suicide for dummies"
Carbon monoxide poisoning.
You will just pass out, just like sleeping. It's quick too, takes your life in 30 minutes max.
But dun suicide lar.
In your mother's womb, you already achieved the difficult task of beating hundreds of millions of other sperms.
Think about those sperms who didn't swim as fast as you.
I am pretty sure they will be sad that the person who triumphed over them couldn't even take a few setbacks in life.
You only get once chance in this unique life of yours. Treasure it. -
i get what u mean. u offer me two ways. but now i m being more initiative and taking charge by doing what i always wanted to do.Originally posted by teraexa:So ma fan. I teach him a painless way.
Carbon monoxide poisoning.
You will just pass out, just like sleeping. It's quick too, takes your life in 30 minutes max.
But dun suicide lar.
In your mother's womb, you already achieved the difficult task of beating hundreds of millions of other sperms.
Think about those sperms who didn't swim as fast as you.
I am pretty sure they will be sad that the person who triumphed over them couldn't even take a few setbacks in life.
You only get once chance in this unique life of yours. Treasure it. -
That's the way bro! way to go!
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i can only show you the way, try to nudge you towards what i think is best for you. in fact, all other forumites in AA are also doing the same.Originally posted by sEphIrOth:i get what u mean. u offer me two ways. but now i m being more initiative and taking charge by doing what i always wanted to do.
in the end, it comes down to which path you decide to trod.
and i see that you have chosen what you think is right for you.
good luck walking down that path. the journey has only begun. -
be it bad or good comments, actually i do take them to heart. however, i m going to work sometime in dec. this is confirmed.
i have to do something to myself.if not, no one is going to, everyone juz needs someone to be sacrificed so they can progress, but i m sure it wont be me. -
Originally posted by Devil1976:By the way.. The above 100th's reply is proudly owned by Devil.... <>
Cheers -
Originally posted by sEphIrOth:so what i need to do is to change my self and how i think of things, will that suffice?
Your need to change your mindset requires certain degree of inner strength to initiate and drive this campaign over a vast period of time. A short trip will not bring you anywhere. Your mind must have that level of clarity to decide what you want out of life and the kind of decision that would lead you to this goal.
It isn't as simple as stating that you would need to change yourself and the way you view things and that will suffice. In certain agreement, yes, that's all you would need to overcome your hurdle, but beneath this sentence conceal massive challenges you will face before you could achieve wholesome freedom and liberty.
With my limited knowledge, I have yet to spot any suicide tendency in your chart. In fact, if you really want to kill, I would say kill off the 'old personality' and bring forth the birth of a new you. Your depression is cyclical, I ended my progression calculation at 19.58 years old for your depression forecast, but it will return (Earth is round, so is our natal chart) and if you have not build a robust Self by then, it will hit you the same force and send you spiralling towards the gruesome maw of depression once again.
Aside to the rest of the forumer: please be a little sensitive towards others.
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hey hey Seph.. changed ur mind abt suicide?
good...
dun ever think abt it anymore ok?
be more positive and u'll be happier...
but if u wanna know more n the after effects.. i will tell u yah?
BUT dun ever do it.... -
so sweetOriginally posted by aHGer^83:hey hey Seph.. changed ur mind abt suicide?
good...
dun ever think abt it anymore ok?
be more positive and u'll be happier...
but if u wanna know more n the after effects.. i will tell u yah?
BUT dun ever do it.... -
whr got.. i only scaring him abt suicide cos it's NOT fun....Originally posted by de_middle:so sweet
been there, done that... ya.. i was handcuffed to the bed... 'nuff said...
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Changing focus...
Dear AhGer....I am interested to listen to your story leh...no offence and not trying to bring out the past but I am interested to know so that I can understand more cases, etc....
And no, I'm not a self-righteous social worker or sort...just that, I enjoy listening and helping....
And I hope Sep can walk in your steps and understand himself, AND help others who have fallen....keekke
Fwah, Sis AhGer, you role model leh...feels like Constantine!!!!hahah -
actually i dun mind sharing.. i duwan anyone to walk into those kinda steps... sad to say, im still tryin to pull myself out...Originally posted by nehpyh:Changing focus...
Dear AhGer....I am interested to listen to your story leh...no offence and not trying to bring out the past but I am interested to know so that I can understand more cases, etc....
And no, I'm not a self-righteous social worker or sort...just that, I enjoy listening and helping....
And I hope Sep can walk in your steps and understand himself, AND help others who have fallen....keekke
Fwah, Sis AhGer, you role model leh...feels like Constantine!!!!hahah
very tiring.. there are still times i wanna give up...
last time i gulp down 3 x 90ml of cough syrup (tell doc u cough lah...) to numb myelf.. cos i scared pain.. den i gulp down 30 tablets of flu tablet... den myself super drowsy so i wun wake up... den 30 panadol extra... i down all those with 500ml vodka...
sure die right? no lei.. i still here...
den end up in hospital... police came.. ask if it's suicide... but my sisi say cos i was having fever ... den overdose... nv die.. but vomit like mad cos of the panadol...
2nd attempt.. i increased those dosage... 4 btl of cough syrup.. the pills...all increase by 10 tablets.... den i cut myself with a rusty blade...bleed alot...
den i smoke lor.. puff like crazy... woke up in hospital again.... police came.. social work came.. phsychiatrist came.. i kena hand cuffed to bed.... but police say he'll treat this as accident....
3rd attempt....did everything same as 2nd attempt but added more killer medicines like sleeping pills.... but i ran to other place n die... i tot quiet enuff liaoz.. cb.. kena found again... end up in hospital again....
i cut even deeper... but doc say not deep enuff to die.. nbz... lao tian duwan me to die...this time ended in phsychiatric ward... also hospital lah...
same lor.. police.. social worker... phsychiatrist... n being hand cuffed unless meal time... but they didn't charge me.. gave me warning.... but keep my case as a record lah....
now, i find it very troublesome to die.. 3 attempts, nv die... other ppl 1 attempt, die liaoz....
really nina bay! -
now my room got no medicine... no sharp items anymore....
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b4 i did all these, i did consult Yun also...
but i still..... cannot walk out of that.... -
finally ur freeOriginally posted by aHGer^83:b4 i did all these, i did consult Yun also...
but i still..... cannot walk out of that.... -
am still trying..Originally posted by de_middle:finally ur free
hope those who keep thinkin abt dieing.... DUN SUCCEED IN IT!!!!
suicide is such a chore...