Originally posted by nightyoung:
its been so long to me... a year.already.. i never expect i will go that deep and to that extent when i first met her. I never thought that was possible in the first place when we first came together and worked as a group... i never expect things will turn out this way.. perhaps i shouldn't go out with her on new year's day and perhaps i shouldn't say i like her..... perhaps we shouldn't go out together..... at all
she's still the good good gal in my mind... i missed her more after i seen the picture we took the last time....
isn't that gonna be over soon??
i wish her the best... All the best always...
its not like i am going to leave her or not going to see her or something...
i just want her to ly in my arms and watch her sleep and her smile once more..
she's the person i never forget although i said i want to forget....
perhaps i had already walked away... but keep looking back ......
maybe was... took a few steps infront and a few steps back and head to
no where..
what has got into me....

hei night,
everyone goes thru this. some worst then others. even i still go thru it. remember i said my pass was back to haunt me.
2 sat ago, my friend who usually calls me along when he goes to black didn't call me but i already knew he was goin with another group of friends. i went there and saw him, asked him how come never jio, he told me my ex was there. i was stunted. he said thats y he didn't jio.
my heart for some reason was full of hurt just knowing that she was there. i hadn't even seen her yet. tried dancing but it didn't help. tried drinking and drinking but it made it worst. finally decided to talk to her. said 3 sentences to her. then i couldn't take it already i dragged my god sis to the bar. then i let it all out.
last sat, i met a friend and i told her wat happened to me and when i had saw that my ex had left i felt so much better. she told me that my ex too had felt better once i had gone to the bar.
do you know wats the weird part abt all of this. even though its been 9 mths already but we actually have met once in awhile for movies and coffee and supper as she stays only 5 mins away from me but yet both of us felt wat we felt on that day. i cant even explain it.
y am i telling u this. cos u will experience something similar if u meet good good gal(not sleepycat ah) so i want u to be mentally prepared.