If loving means leaving, I will
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Originally posted by BaByBoY:
yet another day without her,
non of our common frens are online,
guess they must have had some event and left me out altogether..
it`s ok, i can bear w the pain, as long as she`s happy, i`ll be contented..
yet again another sleepless night and another day without appetite..
when will the day ever come?
perhaps only heaven knows...
BaByBoY
If u cant take care of youself how r u going to take care of her when she is back?
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U know...to a gal whose heart has long died, if she read all those lovely dovey words/feelings now probably wll make her feelin sick - at least tat's wat i wll feel if i ever read those kinds of words from my ex..
No offense tho', jus my comment. But im glad u are movin on, lovin a person wll teach u many things abt life..U jus need to keep learning.
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i know it`s stupid and too late,
and probably, irritating...
but it`s just a hope, and it keeps me working towards life..
i`ll be strong, and i`ll be better..
just to wait for her..
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i know it`s no appropriate,
but i cant help it,
it`s one of those emo nights... yes i`m missing her so badly now, and there`s nothing that i can do about it, it seems like i went in to sch w/o frens, and i came out the same.. everyone is busy with their lives, only left w me alone, to rot my time in despair.. i know it`s wrong, but my life really felt v meaningless.. there`s really nothing much that keeps me looking forward to.. graduation seems to be just too far away.. money seems to have lost it`s worth, food seems to be tasteless and sleep seems to be redundent..
nothing works out in my life, i`m only surviving, nothing more..
missing her seems to be the only thing i`m doing these days, hoping is the only light that keeps me alive, my logical mind tells me that i`ve to move on and carry on be a better person and such, but my heart simply couldn`t walk in the same line.. i really felt v hurt. i really felt very lonely..
BaByBoY
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Originally posted by BaByBoY:
i know it`s no appropriate,
but i cant help it,
it`s one of those emo nights... yes i`m missing her so badly now, and there`s nothing that i can do about it, it seems like i went in to sch w/o frens, and i came out the same.. everyone is busy with their lives, only left w me alone, to rot my time in despair.. i know it`s wrong, but my life really felt v meaningless.. there`s really nothing much that keeps me looking forward to.. graduation seems to be just too far away.. money seems to have lost it`s worth, food seems to be tasteless and sleep seems to be redundent..
nothing works out in my life, i`m only surviving, nothing more..
missing her seems to be the only thing i`m doing these days, hoping is the only light that keeps me alive, my logical mind tells me that i`ve to move on and carry on be a better person and such, but my heart simply couldn`t walk in the same line.. i really felt v hurt. i really felt very lonely..
BaByBoY
no one can help u if u dun help yourself.u allow urself to be rotting away like a walking corpse.
u ought to pick urself up, da B.
u have frens who want to help, but are u giving urself a chance to be rescued?
think abt it.
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just saw tv just now, and found a quote which pretty much describes how i feel right now,
`what`s there to fight for tommorrow if we know we`ve got no future?`
for me, if i`ve not hope of being there for her if she ever ever needs me at all, there seems to be nothing much i can really fight for? i seek no fame nor wealth, but happiness which i`ve lost by my own hands. regrets abundent, apologies too late, actions too far and feelings too faint..
it`s life i`m going through, the sweetest and saddest part, all at the same time..
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Originally posted by BaByBoY:
`what`s there to fight for tommorrow if we know we`ve got no future?`
nice quote... from where?
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it was from healing hands 3
abt the patient who was disabled neck down in an accident, but had a degree, he asked for euthenesia ( self-chosen death ) to ease the pain..
this was the reason he gave, he sees no future in his life, and doesnt feel a need to fight for anything.. perhaps i feel just like him now.. so helpless and alone in this world.
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Oh BaByBoy, you might not agree with me but I think you should start getting a new gf. Life is great because there are so many girls everywhere. Everyday, a new girl is born. No, im not saying you be a paedophile. Im saying it's very unhealthy of you to be obssessed over a girl who has lost her feelings for you.
And no, it's seriously not your friggin fault. I believe you gave enough. It's just that many singapore girls in general, demand a lot out of their partners, to the point of sapping off their energies? I don't see this happening during our parents' era. This could be due to the shows we watch in the media as many girls want the perfect bf. As we know there's no perfect bf or perfect man. There's no perfect girl either. I remember speaking to a beautiful girl but somehow the way she talks turns me off. Don't ask me why. Just accept the way you are and be okay with it.
