(mistyblue)
when you get older, people go in their directions. essentially you are left with yourself even if you have a thousand friends - especially women when they get married, they call you when they need your help or money, never to find out about you.
I am lonely, but I do like the solitude to let me think and be myself. I don't think friends solve loneliness at all. But if you feel they do, lots of people in sgf are willing to be friends.
Its when there is nothing to live for when loneliness strikes the hardest. Try to find something to do.
I am mostly a loner. Don't like crowds but like to have people around once in a while. I am weird, so don't take me as example.
I think the problem with me is my character. I am a honest person and I cannot stand fake people.
Its hard to find true friends. Its easy to have lots of people who hang around just for company and to fulfill social needs and some herd instinct.
I have come to accept I am a loner. Not much of a talker. Hard worker and no nonsense person who really deliver value. Apparently, I live in th wrong country in the wrong century and in the wrong field. Because in sg, only people who make use of other people and network socially, do the social chit chat to "know" the boss better get to climb.
Anyways, I like to keep my life uncomplicated
WHOA......COOL JIE-JIE!!!!!!!



finally, got find someone who has the same exact mindset as me liao.
everytime i see people get along so well with one another, it turns out that they're actually networking for their own benefits, not because they really "click" with each other, as in "real true friends").
sigh....sometimes i wonder if SG itself is the problem....but then, i think perhaps in other countries, it's the same as well, since people will always be people.
u are a girl, right? i know of some SG guys who have 0 friends but never seen a SG girls with 0 friends, because SG girls here are all like factory-produced biscuits with lots of herd instinct in them; if they're not happy with a group of friends, they still die-die stick with them as they're afraid of being "seen alone". that's why i always admire girls who eat alone at hawker stalls/coffee chops during lunch hours. sigh......
sometimes, i also feel very disillusioned with life.....it's like, selfish people tend to get more popular while those honest, overly-kind people always get "outcasted" and taken for granted.
so far, you're the first person i've met in SG who is almost identical to me! LOL!
these few weeks, i've come to the realization that i'm not 100% normal like the average guy on the street, and i find that i feel a lot better when i accept that fact. it's like "you're not normal, so stop trying to be normal".
what u do on weekends? i spend most of the day playing xBox and enjoying the quiet afternoon and embarking on my own personal venture/project when night falls.