I can tell you are a good person. If you need to talk you can talk to me privately. You know me personally.
take care mate
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BBB, dude u gotta pick yourself up and dun sit in the current situation too long man.
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thx ppl,
i know where u all are coming from, i know it`s for my own gd.. u all my say i`m stubborn or what, but this r/s really meant a lot to me, so much that it had consumed me.. i`m a willing party, crazy as it may sound, but there seems to be nothing else i can or want to do, loving another is impossible, my heart is filled to the brim, letting go would be impossible because it`s become permanent. i will not say it`s not my fault, i`ve done the things i did, excuses will not cover my deeds no matter how things were then. my fault lies w how i could had better handled the situation, and not just my deeds alone.. if i could had been more patient and give in even more, nothing would had happened like it was now, having said that, things done could not ever been undone, the only assurance i can give to her my myself is that i`ll nv let it happen again. i only need a chance to prove myself, whatever time, effort or sacrifice it takes, i`m willing to pay the price for it..
Call me stupid,
BaByBoY
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Originally posted by BaByBoY:
thx ppl,
i know where u all are coming from, i know it`s for my own gd.. u all my say i`m stubborn or what, but this r/s really meant a lot to me, so much that it had consumed me.. i`m a willing party, crazy as it may sound, but there seems to be nothing else i can or want to do, loving another is impossible, my heart is filled to the brim, letting go would be impossible because it`s become permanent. i will not say it`s not my fault, i`ve done the things i did, excuses will not cover my deeds no matter how things were then. my fault lies w how i could had better handled the situation, and not just my deeds alone.. if i could had been more patient and give in even more, nothing would had happened like it was now, having said that, things done could not ever been undone, the only assurance i can give to her my myself is that i`ll nv let it happen again. i only need a chance to prove myself, whatever time, effort or sacrifice it takes, i`m willing to pay the price for it..
Call me stupid,
BaByBoY
hey stupid.
I just called you like you asked for. no offence ah! :D
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Originally posted by BaByBoY:
i know it`s stupid and too late,
and probably, irritating...
but it`s just a hope, and it keeps me working towards life..
i`ll be strong, and i`ll be better..
just to wait for her..
U wanna keep the hope, so tat it can keep u workin towards life..
But at the same time, U ....
...r like makin urself terrible by holdin on to tat "hope". Wat's the point of holdin onto a rotten apple when it cant even fill ur stomach? Being a lovelorn does not help in changin her heart or wat-so-ever. U may say tat u do not hope of havin her back in ur life, but ur actions show otherwise..but i cant help it,
it`s one of those emo nights... yes i`m missing her so badly now, and there`s nothing that i can do about it, it seems like i went in to sch w/o frens, and i came out the same.. everyone is busy with their lives, only left w me alone, to rot my time in despair.. i know it`s wrong, but my life really felt v meaningless.. there`s really nothing much that keeps me looking forward to.. graduation seems to be just too far away.. money seems to have lost it`s worth, food seems to be tasteless and sleep seems to be redundent..
nothing works out in my life, i`m only surviving, nothing more..missing her seems to be the only thing i`m doing these days, hoping is the only light that keeps me alive, my logical mind tells me that i`ve to move on and carry on be a better person and such, but my heart simply couldn`t walk in the same line.. i really felt v hurt. i really felt very lonely..
BaByBoY
The law of attraction is tat watever u think & feel will attract ur surrounding to be in the kind of senerio tat u are thinkin of.In short, think negatively & u can nvr improve ur life. -
Originally posted by BaByBoY:
thx ppl,
i know where u all are coming from, i know it`s for my own gd.. u all my say i`m stubborn or what, but this r/s really meant a lot to me, so much that it had consumed me.. i`m a willing party, crazy as it may sound, but there seems to be nothing else i can or want to do, loving another is impossible, my heart is filled to the brim, letting go would be impossible because it`s become permanent. i will not say it`s not my fault, i`ve done the things i did, excuses will not cover my deeds no matter how things were then. my fault lies w how i could had better handled the situation, and not just my deeds alone.. if i could had been more patient and give in even more, nothing would had happened like it was now, having said that, things done could not ever been undone, the only assurance i can give to her my myself is that i`ll nv let it happen again. i only need a chance to prove myself, whatever time, effort or sacrifice it takes, i`m willing to pay the price for it..
Call me stupid,
BaByBoY
Hi BabyBoy,
See it in this way: Career, relationships, friendships comes and goes. No doubt some relationships last longer than others but eventually all will have an ending. All things are of transistory nature, including you and me.Life is very short and is shorter than lifespan of a piece of paper. Why do you have to zi zuo and make yourself miserable, for all that it is worth. Have some love for yourself, friend.
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just came back from a walk, i can still imagine her walking beside me, the times when we walk such long distances together.. we were so happy then, holding hands and looking each other into the eyes..
now, i can only just miss her... hopes she`s doing well right now..
time to go lie on the bed, thou i know i`ll not be able to slp, this kinda feeling just sucks...
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i`m missing her so badly now, totally lost for actions.. and i really dunno what to do... so many things that i wanna talk to her about, but i cant even hear her.. what am i to do? will somebody help me tell her i miss her? what am i to do without her? my heart beats so fast, it hurts.. just wonder how she`s feeling now..
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Think about your family who loved you, cared for you. Do you think u treat them as well as you treat your ex-gf?
That's probably human nature, u learn to cherish once u lose it, so my advice is cherish the peeps u have right now than to lose your family and friends.
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yes, you`re right, perhaps i don treat my family as well as i treat my family, i`ll heed ur advice, for they are the only people who are closest to me now..
yes, i had ever thought that ppl only treasures when they`ve lost, i reminded myself constantly too, but i nv expect things to turn out like this too, i nv thought one day, this love will take it`s toll on me. what lies ahead, i can only survive on a glimps of hope..
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is it really that hard to clear up the misunderstandings?
why is it so hard to talk? why not even the chance to talk? at least i wnt to know what happened? why cant she just let me talk?
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Originally posted by BaByBoY:
yes, you`re right, perhaps i don treat my family as well as i treat my family, i`ll heed ur advice, for they are the only people who are closest to me now..
yes, i had ever thought that ppl only treasures when they`ve lost, i reminded myself constantly too, but i nv expect things to turn out like this too, i nv thought one day, this love will take it`s toll on me. what lies ahead, i can only survive on a glimps of hope..
Sometimes.. Somethings are better left unknown..
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i know how u feel...juz the other day when i wanted to apologise to my ex for ignoring her for like 2 years n stuff she just felt so distant even though i know we still have feelings for each other.I think maybe its time to let go even though i can't forget her, tell me your awnser when u find one.
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Originally posted by BaByBoY:
is it really that hard to clear up the misunderstandings?
why is it so hard to talk? why not even the chance to talk? at least i wnt to know what happened? why cant she just let me talk?
Some relationship ended because the affinity is finished. It is just like that. Maybe whatever karmic deth you have owed her in the past life has been paid off. You are freed from debt :D
Don't waste your life over it le. Life is so short. Still have plenty of things to look forward to and other opportunities in other relationship.
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Originally posted by BaByBoY:
is it really that hard to clear up the misunderstandings?
why is it so hard to talk? why not even the chance to talk? at least i wnt to know what happened? why cant she just let me talk?
Talk What??? its over, the end, no more, past and gone with the wind.
So what if u talk, so what if you know what happen, its over, understand. O V E R.!!!!!
So, stop be a babyboy!!!, be a man, be a man that can take the hard knocks in life. You are not here just for love of a gal, there are thousands of thing waiting for you to do. So, get your ass moving!!! learn from the past and look forward into the future ok!!!
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please help me forget her,
i`m dying....
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Originally posted by BaByBoY:
please help me forget her,
i`m dying....
Woei, baby boy!! wake up, the movie had ended, sweep off your popcorns and get out!!!
What is there to remember??? wait up your ideas and go back to your daddy and mommy, stop living in illusion, pple are happily enjoying her own freedom and you are here crying over like a silly boy.
There are many peoples in this world waiting for you to love, and also many of us love you too, why must be only on one gal who never even bother about you anymore. Get over it, actually it is a blessing that it end now, if not later more worst.
DUN BE A ADDICT OF LOVE!!